- You know, I'm only 20.
So clearly I know all the secrets of the universe,
but like,
honestly what I've learned so far is just that
dude it's hard being a girl sometimes.
Like especially in the industry,
and there's a lot of double standards going on.
And this year specifically,
I've just sort of really
kind of embraced my femininity,
and I just needed a song as like
a constant reminder that
bitch, you are that bitch.
You know what I'm saying?
(laughing)
I worked with these producers.
I worked with RoJay
and these two other guys Wes and Taylor.
And we were just at RoJay's crib.
And I was sort of right like
coming up with melodies as they were laying the beat down,
and just like with their chords and what not.
The first line of the chorus
was the very first thing that came out of my mouth
and it was truly just like a freestyle.
I was just like.
♪ Ba ba ba ♪
♪ Does the Indigo go ♪
And then I riffed off of that.
It was a total accident.
For some reason,
just those words kinda came out of my mouth really.
It just kinda made sense for it to be called Indigo.
I've always pictured myself as this very like
sassy kind of human being.
But a lot of that I think in my older songs
have been sort of like backhanded passive remarks.
But I just wanted to come out with like a bang.
Just like straight out like,
this is me bitch.
Dude, my lifestyle is just super fast-paced
especially now being in the music industry.
Like even before,
I was just a very fast-paced person.
I just get shit done very fast.
I have no patience for literally anything.
It's just kinda like sizing somebody up,
being like yo,
this is my lifestyle.
Can you keep up?
Yeah like homegirl can stay in your past.
You're gonna move on now.
This is it.
Look at me, you know.
It's just kinda like that.
You know, nobody likes a party pooper dog.
You know what I'm saying?
It's just like...
You know that one person at the party just being like,
oh but it's 2:00 a.m.
And it's like, I have to go to work.
It's like dude, who fucking cares?
Like live in the moment, carpe diem,
you know what I'm saying?
Honestly, whenever I sing that,
there's like no way that
you can sing that without doing the Mariah Carey thing.
You're like.
♪ On top of yours ♪
Like you gotta do the wave thing, you know what I'm saying.
So for those of you that don't know,
adagio means slow.
It's an Italian musical term.
I don't know if it's actually like Italian Italian.
But I studied classical piano for eight years.
And so that was a term that would
pop up in like your sheet music.
It's like play it adagio or pianissimo.
And I was like,
that was just in my head.
It was four syllables,
it ended with an O.
I was like tight, I'm gonna fucking,
I'm gonna be the first person to put that shit in pop music.
You know what I'm saying?
I learned the word gumption from a Nancy Meyers movie.
It's The Holiday
starring Kate Winslet, and Jack Black,
and Cameron, anyway,
a lot of people.
And there was this scene
where she was like trying to win somebody back
and some old guy was...
I don't remember.
But essentially he was like,
bring back that gumption, or some shit like that.
And she was like, you're right, gumption.
And she said it with a lot of gumption.
And I was like, what the fuck is gumption?
I actually am sort of a fan of musical theater.
Like I grew up watching a lot of plays
and musicals and whatever.
And that talking like sort of like spoken
run on sentences type lines and bars
are very prominent.
And I thought that was kinda tight.
It added a little bit of like dimension
and just kind of flavor to the verse.
'Cause otherwise things get boring, you know.
People don't have attention spans anymore.
I'm just tryin' to like put dudes in their place.
I remember I was hanging out with this dude
and he was just so in his head,
and the whole time he was talking so much
and freaking the fuck out.
And I was just like chilling there.
And in my head I was like, wow,
you are such a boy.
And it's crazy because like
that usually is like on girls.
It's like, don't be such a girl right now.
Like you're being such a girl.
You know what I'm saying?
And it's like yo,
dudes can be fucking annoying just as much.
And literally this whole thing is just like,
yo shut the fuck up.
Just getting in the fucking car.
Like you're being so annoying.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, it's a power trip.
We out here being powerful.
I was always like to put in some level of imagery.
We're in this big city and we're driving, you know.
So that people can really visualize it in their heads.
And yeah, like this overthinking mind
is also an homage to the psychoanalyze line.
I just thought that was very clever.