this is the fourth video I did three in
Tarragona it was one in the audience
where I told my story about spinal cord
damage in 2005 then I had a healing
where my body was wrenched up and the
only thing on the floor is my head in my
heels I came out of that healing and I
had my balance back for the first time
in 13 years it wasn't immediately
apparent but I realized I was turning
around without falling over and I walked
back to where I was staying without my
crutch someone was carrying it and I was
like some serious changes have gone on
it's very unusual so long after the
event to get any neurological changes of
the spinal cord damage especially c5 I'm
usually the first two years and they say
it's plateaued and then it was like
maintaining what I had lots of physio
great videos and great health
professionals you know I don't want to
dismiss what they did for me but their
time and their resources and everything
that was limited plus you can't do much
of a spinal cord damage so we had this
then I went on stage and I started
talking about the experience in the
healing where I got wrenched up by this
energy which is completely by surprise I
wasn't even at the event for a healing I
wasn't expecting a healing I was there
for the learning and to learn more about
meditation and the incredible science
that goes on behind all this so then the
third video was after I had a mystical
experience on on the penultimate day and
I was in a meditation I just took off
fractal patterns crazy flying through
space wonderful hallucination that I did
not want to come out of that meditation
it was just amazing you should see this
as someone who has because of his
condition probably made a greater effort
for the divine than he would have ever
made if he was comfortable in his life
and he was living
in the program and then I got to the
airport and people were looking at me
out the corner of their eyes it was
really strange and I don't know what I
must have looked at but I was glowing
and everything worked for me there was
no queue or if there was a cure I was
enjoying standing in it because I had
these new Lakes and then the window
would open they'd call me to the front
so I was not in the queue anymore I love
fighting queuing and then I got to the
airport I remember and I walked out the
door and my car was to take me home as
literary we're at the door I walked out
of usually have to phone up and the car
parking things and then I got home and I
was I just see of energy was just
swaying underneath hair it was just
rising and I was like I can't go to bed
so I sat down and I did a meditation and
I did the one of the old versions of
blessing and energy centers and this had
never happened to me before I was the
only one in the house as well so I sat
in my normal chair and I was facing the
wind I put my I'm asked on and they dr.
Joe's meditation said number one first
center bang this wheel of energy it was
about this big switched on then it spun
and I can only describe my reaction sooo
if I jumped into an ice bath when you go
I was like because what's going on and
then number two bang that one switched
on so I two wheels of energy just
spinning I say they felt about that big
I don't know and then number three bang
that one switched on and then this
energy just swept out of my body and it
came round behind me and it bent my neck
like from c7 to c1 and to all the time
my chair was vibrating across the floor
it was it was hugely physical thing I
would never let help with professional
touch me like that I was in shock and or
that's what was happening so that was so
since that was the early stages since
Tarragona looking back on Tarragona it
was an amazing week for me it was
incredible but it was also looking back
incredibly intense and I mean when I was
in it I didn't realize how intense it
actually was and then I got in the gym
and I was
boxing I was walking backwards and stuff
and all this stuff I could never have
done before never even envisage doing
and I started to post people asking how
are you and people saying lovely things
about me what's happened to st. Matthew
and all this stuff and I thought better
reply so I joined the Facebook group and
I started posting videos and things and
then I found myself starting to enjoy
the praise a little bit too much and I
was trying to reduce my ego not inflate
it and I felt I had to rein my ego in
and I decided I would stop putting the
videos out and I didn't didn't do
anything on social media I was still
going very hard at it in the gym and you
can't change spinal cord damage in the
gym you know you can maintain your
physical state you can you know get good
lungs and things but you can't change
spinal cord damage because matter
doesn't change matter so I started to do
even more meditation so I was sometimes
doing 3 hours a day and all I did it
certainly I was doing 2 hours a day 2 or
2 meditations usually an hour and a
quarter an hour and a half each and I
would connect to my heart when I started
and I just say to myself every time I
sit my body I connect to my heart and
and I'd say every time I sit my body
down I'm getting neurological upgrades
every time I do this and that's how it
start on meditation every time whatever
happened happened sometimes I got shaken
around quite violently and beautifully
you never never in fear of anything and
other times nothing I feel nothing by
