“And, my mother loved me so much.
But I couldn't take care of her.” You could not reciprocate – guilt.
But when I give, and give, and give, there is no question of guilt.
There is only joy in giving.
The literal meaning of Moksha is liberation;
liberating oneself from the opposites, especially the dualities.
As long as we are in the Heart region, where we talk about the first, second,
third, fourth, and fifth point, right, where these dualities arise, opposites arise.
And we go beyond all these dualities and enter the Cosmic region,
where all the dualities end.
That is why the moment we enter the Cosmic region, in Sahaj Marg,
we call it, “This person has now attained Moksha or liberation.”
“Was that love?” Oh!
I have to think about it, right?
“Oh, he promised me so much of love”, and then you get cheated.
Then you start wondering, “Was that love?”
I think we have lost the connection between words and feelings.
There is no word like ‘Love’ in many societies actually.
This word ‘Love’ is not even used in the local languages.
Birds do not use, do they?
Yet there is so much of this connection, a deep connection between
the little bird and the mother bird.
When the little bird is chirping and saying, “Oh, I am thirsty”, in its own sound,
or “I am hungry”, it makes a noise of a peculiar kind, with so much
of feeling that the mother bird hears it, “My child is either hungry or thirsty”.
And the same mother bird hears the romantic sounds coming from the male,
because they are full of feelings.
We have lost the feelings.
When you talk of love, do you feel love?
When you talk of peace, do you feel peace?
When you talk of God, do you feel God?
We want to feel God, but are we ever successful to reflect Godliness
from our side towards others?
Only when I can share that Godliness that prevails within me,
I will be able to feel the Godliness in others.
It has to start from our side.
So, the question of love, etc.
remains confusing, because we try to analyse others’ love.
When love is from my side, I cannot make a mistake,
because I know that it is not or it is.
And what matters is, “Can I give enough love?” Ultimately, that is what matters.
It is not about receiving.
Any time you receive more and more love from somebody, even from God,
and if you cannot reciprocate, what will happen?
Guilt.
“My mother loved me so much.
But I could not take care of her.” You could not reciprocate - guilt.
But when I give, and give, and give, there is no question of guilt.
There is only joy in giving.
You are not expecting anything.
If you expect, then it is not love.
I was reflecting on what Master had said many, many years back, that
somebody wanted to develop extraordinary sensitivity like that of Babuji Maharaj.
And it is, of course, arising out of the good-heartedness of a person that,
I would like to serve a person without that person asking me – if I was so sensitive to the need
of the other person, I would be able to serve the other person.” So Babuji said, “Fine.
If you have so much sensitivity, then other things will also come.
Suppose somebody has a headache, it will reflect in you.”
Are you able to tackle that headache?
Or somebody hates you so much and you feel it in your heart.
How would you react once you have known this hatred pouring on you?
It is good to be ignorant at times, I think.
Had you been so tolerant, extraordinarily tolerant, and even when you knew
"Oh, this person is hating me”, you will laugh at it.
Greater the challenge, you will transform that person actually.
You will take it up as a challenge.
But if you take it up as a challenge that, “How in the world can he hate me?
I am going to show this guy my real thing and teach him a lesson”, then what is
the use of this sensitivity that provokes revenge, when it is working against us?
So it is best to develop tolerance and, automatically, the
sensitivity will grow side by side.
But if you try to develop sensitivity, you might develop it - you know there
are preceptors, who give you special sittings and make your heart so
clean and sharper and brighter, that you feel all kinds of experiences.
But at the cost of tolerance, it will not serve any purpose.
But if you develop more and more tolerance, then sensitivity will
develop side by side automatically.
Recollect at least ten different decisions that you made in your
life that mattered so much.
Write them down that, “I was under this situation and I made this decision.
I was under this situation and I made this decision.”
Find out which were correct and which were wrong after ten years of agony or joy.
The decisions that you made which were so joyful,
what was the state of your heart and state of your mind?
When you made wrong decisions in your past,what was the state of
your mind and state of your heart?
Now, you know what I am trying to say now, right?
Now, a new situation comes, and you want to make a decision.
Is the state of my heart and the mind reflecting anything that
I had experienced in the past?
Does it match with that joy or regret?
See, you have a solution now.
You see, there is a nice prescription given by Babuji Maharaj on sleeping.
He said, “We should meditate in a seated position; we should sit and meditate.
We should not lie down and meditate, because that will put you to sleep.”
So,he has given you a solution for your sleep.
Lie down and meditate.
You will fall asleep very fast.