- Hey guys, I'm Kim, you wanna come hang out with me?
Why am I in the dirt?
Oh, wow, did you see that fly?
Welcome to this week in my life.
I cried a little, I laughed a lot.
(Kim laughs)
And managed to get lost more than three times.
But we made it.
Honesty time, I carry a good dose of anxiety with me.
So sometimes I have to
drink out of my Santa coffee mug in May.
And I may have to start the day
with a good cry in my closet floor.
So for those of you who cry on closet floors, I see you.
This is one of those Mondays
where I was so thankful to be busy.
Team meetings always spiral into comedy.
Everybody do the front bump, everybody.
It looks good on everybody.
- Yeah, that's pretty much all guys have done for a while.
- See, look, guys, we all look so good with the front bump.
Let's bring it back.
Then, some serious, so serious work.
- Are these sweatpants that you're looking at here?
Or is it something else?
Are those sweatpants?
- Yes. - Okay, I got it.
Okay, I'm just writing for it.
- Excuse me, I cried all my makeup.
♪ My girl, go back to the old way ♪
- I was gonna talk about something
that's like really on my mind and heavy on my heart,
and like why I'm maybe spiraling into a depressive state,
but then my husband starts singing and it makes me laugh.
So it's Monday.
And now, it's time to pack for another trip.
I'm in between meetings.
And I still have to pack, 'cause we have to leave soon.
And I don't know why,
but I have a mental block around packing.
I don't know what it is about me.
Is it like a fear?
I don't know what it is, but I can never motivate to pack.
And when I do pack, I pack so poorly.
One thing I over pack...
I always under pack, always under pack.
I always over pack underwear.
We're gone for three days.
And I've just counted, I'm bringing 10 pair of underwear.
I don't know what I think is gonna happen
to my bowels when we travel.
But I've packed 10 pair of underwear for three days.
Why, why, like why?
Why do I do that?
My dog is giving me the cold shoulder
for leaving town again.
And we're off, again.
It's rare that we travel for work.
I love it, but it's so weird
that we're gone two weeks in a row.
Also, I love to travel,
but I don't like flying, because of this.
- [Pilot] It's probably gonna be a choppy ride.
We'll trying to find the best ride we can,
but you can expect it to be kind of choppy
and bumpy for the rest of the way.
- [Kim] But we made it, and got lost right away.
- This is something we should be good at by now, we're not.
- [Kim] We did well on "The Amazing Race"
because we were such good navigators.
But we managed to get lost here in a well-marked airport.
We found our way and made it to Fort Collins, Colorado
to create videos with some very special people.
We're on our way.
Good morning, Colorado, we're lost again.
- Not lost.
- I am a very good navigator.
I have a very good sense of direction.
But I do my best work when I'm participating in a game show.
So I will help you, honey, .2 miles, take a left.
- [Penn] Okay, thank you.
- Fort Collins is adorable.
And action.
- Welcome to my humble abode.
Oh, and you brought coffee.
Oh, thank you very much.
Okay, do I owe you?
Did I already pay on the app?
Okay, all right, thank you.
- [Kim] This is Taylor Calmus, you may know him as Dude Dad.
We're here to shoot a couple of fun videos with him,
and of course, his hilarious wife, Heidi.
- So Taylor has decided
he wants to break through some drywall.
So just to let you know what's going on here,
Taylor's gonna bust through the drywall
like the Incredible Hulk, we have one take.
And I have to get a saw out of the way
a millisecond before he does it.
Is that what we're...
- [Kim] Penn even got to play with power tools,
which is super weird to see.
This video's going to be hilarious, stay tuned.
I tried to take a minute to enjoy the beautiful weather,
but I was mostly thinking about emails I have to answer.
So just note to self, find inner peace at some point.
But it's always a good day
when the video shoot is on a boat.
This water was freezing and Penn's legs went numb,
but totally worth it.
- Oh my god!
(Kim and Heidi laugh)
- I love traveling and exploring new places.
But honestly, I miss my people and I'm anxious to get home.
We had some time to explore Fort Collins
before our flight and practice our vlogging.
We're trying really hard to be vloggers,
and we really suck at it.
- Yeah, it's very beautiful here.
Can I just also say, for those of you
who've been to Colorado, I cannot stop farting.
Like, does this happen to anybody else,
when they get up to like a certain elevation?
- His bowels are like under pressure at high elevation.
And it has been nonstop farts this entire time.
- We're going for a walk, and like every step,
it sounds like I'm stepping on a frog.
- [Kim] Sir farts a lot.
(gentle music)
- Trees! - Nature!
We're so good at vlogging.
We're just gonna be professional vloggers now.
(Penn laughs)
- No?
Okay.
- Moments! - Yeah.
- Finally, it's time to get home to my babies.
Colorado, you're beautiful, but your flights are bumpy,
and I was a wreck.
Hey, it's Friday, we are back.
I figured I should end this with where my week started,
in my closet, which is where a lot
of my good thinking happens, on my closet floor.
So I am really tired, but very inspired, I will say.
I love to travel, I love to meet and work with new people.
I feel really lucky to have created a life I missed
'cause I really wanted to get home and see my kiddos.
I also wanted to throw in there,
yes, the beginning of the week was very hard for me.
And somebody brought up
that it is May, Mental Health Awareness Month.
And I am very aware that I am
like the president of privileged town.
I'm like the leader of luckyville.
I have a house,
and a closet filled with clothes I never wear,
'cause I wear the same thing every day.
And I feel very just fortunate and privileged.
Yet still, I deal with anxiety.
So just as we're bringing awareness,
know that this does not discriminate.
Anxiety, depression doesn't discriminate.
And that's something that a lot of people carry with them.
So be kind to people, 'cause you just never know
what people are going through.
Making these videos and the comedy and the music
and all that stuff is a form of therapy for me.
And it really helps me.
I love that you're watching this,
and we can have this as a conversation.
Because I don't know why I feel so comfortable sitting
on my closet floor, talking to you.
And I picture people I'm talking to.
'Cause outside the closet, life gets a little complicated.
But I just feel really lucky to have this.
And I'm glad that you're here and you're listening.
But even if nobody watched this,
I feel like it's a form of therapy for me.
So thank you for allowing me to do this, I love you.
Should we hang out again next week?
'Cause I really feel like we're hanging out, is that weird?
Is it weird that I feel like we're hanging out?
Okay, next week we're not traveling.
So it's not gonna be as exciting.
But I don't know, we'll have fun.
Wanna hang out?
Let's hang out.
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