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I'm scared because at the end of the day
this represents me and no one else and
it's a wave comes out but it's like I
just want it to be a hundred percent
authentic and a hundred percent real
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let's go through it once and I'll tell
you where it starts
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- what this oh yeah it's been just like
jam packed full with like things that
I've always dreamed of doing
performing in Glastonbury - doing the
Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon's and now
putting out my record you got to walk
really really hard and I feel like you
know it's not just for music it's for
anything that you do in life my dad
always used to say you need to work
really really hard to get just a tiny
bit of luck I didn't think having a
career like this as possible I didn't
think that it's something that was like
in my reach my earliest memories of
music my father's musician I was always
surrounded by music I've kind of had
like ups and downs with trying to find
myself
well I was really young I remember
waking up pretty early in the morning
and seeing foxes in the back garden I
have really really vivid memories of
just going into the living room and my
little Barbie belly top or like anything
I could find and dance around
embarrassing I remember driving to
school and singing along to the stair
phonics Christina Aguilera Robbie
Williams and it was always just a part
of what I was brought up into I was too
young to really understand the lyrics
and really know what they were talking
about but as they grew old I'd still
listen to those same albums over and
over again and then the lyrics would
start making sense to me it was it was
honest and truthful and you know it
wasn't sugar-coated they were really
just singing about stuff that they knew
and I admired that on YouTube when I
started putting covers up online it was
when I just moved back to London when I
was 15 I did ain't know the man by
Christina Aguilera I did super-duper
love by Joss Stone pricetag by Jessie J
I don't know I just did like loads but
they were the kind of they're the kind
of videos or it was like hey I'm do
deeper and I'm 15 years old and this is
my cover of super duper love buy just
down what it's kind of how everything
started you know from doing these covers
it was just when I started taking music
seriously then I had like this tiny
little demo track on my laptop and then
I started just contacting a few
different people and just getting like
random demos here and there and they all
sounded so different because I just
didn't know what my sound was Dewar's
was always an easy a proposition that
most because she has such a clear idea
of what she liked and just as
importantly what she didn't like
I kept on going into studio sessions
going I want to make a song that sounds
a bit like Jay Cole makes a nanny Fatah
doe try and like merge the two together
to have this like hip-hop influenced pop
you know I was writing a lot in the
first song that I I wrote where I was
like all this this could be something
was hotter than hell
that's one label start getting
interested
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he calls me a devil
I'm making one us in every time I'm not
he can have a let me and Audrey on say
father
I'm a realist again
you probably said a dummy you in my
hands around your neck
can you feel once that happened and I
signed my deal I was told that I could
quit my job at the restaurant and I
think that was like the craziest moment
of my life my friends would be like Oh
what are you doing today I'm just
getting the studio and that's it it
seemed like such a dream everything
comes from me from the setlist to every
song to what I write about to how I want
my record to sound I'm a hundred percent
involved in it it's scary and it's
exciting and I feel like I owe that to
myself but also to my fans when people
send me letters and they say that my
music has touched them will make them
feel a certain type of way that makes me
really happy I won't be able to note
that we all go through the same things
in one way or another it makes me feel
like I'm I'm in the right place and I'm
doing what I should be doing it pushes
me to work harder it pushes me to make
sure that the next thing I put out is
better than the last thing I did I
believe when people listen to the whole
record they'll get a much clearer idea
of the kind of person that she is she's
worked really really hard for two years
or whatever and has had all these dreams
and all these expectations and it's
starting to become a reality
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I'm bringing Who I am as an artist and I
want to put out there everything that is
completely me 100% you know if you take
away all the production it's just the
bones of a proper song and it can be
just on piano and it'll sound exactly
the same and I feel like it's it's
really about one fantastic
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in the beginning God created heaven and
is for what it's worth I think that he
might have created your face just my
opinion your body is the one paradise
then I wanna flight so every day and
every night I've been sick and tired or
chasing all of the flashing light
ceiling nice don't mean nothing so I
just wanna apologize I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry
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don't die you Father Rajesh good my
honey got it
this gets their hands
sorry that is not the end of us how can
we go back to the beginning how can we
go back to the beginning without you
I've got no - breathing raggedly go back
to the beginning it's a massive
milestone for me from doing these covers
to making an album - I shan't get to do
this as a career it's been like a really
this is so cheesy but really magical
process let's go keep going
no rest for the wicked dreams do come
true there's a darker side of me that
makes
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