being in the space and when I stood up I
would not have spasms the spasticity it
was really starting to reduce in my body
then I put my heart I had my put my
house on the market and I wanted to go
something completely different
changed my environment and I had a
meditation one day it was the whole
brexit nonsense no one was buying or
selling houses and I'd put my house in
market a very bad time well that was a
luxury apartment on the 10
and I went in a meditation I said to
myself I wanna see if I set the sold
sign on this on the for sale sign I want
a sold sign instead and I want something
to buy all my possessions everything
right in 82 year old lady the most least
least unlikely person to to buy an
apartment like mine it was ultra-modern
rocked up and said I want everything
even like signed Rolling Stones posters
and things like that she wanted a lot so
I left with four boxes of clothes and I
didn't have anywhere to live I stayed in
the hotel and whilst I was staying in
the hotel trying to find somewhere to
rent I tripped and fell my my gate I
wasn't like lifting up so high I was
much more even but I was also catching
my foot a little bit more and
unfortunately I tripped and fell and I
landed on my elbow dislocating it and
badly a complete fracture I could have
actually sat there and said to myself
why me why me but I've done that before
with the with the spinal cord damage I
does not work so even in hospital I was
meditating and I was thinking would I be
able to actually fix this but it was so
swollen it was like really difficult to
meditate at all but I did what I could
but it healed up amazingly well that the
surgeon was really astonished how
quickly I had full range of my arm and
I'm pretty certain it was the healing
properties of meditation so it was
another test that's all I thought of it
was another test I think the big thing
for me is that is I realized I was going
too hard at it in the gym and I just
needed to keep doing my meditations and
things will change and they are changing
all the time and I've got this absolute
belief that I'll make a full recovery
the last anything born I had a healing
and all tendons in his hand which have
been pulled tight for quite a long time
they've all softened off you know and
it's going to get to a point where it's
just going to open and I'm not rushing
it
I'm perfectly content with the journey
the journey is absolutely amazing well I
don't go back I haven't been back I
usually have an MOT every year I just
didn't go back and they stopped sending
me requests to go back I I don't I don't
think walking through those doors is a
really that Hospital is a very good
thing for me right now I do work with
people with spine
spinal cord injuries I gently gently
paste them towards dr. Joe's work but
you have to be very good I paste paste
lead basically because some of them saw
me and they saw couldn't believe it
almost like I was been faking it for 13
years I'd be a pretty good actor you
know but they were they were a little
bit shocked and some of them read
distance themselves from me a few were
like so what is this work but you can't
go in heaven harder than because it's
just too much in the way you would admit
if I just come back and said I went to
an event in May or not said anything but
it was I was so different and like full
range of my neck and everything that I
couldn't not explain what had happened
you know it was very very stark and some
people who I thought would react
differently were really indignant about
the whole thing and got quite angry
which I found at first I found it a
little bit upsetting but then I thought
Matt maybe you should you should have
explained it differently or maybe not
said anything but you live and learn
don't you my physio you know I've been
with for 13 years now
was wonderful she gets it and she just
said Matt she said I'm so happy for you
my only problem is how the hell do I
document this what do I write in your
notes and then I when I went to bond she
said I've got a problem again Matt she
said there's so many changes on your
body I can now do so many more things
with your bodies because of the changes
but I don't know what to write my notes
are this thick trust me after 13 years
yeah with all the people who were being
so lovely to me about you know my
healing how are you you're amazing and
stuff like that I felt it really my
responsibility to be there for them but
with social media you can start to give
advices and appropriate or relevant you
have to be really careful what you write
plus it was time-consuming and plus that
my ego was coming in to step into it and
dr. Jose said it's not my job and
actually what was lovely was the whole
audience clapped and it really ratified
what he said and it made me go never
rethink about everything I you know
everyone has their 15 minutes of fame I
had an hour and a half of it and and it
was it was absolute sound advice it was
it was good advice yeah as you might
imagine I will say it always always
makes me feel super grateful when I'm at
these events and people say I'm here
because I saw your video or I'm here
because you're what you said and what I
saw happen I'm here because someone went
to tarragon and they told me what
happened and it's so important to for
people to have belief in the
possibilities of this work and I will
never stop doing this work I just love
it
that's where I want to be