welcome back to another episode of what I really think and I got I've been
having some things on my mom for the past couple days when I did my Logan
Paul video and talked about a little bit about Shane Dawson there was some there
was some things that I said that I really just I have you had this thing
fixated in my mind about the reason why and it is like probably the most
fundamental thing that you probably overlooked is your reason why you do
something directly affects how it gets done it's like me and my friend we were
talking about it I don't think is she she definitely did not
ain't no thinking about it she didn't agree with what I said
maybe maybe parts of a she I'd really didn't understand but think about it is
is he did mess up and people do mess up when people do make mistakes you've
heard me talk about this on this channel before how we should not judge people by
their mistakes because what's that really gonna do for you
I saw a PewDiePie video today and he said some pretty much what I was
thinking pretty much what my whole opinion about it is check check it out
get swept up in that but they have to keep pushing themself and I think it's
it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul I know and keep bringing
it up and that's not my point here I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad
person I just think he really got caught up in that idea that he has to keep
pushing himself to get those numbers if you make videos every single day it's
really tough to keep make people keep being interested and keep coming back so
I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it in a way
my thing is is when I was growing up I was pretty much just like everybody else
around I was doing the jobs going to college doing everything that you're
supposed to be doing actually I went to college right out of high school and
went into business and did all this stuff and basically just did everything
that you were supposed to do and I know people that do have done the same thing
done everything that they were supposed to do in life still end up unhappy still
end up every time you talk to him they just go on and on about the problems of
the day and that was me - that was me - no offense that was me - I was just like
that and for me I got tired of it I got tired of having friends that our only
connection was just let's talk about the random bullshit that we don't like and
yeah you know that smoke cigarette it whatever I didn't like that I was like
how there's got to be more to this happiness gotta get happiness well I
gotta get a perfect body what I gotta get a million dollars well I got I gotta
get all these things and after I get all these things then I'll be happy and then
it was like well I need some money I need money so I would work these jobs
there was point in my life where I have like three jobs I worked at uh I'm not
I'm not even lying I had I worked a Walmart that worked at Bath and Body
Works I think I worked at a clothing outlet and then I was doing this and
this madness and then I had all this money and I was like I had no time and
then I thought in my head well okay clearly I need more time clearly working
the nine-to-five is not for me I need time to do these things to make me happy
if I had money but needed time so I learned and learned and learn and read
books and found out how to not work as much of a nine-to-five and focus more on
my own self and still get money from different things and once I learned that
I had time I think at that time I was working
a store manager job and did had more time to do it was nice little comfy desk
job you know got to talk to people as they come in it was pretty nice I really
liked it made me feel comfortable and then I was like I'm happy now but no I
wasn't I wasn't happy at all and then so I was like okay I know what I need to do
I need to do something that allows me to make money and I've never got to leave
the house unless I want to so I have more time to do the things that I want
to do to create the things that I want to create and so I landed myself in the
opportunity to be able to do that and then I was happy no I wasn't it was like
I really really was on the quest of happiness and I kind of read these
spiritual books and all these other things that happiness is not just
something that you can just grab the way to get happiness is just to let it go
right don't force things just let them happen because every time I tried to
grab the situation and make it happen it didn't happen so that's when I
remembered wait a minute you just gotta let it go one of my old philosophies and
this worked very well was live life like a movie one frame to the next you're in
this current situation this frame and then go to the next frame and live your
life in the moment leave what's in the old moment behind and I thought that was
the great way to be that is the key to happiness and though that made me happy
it made mean sort of neglect feelings between me and people that were close to
me so I was like okay well there's a flaw there because though I'm happy
these people aren't happy and when these people are happy I'm not happy so I
realized one of the major keys to happiness is
the people that surround you and then it dawned on me it's why why am I doing
this see most people want to do YouTube most people want to do music everything
they want fame and fortune I'm the type of person I never really cared for
things like that I'm the type of person when I was young though it helped bugs
out of the road so they won't get ran over my cars I just don't care for money
I just don't care for fame and fortune and all these things I never did
it's a second ago before I made this video I got this gas heater and I walk
up to it and I lift up my shirt and the heat goes into and it touches me and
there's a little wooden panel above me and I could put my face on it because I
feel the heat that's me that's happiness
3:00 a.m. walks at night at a place you're familiar with because the
memories that you made there are so important to you to me that's happiness
if it doesn't make you feel something then maybe you're not doing the right
thing I've talked to so many people and they talked to me about how they just
don't like what they're doing in life and I it's like I can see that they're
chained down and I'm the type of person that's like standing there with these
people like I get really close to these people on us you know come on around and
I'm like there for them and they're so chained down and I know how scary it is
I've been there and I often lose to my own perspective because it's like I'm
standing there waiting for them killing the men you know waiting for them to say
let's go let's go do this and then you realize
you get everything that you want everything that you you thought you
needed and you wake up and you say to yourself I'm happy but no you're not
it's your reason why focus on what that is I'll see you guys the next video