Did I turn you into an angry person?
We was together, I'd say, about two years.
We're both bisexual. We don't mind, we're open.
We don't care what sex you are.
Like, every day, we'd see each other.
We used to stay at each other's house
and we just used to have so much fun.
I then went to America to work out there
for the summer for three months
and that's when it just all went downhill and I was unfaithful.
After that, that was it. It used to be constantly on my mind 24/7.
I'm going to sound like a psycho now, aren't I?
Thank you.
Would you say I definitely brought on this rage?
I don't know if I got over it. You pissed me off.
Especially when you threw it in my face as well, like.
I thought, "What a mug!"
I could tell you the day that you slept with someone.
It was on a Tuesday and that you slept...
You was, "Oh, I don't know where I woke up."
It was that night that you slept with someone.
Yeah.
I used to cry, I used to get angry, but I never showed it to her.
I started getting jealous.
Every time you went out, what did I say? Where you going?
Who are you with? Are your plans going to change?
I sound like a psycho.
Yeah, I feel slightly guilty, but it will say
it did take two to tango and you weren't totally innocent.
You kissed that guy.
That was the worst thing, yeah, when you go up and kiss a guy.
I thought, "Yeah, do you know what,
"if she wants to lie or she ain't going to tell me the truth
"or whatnot, I'm going to do the same," so...
She was unfaithful and it just completely went downhill
cos we weren't with each other any more.
But you made me realise that, I don't know, people don't trust...
Don't put all your trust in someone because people can lie to you
or they could hurt you, but this is why I'm single.
What about now when you go out, though?
Have you nearly got close to someone?
Just slept with people, that's it.
SHE LAUGHS Nothing else?
No little date? No interest in anyone?
I'm happy being single.
I can do what I want when I want, no...in my ear.
Is that you want forever or just for now?
I could do it forever, yeah.
I think I'm going to be Crazy Cat Lady.
Yeah, so we got into a new relationship.
We found it very hard for our new partners
to accept that we were still friends and hung out
so we'd sort of go, "Oh, why are they like this?"
And then we kind of just got together again for a night,
then left it and it happened again so it repeated.
Do you think it was a good idea
that we slept with each other when we weren't together?
No.
Yeah, you did. How can you say you didn't?
We was in the same club
and your girlfriend went to a different room
and you started kissing me there.
I'm like, "Shit!"
How did you feel when we used to sleep together?
You wake up in the morning
and you're like, "Oh, shit. Done it again!"
We're reckless and can't be trusted when we're drunk.
Do you know what, I think alcohol was based
around our whole relationship, though.
We met through alcohol, we got together through alcohol,
our antics were bad through alcohol
and we got back together on and off through alcohol.
We were both a bit of dicks, like, you know, but...
Do you feel like we both need to say sorry?
I think you need to, yeah, not me.
Why not you?
Yeah, the only thing is I don't think I could say sorry.
That's just how I am, like.
I'm not saying I'm always right, but I'm never wrong.
We were bad, I admit I was bad, but...
Yeah, but we were still young, though.
I'm very sorry for the way I treated her
and I know that she knows that as well.
It is not all her to blame.
A little bit could be her fault, but it's fine.
I think any experience you go through in life makes you wiser
and I remember one of my friends saying to me,
"When you fall in love and you get your heart broken,
"then you change as a person."
I'm like, "Yeah!" I actually understand it now.
I can honestly say she is probably my best mate.
I'll always 100% love her. I'd give the girl my life.
Out of everyone, we've had the best connection, 100%.
I ain't really come across that since.
It's more like a bromance.
So I'm happy where I am now.
I've got a girlfriend that I love and she will get it, too.
I think we should get you out. Oh, I could wingman you.
No, I don't think so. I don't want to get with someone.
I don't need a relationship.
I am happy with money and my job and going out Saturday night.
Drinking...
I know I said I'll always have my guard up and I will
and now I've been single for, like, three years and I'm happy in myself.
I'm doing what I'm doing and I don't need to be in a relationship
and I have fun.