My dealer is dropping something off at my
second mom, I call her my second mom.
I just gotta walk over there and pick up my stuff.
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That's where the biggest drug dealer, he lived.
He got life.
He cut the heroin with fentanyl and killed three people.
I'll be right back.
Second mama, she's a user in Chicago and a prostitute.
She can hit my veins and she just genuinely cares for me.
I already have some made up for you.
You already know.
And then I have some for you
to take home too.
But listen--
Can I use this bag? You need to go to Walgreens
and get some clean.
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Ooooow!
I love you, I love you so much.
I love you too, that's why you're
my second mama.
Yeah, my mom knows about her.
I did a muscle shot because I couldn't find a vein
quick enough just to get well real quick.
But I got a 60 rock in my pocket.
I don't call it heroin, I call it medicine.
I need to Walgreens and buy a new pack of needles
'cause I only got old ones at my house
and I'm not gonna use old ones 'cause that's
what causes this.
That is somewhere I had endocarditis on my heart
and it wasn't from the heroin.
It was from bacteria on the needle.
I mean, that's what drugs will do to ya.
But it wasn't enough to scare me into being sober.
I'm starting to feel sick.
I think I'm gonna do another shot.
It's actually motor oil in your veins, it's terrible.
I want people to see this.
How the (bleep) do you have a life
from someone that came from such a good background to this.
A day in the life of a heroin addict.
Addiction is so strong that I have to lie to my own family.
I lock myself in the bathroom and use.
Which my mom will be like, "Why you lockin' the door,"
all this and that and I mean, she knows.
I don't want her to ever see me stick a needle in my arm.
I've stolen a lot of money from my family.
Ya know, probably thousands of dollars.
I stole her wedding ring, but I gave it back to her.
At first, my plan was to sell it
and make about $1,000, but that's how much grab
heroin has on you.
This is my night shot that'll get me through the night
so I'm not sick in the middle of the night.
I'll be sick in the morning still when I wake up.
Nasty, nasty stuff.
Three little veins in my finger right there.
Ah, pretty desperate.
I don't have any left.
And now I have a histamine reaction.
That'll be my nightcap.
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It's real.
When you see it.
When you see it, that's real.
Well, Cameron is here.
So, Cameron, please join us.
(clapping)
Cameron, how you doin'?
All right sir, you?
I'm okay.
How are you feeling physically right now?
I'm feeling all right.
I took a medication that helps with the sickness of opiates,
it's a box of medication.
Are you doing drugs now to get high
or are you doing drugs
to keep from getting sick?
Drugs don't, yeah, just to get me not sick.
Drugs don't get me high anymore.
I haven't been high in a long time.
You started using heroin in your
senior year of high school.
Right, that's before I was even injecting heroin,
snorting, snorting.
Were you aware that he was using in high school?
No. No.
So this has been going on a long time.
Yes sir.
I admit that.
Tell me where you think you're headed at this point.
Where do you think this is gonna lead ya?
Where you gonna wind up? I think it's gonna kill me.
You know, it's gonna take me out.
I use like that where it'll kill me.
'Cause I mean, I'm catching infections,
I'm doing all that, it's just a matter of time.
But you were in the hospital.
You had an infected heart valve,
you had to have surgery, you've got a scar running down.
You said, "That wasn't enough."
You got back out and you started using immediately.
Yeah, fear will not keep me sober.
The pull is so strong that all of a sudden,
I'm just there, subconsciously.
You talk about this second mama you have.
You say she loves you.
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, you left the hospital against medical advice
and you said she gave you a 50 rock
to celebrate, happy that you were alive.
Yeah, she hadn't seen me in two months
after jail and the hospital.
She loves you, so as soon as you get outta the hospital,
she gives you some more poison
to make sure that you continue to be hooked,
make sure you continue to be a customer.
Right.
Yeah, it sounds stupid.
Because it is stupid.
(clapping)