Hi everyone. It's September 3rd, Friday
Monday's Labor Day so we have a three-day weekend.
But then I only have one class today at 8 A.M so I'm done for the day or the week
and I am free for this whole three-day weekend.
It's technically a four-day weekend because that class was so short
and I don't really have plans for the weekend but I feel like
it's going to be a good weekend so I'm starting the vlog
and we're going to see how this goes because usually when I vlog,
I have some sort of plan for the week
and I kind of like vlog around that but then this week I have
absolutely no idea, so...
I just finished my first week of college and actually, it went really well.
I know I posted my first day of school video and I was kind of worried but also like relieved at how good my first day went
but yeah, the rest of the week went pretty good as well.
I'm currently eating my bagel and this La Colombe coffee.
I love these and I brought this all the way from home because I had extra room in my bag.
I got a what is this? Avocado, turkey, tomato bagel on asiago bagel bread.
I tried to dress up for the first week of school because in college,
a lot of people like to dress up here and look really, really fashionable.
Because in high school, nobody really dressed up but I wanted to dress up because no one's going to judge me if I do, but then
it's a Friday, I have an 8 A.M class and that's all I have today so I just had to opt for the sweats.
And I'm just going to say sweats really are the best.
Actually, I lied about being done with school for the weekend. I have a quiz and it is my first ever college quiz, so a little nervous.
But I'm like double, triple checking just to make sure I get a good grade on the first one.
I finished all my work.
And I've just been on my phone not doing much so I think I'm going to go to the gym.
I'm bored. Don't know what to do.
So when in doubt, we go to the gym. So got my workout outfit on.
I also brought these bands from home so that I can workout with them. They're pretty great.
Way better than the rubber ones that you can get.
And then I have my AirPods.
I'm getting shabu-shabu with my friend for dinner so I'm in the process of getting ready and
that includes me cutting up one of my tank tops because I want this to be cropped but it's
a full-length tank top so I want to cut it before I leave and wear it
so let's do that real quick. I do this all the time so I feel like I'm kind of pro at it.
I have to try it on.
Do I try it on or do I just... okay.
You guys, I'm going to try it on and then I'm going to cut it.
Actually, this line is like perfect. There's a crease here.
Is that too short? No, I like it that way. Okay, let's do that.
There goes...
the tank top. I think I like it way more. And I have this cardigan.
I love doing this so we're just going to do that. Or should I do it this way?
Okay we'll do it this way.
We're good. We're ready.
I took a shower because whenever I'm feeling lazy, I take a shower and it makes me feel a little more productive
and like it just kind of brightens my day up a little bit. I was honestly, I had zero motivation to do anything
and I didn't get out of bed until like 2 PM because I needed that time to do nothing.
I think I was pretty exhausted from my first week of school and just being back in school in general.
So I gave myself that time, but I took a shower and like I did my make-up.
And now we're back.
And before I move on to do something else, I wanted to talk about something that I've been thinking about
and it's feeling lonely in college. Honestly, feeling lonely in general. I'm a pretty independent person
but I do feel lonely pretty often just by being on social media I see people doing fun things,
traveling or just even going out with friends to do random things like those things
make me feel lonely and it makes me feel like I'm not living my life to its full potential
and it just makes me sad. Because especially when I'm in college, I just got here two weeks ago
to a brand new city and it's okay for me to not have that friend group right now but
when I go on Instagram and go on social media and see these people doing these things,
it just makes me feel terrible.
I often feel sad and frustrated that I'm not living the life that I want to be living and
I feel very stuck in one place and this is how I felt exactly at home, but then I thought everything
would just change rapidly as soon as I moved here, that everything will just get instantly better
but life doesn't work that way and things just don't change like that. Things just don't come to you naturally
just from moving or just from a change of environment. And whenever I'm feeling stuck, I just tell myself that
it's okay to be alone and that I can just take this time to use on self improvement or just relaxing, but
that is exactly what I've been doing for the past year
so I am trying to like get myself out of it because if I don't do anything about it,
nothing's going to happen and now that I think about it, things that I was doing today that I thought was for myself
wasn't really for myself. I was just scrolling through Tik Tok - yeah, basically just being on my phone.
