I'm highly triggered I can't focus I'll come in here clear my Mon talking a
little bit about things like that so if you like my more personable videos this
is one for you somebody tweeted yesterday about someone who basically
made a bunch of fake screenshots tweets and stuff like that about me in 2017
stuff I've talked about the past it's I knew that people were using the fake
tweet generator and stuff like that I've talked about it before and sending me
things but this the sheer how disgusting this actually is is to me is the psychic
on another level I said this is disgusting I was recovering from an
accident where my brain wasn't fully functional it makes me sick because
other Creators ran with this narrative and talked bad about me as I said
multiple times this was going on makes me feel horrible and let me just read
this for you I used to make up screenshots send them to reptilia and he
used them in videos and when I was a total poppy stand the older ones were
still super creepy lmao really winded rip used these screenshots lmao in like
2017 literally should get a life and move out of his mom's basement
that's so funny lol he doesn't fact check at all he didn't bother to ask you
where I got them from what were the screenshots just dm's and tweets I
literally used the fake Twitter thing oMG and given the context of this yeah I
should have fact checked those types of things and stuff like that beat but I
was not all there in the head in 2017 January 1st 2017 I was if you guys don't
know I was hit by car I suffered a really bad brain injury where my
cognitive functioning was wasn't it wasn't there I couldn't think I if you
notice most of my videos from that time period
it just I didn't make sense most a time I was just I it just it makes me mad
well I made it known it wasn't like these people didn't know when I started
the YouTube channel it was as a form of therapy it was because I was so
depressed I couldn't walk that's why I produced so many videos when I first
started I wasn't trying to if you would have told me at that point in time that
I was gonna have a hundred thousand subscribers at some point I wouldn't
have believed you I was doing this as a form of therapy for my brain because it
was suggested to me and I was just putting out I was just talking shit and
putting it out there for anybody that was listening I was in fact checking
things it wasn't taking YouTube serious at all
didn't care and I was just following AR G's conspiracy theories different things
like that and it was just really fun and it helped me a lot and then a community
was formed out of that but as I healed and we got into mid 28 teens into now as
I healed I got more serious about it I learned how to do proper research and I
started being you know I started doing this channel seriously and that's how we
have this channel now but to know that people were doing this is just it's
crazy to me and they were it just it's without words they made petitions this
was one I'm gonna read to you this is from August 22nd 2018 hi this is a bit
long-winded and I apologize I'm really really sorry to see some of the people I
consider friends in the poppy community to be doing this weird plotting against
you like this it's very shameful and really upsets me to see them talking
about it on my feet and yes it's all on purpose of course you do not deserve
this you're so tolerant of others and sadly I know some of them are not just
kids but actually parents so they were just doing all this stuff
I'll put the tweet in the description for one check this out
I've talked like I said I've talked about this before this is why this was
known they would make locale threads fake locale threads with just these fake
screenshots team sweaters anything that they could and I could and I'm like you
I have no idea why they would wat they were just kids that were just mad
because you know the poppy Arg thing was like it was like a big deal it was
something I followed they were really invested she was a robot like I'm not a
real human type thing like that and there was mystery and then when the the
lawsuit for Mars Argo came out I stopped making videos on poppy all together
because I don't want to know nothing to do with any type of abuse or anything
like that but the local moderator said there was no milk aside from random
diems from - vendetta chance subjects must meet three out of five following
criteria another big desire for attention what if
you know me I don't like attention at all failure to accept criticism in this
whole channel is based upon criticism like give me criticism if it helps I
evolved from it a lack of self-awareness not even really sure what that means
delusions related to their skill or self-importance I don't see myself as an
important person at all when I talk to people in real world I
never talk about my youtube channel because it's just weird to me no
willingness to improve upon their behavior that's what this channel is
built upon it's knowing that you must always try don't be afraid to try
because success comes from failure not the other way around you got to make
mistakes you have to they go on to say when I was awake during the posting and
reposting the first three threads nothing but personal diems were posted
there was nothing to support that he'd met any of the criteria it's only two
people posting the same caps a clear Vendetta not to mention the fact that
the opie keeps ban evading the opie keeps ban evading it just makes
me sick to my stomach you know that this stuff was going on and what makes it and
what makes it even worse for me is that there were multiple creators several
creators that took these things put them in videos as if they were fact and then
ran with it I tried to speak up and say that's not happen I was quickly silenced
because some of the creators were bigger than me
it just makes me sick you know I'm not I want you to understand that this stuff
though it hurts to think about this is stuff that I've moved on from I don't
care what any of these creators do it's up to them what they want to do since
learned that once you become a bigger a little bit of a bigger creator on the
platform people was gonna make videos on you that's just what they do especially
smaller creators so you just can't really hold that stuff you can't help
take it too much the heart that they're just doing their thing but if you happen
to use something that is turns out to be fake in your video it is that person's
responsibility to own it take accountability for that and to not get
mad when this stuff is exposed when other people come up with this
information that happens to discredit some of the stuff in your video you
can't get mad about that I don't care what you do be clear with that I don't
care if you do you don't personally me if something I've done it many times
before made mistakes in videos if somebody tells me I go look I'm like
I'll crap there were no grounds for this there's not enough that points to this
being true and then I tell you because you always know I put all my sources in
the description I want you to fully form your own opinion I don't push one-sided
narratives sometimes I play devil's advocate because the other person is not
there to defend themselves and that's how I want I want you guys to
think for yourself you'll never see me pushing a one side of narrative where I
say I'm trying to destroy this person's image that's something that's just not
going to happen and if anybody does that then you just seriously look within
themselves because we were all real people all youtubers we're people we
have feelings thoughts we make mistakes that's what we do we're humans it might
be a game to a lot of people but this stuff does affect this stuff does affect
like I said this is stuff I've moved on from it's just it I'm triggered today
I'm very unhappy you see in this type of stuff I have but but but good stuffs
come out of this I've now created boundaries I've learned a lot about
boundaries this year before I was looking at everything with a sense of
compassion where if somebody did something wrong to me then I would
really really give them way too many chances and this caused me to this put
me in very bad situations but now I look at things with healthy cognitive empathy
and I question things a little bit more and if somebody does me wrong i nip it
in the bud i sever ties I'm done with it because I'm not putting up with this
stuff no more it's just not going to happen you know but I feel like I needed
to get this off my chest so other than that love you guys don't forget to get
your rep squad membership sweater we have the membership tees get they run a
little bit small so make sure you get larger sizes because I wish this sweater
was like an extra extra large because I like bigger things but let me know if
you have any questions like I said I've moved on from this stuff this stuff
doesn't affect me it just when it's drug back up it does you know hurts because
of the past memories and things like that so but I like I said I'm working on
a really really big video I'm gonna get back to that
hopefully I can focus now red squad bisque white