K, great! Perfect, that's great.
Now we're gonna start, we're gonna add the eggs right,
so we got two eggs here-
I'll crack one, you crack one.
Very simple. Very, very simple. Ok?
[Egg cracking]
Boom.
I'm gonna grab one of these-
[Egg cracking]
Nice! See?! There we go.
She seems to be adjusting well.
[from Kessler's computer] ... much milk...
Her anxieties are still troubling, but...
I think we're making good progress.
Dr, Kessler, please remember your priorities.
I understand.
[From Kessler's computer] This is the key to the whole thing...
She's so young.
That girl could turn your living room into Hiroshima.
Don't forget that.
[From Kessler's computer] I don't even know what we have to- [laughter]
There you go.
[Water pouring]
[knocking]
Good afternoon Tamar. Come on in.
Good afternoon Dr. Kessler.
Please to see you again.
I like the look you've got going on.
Hah!
Graham and I were experimenting with clothes.
Yesterday I was a Disney princess.
We went our for a coffee.
The day before that, I was a professional woman, the kind who works in an office and bosses people around.
[Laughter]
That sounds like fun!
Yeah.
Is it helping with your anxieties?
It is. Um. And I've been
trying to leave the apartment once every day.
Like you suggested.
It helped.
It made it fun.
I had a panic attack on the bus afterwards,
but...
it went away.
I think Graham might have a crush on me.
Though he might be gay.
I hope not.
But...
it would explain why The Centre allows him to room with me.
And why do you hope Graham isn't gay?
Well...
you know...
because.
Ah.
He makes me feel warm,
and safe.
He's like a big brother and a protector, and a prince all in one.
I'd be lying if I said,
I didn't have a crush on him.
Actually.
And I know that even if he liked me back, nothing could happen.
And why do you say that?
Dr. Kessler, I assume you've experienced what
an orgasm is like?
[Laughter]
Um.
Yes.
Yes, I have.
Well.
I haven't.
Because it's about
reaching a point of pleasure beyond thought-
beyond control and I can't risk that, not for a moment.
And you worry that sex would distract you from controlling your powers?
You don't think so?
Well,
I'm not the expert on that,
Tamar.
I can't speak...
on that.
But what sort of distraction do you think sex would be for you?
What sort of trigger?
Joy.
Uncontrollable
uncontainable
joy.
And I can't afford anything I can't
control, or contain.
Imagine it felt good.
Imagine it felt so good, I didn't want it to stop.
Yes.
If I never wanted it to stop, I could maybe make him never want it to stop.
And then I wouldn't ever know if he really liked me.
Or if it hurt...
because it would be my first time, obviously.
uh.
I might panic and get so scared that I send him away and then he'd be gone.
Tamar.
I am so thankful to be able to talk about this with you,
because, it is hard.
[Mmm.]
It must be difficult.
It is.
[Exhale]
I knew him at The Centre, but there he was just one among many.
[ugh]
He's so real now.
He makes me feel like I can do this.
And...
[exhale]
for once,
I'd love to have
something
someone...
who is mine.
K.
Can you tell me a little bit more about that?
Well.
At The Centre
everything.... the food
the staff, the facility was for me.
But it was
in service of something bigger.
Keeping me
calm.
Controlled.
It was all for me,
but,
nothing,
not since I was a child,
has ever really been mine.
My own first love...
I was in college.
He was charming, and handsome,
and whenever I thought about him, I just got butterflies.
Oh, that's it exactly.
[giggles]
[hmm]
First love is...
it's very important.
I mean it changes us.
I wouldn't trade mine for the world.
But,
you don't have to act on those butterflies.
Why not?
Well.
Every case is different...
um
with Billy and me
it was easy for us just to, rush in, to building a life together,
without realizing that,
it takes more than love,
it takes partnership,
commitment-
And in some cases,
well for example,
teachers, and students...
or doctors and patients...
in ethics they call it, an uneven power dynamic.
When one person has more power over the other,
or one person is dependent upon the other.
And in such cases romance can be very
dangerous.
Do you understand?
I do.
But Dr. Kessler, my panic attack
on the bus, stopped
because Graham held my hand.
I don't think he meant it like that.
But...
but what if this is a good thing?
Tamar,
Graham knows that is would be inappropriate
that it would hurt you.
I mean, he has to know that.
and so hold onto those butterflies.
by all means, hold onto them, but
you and Graham can't be anymore than what you already are to each other.
And if he encourages anything else,
then,
he is not the type of man who deserves you.
Here, I'm gonna give you my private number,
you can call me anytime you need.
And just be careful okay?
And be safe.