hey guys welcome to a new video
emotions see through your floors
but you make me kind of nervous
okay so another mukbang we have a diet coke i feel like that's gonna
be typical i have this set up i try to do this
so you guys can see the food better uh sometimes it falls and i edit it out but you guys gotta
see the tea this time today we're actually having breakfast together so this is spam and
spam and hash brown um i literally just have tapatillo some pepper i know i'm a mess anyways
let's dive in i might put the plate down we'll see i'm just trying to make it easier for you guys to
see the food yes i'm trying to season a little bit less when i'm having spam because it is very salty
so that's already its own season oh my god what a mess my table is clean i am clean every day
so today is like rainy cloudy gloomy so the lighting in here isn't the greatest
because i use the natural light in front of me and the sun said i'm in hiding today so that's okay
i put the plate down you guys get to get the picture here so i want to talk a little bit about
people are upset that i'm doing lip balms hey i'm a mukbang channel and i've gained 125 pounds
sorry i was thirsty but then there's also a large portion of people who do enjoy them
so i get these hashbrowns that are not meant to be frozen they're supposed to be just refrigerated so
so becky put away my groceries she didn't know that and she put my hash browns in the freezer
and i went to go have them today and i was like search in the refrigerator and i'm just like
where are my hashbrowns like i don't understand what's happening and then i thought for a second
i was like she put them in the freezer and right on the back it says do not freeze in capital
letters i was like damn it so i had to throw them away i don't think you guys realize how much this
is actually helping me um i i try to explain it to you guys that mukbang's truly slow me down i
don't want to keep repeating myself but makes me more aware of my food and i eat less put my period
prevents me from overeating my type of overeating and prevents me from binging i am
literally i'm an outpatient treatment for binge eating i am doing what they're telling
me to do and something that the dietitian and psychologist tell me to do is eat what i want
listen to hunger cues very important i was stuffing my face and i felt literally
sick to my stomach i was so full and you know what i did i kept eating i
kept eating and i couldn't stop and then i have people in the comments who are just like
ripping me apart because i'm doing what the professionals have told me to do like it is
hard to lose weight while recovering from binge eating especially because
they want you to eat when you are hungry because nine times out of ten when you're trying to lose
weight you're restricting so you're not always listening to your hunger cues sometimes you have
to stop eating when you're still hungry or you have to eat when you're not hungry like
whatever so it is different for me to be doing it like this um because i am like my stomach
is bigger than the average so i do get hungrier maybe a little quicker than the average person
and that's why they told me another thing that could be causing my binge eating is like
i do not snack during the day at all and they said
by eating so little in the beginning of the day is where you get super hungry at
the end of the day which makes people who binge eat they binge eat even more
and they're trying to teach me if you're craving something eat it
if i don't eat what i'm craving i will binge on it later so i don't know like
the same people telling me oh my god you're eating so much food which i'm not because i do focus on
the portions that my dietitian and psychologists told me to have
um those people who are saying that are the same people who have been nagging me to see a dietitian
to see a psychologist and i'm just like i feel like i can't win but i'm here to let you guys know
that i am doing what they tell me to do not what you guys tell me to do i appreciate opinions
and concerns and constructive criticism you guys can't have me exactly how you want me
i just wish people would let me do me watch my content if you want to and if you don't want to
that's fine if you disagree with what i'm doing that's also fine i hate
trying to open up to you guys about me being an outpatient and you guys are like saying the
opposite of what my psychologists tell me to do the opposite of what my dietitian is telling me to
do and it's hard because that's what like makes me not want to open up um about it but it's like also
something that i do want to open up about because it's like a big part of my life right now but i
just want to say moving forward i'm going to make the content that i want and i'm going to listen to
professionals um because i feel like this is detrimental for me uh i need to
and i don't know i just feel like people have the wrong idea i had eight pot stickers and
people were like that's a binge it was barely 400 calories of pot stickers like there's nothing bad
about pot stickers no i'm joking but like it was barely 400 calories like it was my lunch time
you guys wouldn't even believe what my normal lunch like back in the day would look like
like i would have the pot stickers and i would have rice and i would have
kung pao chicken and i would have like all these other things with the pot stickers but instead i
was like you know what i'm craving pot stickers i'm gonna have a normal amount um and since it
was a meal i don't know anyways i am completely done talking about this i'm gonna do what i want
um because i have to not out of disrespect to you guys but simply because i have to
and i hope to never have to bring this up again
like recovery i've had to kind of accept that it's not gonna happen overnight progress
is important even the smallest bit of progress there are multiple things i still need to work on
i still need to change i still need to get better at but that comes with time and comes
with practice and another big thing they want me to eat within an hour of waking up which is so
hard for me because when i first wake up the first thing i do is just get ready for the day like i
do my shower and my whole like morning routine before i eat usually takes more than an hour but
when i'm done getting ready for the day
i try to eat back and back even just a couple months ago wait like hours to eat
that's not good and what i've been snacking on because they want me to snack like if i get
hungry snack they even want me to set alarms to snack to prevent me from binging but uh
dry roasted peanuts keep those at my desk and i'll just have like like a serving it really helps
it really truly helps it's so weird okay so we are done with breakfast like something i really need
to work on is like they don't want me to count calories but it's like i don't know i feel like
i need to so it's like i still am focusing on calories i said it's very common for people to
do that and it takes a while to like get out of that habit but i don't know i've been doing it
i've been thinking of calories for like last 15 years my life so it's like hard to
get out of that and even now like i know how many calories that meal was because i calculated it um
that's something i need to figure out anyways i hope you guys enjoyed
this video and i'll see you next one bye always trying to see through your flaws
cause i know that you got so much more to give