That is not doing anything for myself. It is not relaxing, it is harmful because I keep
making myself feel bad for being in my room alone. So that is why I took a shower for like a fresh start
and now I'm going to do things for myself that I'm going to enjoy and I'm actually going to get
something out of. You don't always have to do this, but that is how I'm doing and that is what I'm doing right now.
I also want to try doing more like fun makeup looks just to spice up my days a little bit, so I did.
I don't know if you can tell I did blue eyeliner today. I don't know, I think I kind of like it.
And just like doing it itself feels very relaxing and fun to me.
And now, I am going to go do my laundry because I have been pushing that off for days.
The laundry room is literally down the hallway but I got to put my mask on.
Story time. This one's actually kind of rough, so get ready for an emotional roller coaster.
So I got ready for no reason and I was like I'm just going to go take an Instagram picture by myself
because this makeup looks good today. So I got dressed and I went outside to go take a picture
with just a self-timer and everything was going great until I realized that I left my key inside my room.
So I was locked out and I had to go through calling RA and getting a log out code and
I mean in the end I got into my room and obviously, as you can see, I'm in the room, so
I figured it all out but it was just really sad at the moment because my roommate is not here.
That's one thing and then another thing that happened was, I was going to go to the dining hall and just
bring my food here because I wanted to eat while I watch my drama because I've been binge-watching it
kind of the whole day.
So I went down there, all the way to the dining hall and I realized that it's already closed
and it's 7:30 but I guess they close early on the weekends or maybe because it's Labor Day weekend.
So now I'm eating Trader Joe's chicken soup dumpling which is famous for being a depression meal, so
Oh my gosh.
I have to eat my lactaid.
I love how spontaneous this vlog is because it is currently 11:17 and I'm going to go out and get Cane's.
I've never had Cane's before so I'm super excited.
Yeah.
We have Zaxby's in the south
Which is basically the same thing as Cane's
So I wasn't too impressed with Cane's :')
I just got food from the dining hall. I went like 15 minutes before it closed
so like the food is a little cold. But this is supposed to be
a vegan egg sandwich. I'm not going to lie, my school dining hall food is honestly like
pretty good. And like the menus are pretty good as well. So I'm very happy about that.
I haven't eaten fruit in so long.
My friend just texted me if I wanted to go get water and also buy a birthday gift for our other friend
so I'm going to go with.
I'm about to leave right now because they're waiting for me.
Now I'm going to this like food, I don't know if it's food-focused but it's an international
fair near my school and I think they have a bunch of food, so I'm going to go check that out with my friend.
I don't think I'm going to take my camera because it's running out of battery and I want to enjoy the moment
but I will try to get some footage on my phone.
There were so many people at the fair. It was kind of crazy and we didn't want to like
risk our health and eat on the side of the street and also we didn't have cash and
a lot of the things were like cash only. So we went to Blaze Pizza and I have some leftovers
so I'm going to put it in this container and put it in the freezer.
This was so good. Also, got hot sauce. Love.
You know, it's the end of a weekend when you are thinking about what to wear tomorrow to school.
Thank you so much for watching me do nothing this weekend.
I didn't do nothing. I honestly had a pretty good weekend. I'm trying to think of ways
to do more fun things in school.
I don't have a car so I don't have the most freedom, and Ubers and lyfts are
really, really expensive so I'm going to try to plan something with my friends who can drive
so I can have more fun and take advantage of California, so
hope you guys are doing great, the main message of this video was honestly talking about
being okay with feeling lonely in college and instead of thinking it as a lonely thing,
just really getting used to it and being comfortable being alone, and not doing fun things all the time
because you don't have to. And that's not possible for a lot of us, so.
I will see you in my next video and yeah, take care.