I think I told you
I was trying to get back into music.
I've been in the studio with Lamb and Bigg D.
And we did this one song
that I love so much,
Okay.
...but then Bigg D's like, "Well...
"You're not gonna get the song,
Mm-hm.
the business ain't done on the song."
Is that really how it goes down?
Yeah.
It depends on who you're dealing with.
It's about relationships,
and sometimes you have to build
a bigger relationship with certain producers
for things like that to take place.
And it becomes very stressful, very frustrating,
because it's predominantly ran by men.
That's a whole nother stress factor.
It's so funny, because I would go
and I would work with certain producers,
and, you know, they would tell me
I didn't have, like, an exotic look.
"Why don't you just write for other artists?"
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know about that.
And I have, like, a couple songs that I've done.
I was really trying to take my music seriously,
and these producers
weren't taking me serious,
because I wasn't having sex.
You know?
There was one producer,
me and my friend had came out with him,
and he calls and he's like, "Hey!
"Um, you know, we're gonna be having this pool party.
Why don't you guys come?" And I was like,
"No, I don't really wanna go."
But we go, and everybody was upstairs.
I'm like, I don't know, I don't really feel...
a good feeling about this,
but we go upstairs,
and we get into this room, and it's nothing but dudes,
and it's only two of us.
And...
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(voice breaking) I just remember, like,
Mm-hm.
It's okay. It's okay.
It's okay.
And...
(sobbing)
...she left me in the room alone.
Oh, my God.
(crying) She left me in the room alone.
It's okay. Come, lemme give you a hug.
I would have never left her in the room by herself, you know?
I'm sorry.
(crying)
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.
Hey, it's okay. It's okay.
It's okay. Just get it out.
Just get it out. It's okay.
As a rape victim, you feel like...
you're powerless.
You feel like...
like you're a loser.
You feel so low.
You feel like you don't matter.
And for a long time,
I felt that...
knowing that this person did that to me...
If that's what I have to do to sing,
I don't wanna sing anymore.
They took something from me.
I don't want nobody taking anything from me no more.
I just wanna sing, you know?
That is a (bleep) up situation that you was in,
(indistinct)
I put myself there.
That doesn't define you, though.
That doesn't define you.
You can get past this. It's gonna be okay.
And if you wanna sing, you sing.
Sharing my story is not to share it to...
...make anyone else feel like they're a victim.
It's to make people out there know
you are a victor, you are a survivor.
(voice breaking) You are a survivor.
You have to just fix it.
We have to fix it as women.
We have to be stronger...
...than the pain that's caused.
(sighing)
You-- it's gonna be-- it's gonna be okay.
It's okay.
I don't mean to, like...
You need to get it out.
That's what helps, when you get it out, you know?
And you're not alone.
You're a fighter, okay?
Thank you, Trina.
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