that isn't me
don't be ridiculous
it isn't me no no that is you
and i know because i drive you home and
i look at you through the binoculars and
everything else that i shouldn't do
it was once
it's not anymore
after the rallies after my parents and
my sister were killed
then the rifles came out
it was the only way to get anyone to
listen just to listen
i killed a boy who had nothing to live
for beyond the lunch money he would get
for killing me
i shot him in the head to stop him from
shooting me
and then i handed the rifle to my
brother and i told him i'm through
i walked away with him shouting at me
you're a coward my parents are dead so
one is alive
my brother who in another life wouldn't
wouldn't harm
that was the last thing he ever said to
me the only contact i have with him is
the notebooks that i send and imagine
him receiving
i know he's alive i know it
but i'm not to him
i lied to you because i was afraid
i was afraid he might be involved in
what i heard
i lied to everyone else because if i
didn't they they wouldn't let me
anywhere near the u.n and that's the
only place that i believe has a chance
to change any of this
and i lied to you about jean solo
because
i loved him once
until the color of my skin became a
problem
the politics of my skin
i walked away from africa with nothing
no brother no family no love and nothing
nothing just a belief that words
and compassion are the better way
even if it's slower than a gun
where are you going
you've got blood all over your face you
can't see stuff like that with blood on
your face
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