[Josh Beharry] I just felt like I had to give up.
Like I felt like I was just like putting myself out of my misery.
[Reporter: David Common] It's a strange thing to drive over the bridge it once jumped off of.
More than nine stories straight down.
I got to the point where I just understood that I was sick.
But I didn't understand that that feeling wasn't permanent.
I got to a point where I thought suicide was inevitable.
And then once it was inevitable in my mind
then I was just living in suffering until I did it.
[David] That Josh Beharry did and survived is incredible.
And while in hospital he realized a part of him still wanted to live.
[Josh] I had broken like six ribs.
I had five hairline fractures and like the wing part of my vertebrae.
Like several mild brain contusions.
But in there I kind of got a glimpse of like
what if I like to be normal again?
Because the emotions lifted for like a little bit.
And that was like the first time I felt anything positive in months.
[David] That feeling fueled his desire to do what he's doing now.
Helping others like him emerge from what began slowly for Josh a decade ago.
[Josh] My thoughts were getting really negative.
I was tired all the time.
I wasn't sleeping well.
I had like my muscles just felt weak
and I just felt drained like I had no energy.
And then once like I couldn't sleep anymore
that's when it was like impossible for me to hide what was going on.
[David] Yet Josh still didn't get help.
Didn't talk to friends about what was going on.
Like most men he stayed quiet.
[Josh] I didn't even really realize that I was like trying to man up
or trying to like be tough.
But it was just like --
It was just a part of me like, I have to figure this out on my own.
I have to to solve this.
And I can't ask for help.
I don't want to.
So we have a one news story I just got submitted for us I'll be reviewing that.
[David] having survived his suicide attempt
Josh is intent on ending the stigma.
And helping others.
Josh joined up with Dr. John Ogrodniczuk.
Psychiatry professor at UBC
to work on Heads Up Guys.
A website dedicated to helping men deal with mental health issues.
Josh even shares his own story on the site.
Josh brings a lot of elements to the table.
Even more profoundly he brings us lived experience and that is so crucial
to making sure that what we're putting out there as far as a helping resource
really speaks to the men who are going through what he went through.
Men have a really high suicide rate.
And it's about three to four times higher than that among women
and not just in Canada or North America
but really globally we're seeing this phenomenon.
So we wanted to address that.
[David] Although men die by suicide at a higher rate
when it comes to seeking help
they're much lower.
A lot of guys feel alone in their experience of depression and suicidal thought
so we want to break that down and say
this is actually pretty common among men.
You're not alone.
[David] Since its launch five years ago
there have been a million and a half visits to the site.
The key words on how men find Heads Up Guys illustrate the stakes
Every day we're getting more and more email from visitors.
Some very impactful profound messages.
One that really sticks out in my mind it was very succinct and it said
I just read your article about suicide pretty sure just saved my life.
Thank you for giving me hope.
One of those men is high end bartender Julian Dabka
who saw himself reflected on the Heads Up site.
You can read these stories of these guys
and what do you realize a lot of them are like you.
And when you see yourself it's it's like, oh?
Wait a minute, hold on now.
This person's like me.
I can do this.
I can reach out for help.
I can stand up.
And I think too when you when you see somebody on their standing up and being strong
and you think oh I'm weak, but wait a minute, but I think they're strong.
Maybe I'm strong if I come out.
And that's sort of how it happened for me.
[David] Coming out of the shadows and asking for help.
A good reminder of the barriers stopping men like Julian from talking to anyone about mental well-being.
Josh's own recovery has been gradual.
Nothing is a quick fix.
And healing comes with periodic setbacks.
But he feels he's on the right path.
He's more comfortable talking.
He wants all men to feel that same openness.
The main thing that I want guys to know
there's no like point where it just like
there's no turning back.
I got to the point where I thought there was no turning back
and somehow I'm still here, I'm doing better.
[David] He's travelling regularly.
Snapping photos along the way.
All part of an extraordinary journey
One playing out inside his own mind.
David Common, CBC News, Vancouver