- Okay, it's okay to cry, right?
- [Group] Yeah, yes.
- Cause that's probably gonna happen.
I just got off of a long tour.
- [Natalie] Yeah.
- Everything that I wanted to do when I got home
was to just sit in my bed.
Like there is a part of me that goes,
I actually deserve this, like I actually need some time
to just be by myself and to,
when you're around thousands of people everyday.
- [Woman] It's recharging.
- Yeah, it's recharging.
However, there comes a point where it is,
okay now I'm going over to this danger zone.
Now it's dangerous where, you're my pastor,
I've not been to church once since I got back to church.
Or since I got back off of tour.
- Yeah, yeah.
- And I cannot explain what it feels like to be in my bed
and to know, okay, I need to get up and go to church.
But to feel, the thought that comes to my mind is,
I don't want to, I don't care.
- [Alex] I don't feel like it.
- Yeah, and because I live by myself, because I've got
introvert tendencies, it's so easy for me to just stay
in that place.
- Yeah. - And so I've got friends
who will reach out to me, they will,
I've got actually an intercessor group.
They will pray over me, they will read scripture,
they will send me texts, I just ignore it.
And so I guess, I don't know what the answer is,
but I feel like part of why I'm here right now,
I'm certainly not an authority on it,
but part of what I know God is doing,
is He's providing a way out.
- Absolutely. - That I can stand
up under it and so I just--
- I think I would, this is just totally super bold to say,
but, I would give permission to one person,
just one, that's all you need is just one.
I'd give them a key to your house.
- Yeah, I've actually had that, I've had that happening.
- We talked about this yesterday.
- [Natalie] Yeah I would give them a key to your house.
- And I said you have to have a plan in place.
- [Natalie] Somebody can come in,
whether you want them there or not.
- Yeah.
- Well and I think too, cause I remember like,
I mean I know I'm married but I've been married for 370 days
so like not that long (laughs).
So like we have so many single lady conversations.
- You've been my fellow single,
and now you're not that anymore.
- I'm sorry, well, sorry not sorry.
But no, I think one thing too is, this being very specific
with that, you know?
Having a friend that not only calls
and says hey are you okay, but that says,
I haven't seen you at church.
You know what I mean?
And I say that very much like preaching to the choir,
because like my sister will text me and say,
hey you haven't posted on Instagram in three days,
are you okay?
And I'll just text her back like oh, I'm on my period,
I can't, and Lord knows I'm just hiding in my room.
So it's still like really hard.
- For me it is, they would ask me how're you doing,
and I would say, I'm in a pit.
I'm in the dark, like I would be honest with it,
it's just a, how to I get myself out of it?
- Can I even challenge you as your pastor,
in this conversation, that this is where,
and I say this to our congregation,
that there are days where even when you hate it,
this is actually your obedience is going--
- Oh that's good, yes.
- To break something out of your mind.
- When we choose to be obedient, that when we're
not feeling it, this is where I think the spiritual
and the practical have to meet hand in hand,
I'm going to get up even though I don't want to.
And I know that you're saying I can't.
No, it's a will or I won't situation.
And I know that this is difficult,
but there have been days where I have not wanted
to preach cause I'm been overcome with sadness
with a situation.
Literally doubled over and almost resentful
that I have to get up, you know?
But I've had to go, God, it's not I that live,
it's Christ that lives in me.
And right now I'm drawing on Christ's strength
and I choose to get up, and I don't want to.
I have walked into that church,
I have still been downcast,
I have not wanted to see anybody.
I have walked in praise and worship starts,
I don't know why for me, that is like,
it's like a trigger that unlocks something.
And then I'm thankful by the end of it,
that I have gone and I think yes,
I think we're gonna have to get that person who,
you know, and that's--
- I'm getting that key.
- [Woman] No you're not.
(laughing)
- Call me now!
- So that's the answer though.
The person that you say no you're not,
you have to figure out that person,
that person gets the key.
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