Online Retreat
A Call to Awakening
19 - 23 January 2022
A Holy Life - Glory to God
20 January 2022 (with subtitles)
[Mooji] Who is yearning to speak with me right now?
James, can I speak with you?
[Q. James] Hi, can you hear me?
[Mooji] I can. And I can see you,
and I remember you from last time, James.
[Q.] It's so good to see you in this way, to meet you in this way.
[Mooji] Wonderful, wonderful.
[Q.] I've been following your pointings,
really closely, for about 14 years now.
And just this month was the first time that
I was able to be in satsang with you, in this way.
And so I understand
how precious and auspicious and rare
is a meeting like this.
And I don't take it for granted.
And I just appreciate it so much.
I would love to share with you
how I have spent these 14 years
and you can tell me if I've been wasting my time or not.
[M.] You've not been wasting your time. Come, tell me.
[Q.] So the experience from the time I wake up
until the time I fall asleep
is that the attention stays resting in the sense 'I am'.
And that's it.
And, if the attention goes out,
because that's the nature of attention,
there's no pouting about it, there's no freaking out about it.
There's just some vigilance here
that brings the attention home,
into the sense 'I am'.
The attention melts into the sense 'I am',
or subsides in it, or is absorbed, in some way.
So there are not two things here.
Just the Being is enjoying itself
or is experiencing itself.
And, this is the self-tasting honey.
You said, 'You can taste the honey but you can be the honey'.
This honey is tasting itself.
This is what the Avadhut says, 'I'm nectarian knowledge'.
I'm this nectar. I'm tasting myself.
Even this sense of the attention resting in the 'I am',
and the 'I am' enjoying itself,
even that is experienced
in this deeper, pure, quality-less reality.
And there are not really any words for this reality.
[Mooji] Yes, no words.
[Q.] There is no attention here, even.
There is no resting.
There is not even the sense of 'I',
or the sense of being.
There are no contrasts in any way.
There is nothing that I can say, 'It's this', or 'It's not this'.
Here God alone Is.
[Mooji] Yes. Thank you. Thank you.
[Q.] God alone Is. [Mooji] Thank you.
[Mooji] And you see, from here,
you say, 'There is no contrast for this,
but there is a contrast playing in the field of the dynamic.
Of course, that is going on.
And I say this because many people may feel,
'Wow! There's no contrast anywhere?'
I say, No, don't worry about these things.
As you come nicely home into this,
all the jerky rides were not from this.
They were only in the realm of the ego-mind and the resistances.
You come here, and, of course,
the life that we experience through this body
and through the play of time and change,
that can continue in its dynamic unfolding.
It's not being pushed about.
You are not pushing the river, or fanning the wind.
It happens. Everything is unfolding.
But you are not a victim to it.
It's arising within you. You cannot ...
These are not words that come easily
in the usual field of the paradigm that the person lives in.
But it's understandable.
You don't have to speak in high ways
but even without words ...
I say, Consciousness is my language, also.
It's not just that you speak English or Japanese.
No, consciousness is the language.
And somehow, all that is appearing in the realm of duality,
that can continue.
It's not that you have to strike that out,
but its impact upon the sense of a person
who is suffering it, diminishes.
It's gone.
Don't be afraid of this because this is your highest joy.
As a matter of fact,
what we are, in some way, searching for,
is again the total rest.
Someone once said to me,
'Mooji, thank you for allowing me to be no one'.
Now, in our world that can sound shocking.
'Oh, no, no, I don't want that. I love being me!'
I am not here to take away your 'me',
and certainly not by force.
You will, yourself, at some point ...
In fact, the whole essence of the spiritual search,
is to go beyond the limitations of personhood.
To recognise that which is effortless within itself.
And it is here.
It is what you are, fundamentally.
And it's not one micromillimetre away from you.
And yet, somehow, it can appear to be galaxies away,
just through the mind.
So when I hear, when I listen,
and when I can speak with you like this,
I'm very happy to see
how natural that recognition, that realisation can be.
And if you are a father, you can go on fathering.
Whatever you are doing, in fact, it's enhanced,
because it takes out of it this toxic quality of personhood.
And can you be personal?
Yes, it can appear that I'm saying that I like this.
If you love coffee but you don't like barley cup,
you are not going to say,
'Suddenly, I'm universal, I love everything'.
You can have these expressions. You're going to be so happy.
'My mind was creating this big sell-out,
that I have to give up and get rid of all these things.'
I say, That's not my focus. My focus is only ...
We are giving away so much energy
trying to be what we are, effortlessly.
And this is maybe the paradox.
But gradually, by listening,
and seeing, feeling and tasting the fruit of your own seeing,
everything is coming so beautifully.
Natural. Spontaneous. Pure.
This is the joy I wish to share with you.
All the other things have to do with what the mind is presenting,
'But what can I do? This thing happens and that thing happens.'
I'm saying, OK, OK, for now it appears like this. Soon ...
Continue to look with me.
Start at the place of the sense 'I am',
which is natural for all beings.
Just that intuition.
Just the sense, the feeling, 'I am'.
But don't add anything into it.
No descriptions.
Just the pure, natural sense, 'I am'.
Impersonal.
Don't add any descriptions,
or any intentions to it for the moment.
Abide in just that natural knowing. Like this.
The mind will say, 'Yes, but "I am" what?'
We're used to joining the 'I am' to something.
Just that vibration, that intuition, the sense, 'I am'.
And gradually ... Mind will make a lot of effort,
'Yes, but I am this and I am that',
'I am not this, I am not that'.
But gradually, something calms down.
And all that seemed so erratic and strange in your life
begins to come right in your Being.
More and more.
Will you experience moments of pain and some anxiety?
They may come, briefly,
but they will not have a landing place in quite the same old way
as when you are living with personal identity at the root,
appearing to be the root of your Being.
And you will see that the ego-identity
is not the fact of who you are.
It is the fiction
around what you take to be yourself.
So I am very, very ...
I saw you, actually, last time we had a meeting,
and I said, Who is this man? I want to see him.
Anybody here remembers that?
I said, I want to see him.
I believe I even sent you a message.
[Q.] Yes. Thank you so much. [Mooji] Yes, yes.
[Q.] I'll just say as well that,
from the outside, my life probably looks very boring.
It looks very ordinary.
No spiritual friends.
There is nothing, no angels flying at my shoulder.
But this is a holy life.
This is a whole, complete and holy, holy life.
[Mooji] Yes.
[Q.] And so, grace to God and thanks to God
and thanks to you for the clarity of the way that you ...
[Mooji] Yes. All glory to God.
[Q.] Yes.
[Mooji] James, thank you. Wonderful.
[Q.] And if this is the last time that we ever get to sit together,
just thank you so much for you.
Thank God for you and thank God for God.
[Mooji] Yes, yes. Thank you. So wonderful.
[Mooji] Thank you. What to say?
Thank you.
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