We all know that we've seen things and heard things about Cassie and Kailyn I
mean whether we like or not there was talk going around the house and she knew
that there were red flags yeah we should've talked about them
with Heather gone there are still three women here and I think my biggest
concern is still Cassie Taoiseach bringing up the fact that Cassie might
not be ready at the end of this and that she might be closed off to getting
engaged it was a kick in the gut especially with how I feel about it I
don't want to say goodbye to Cassie but depending on what happens today that
might just happen are you good yeah you enjoying today so far this week's been
hard talk to me more about it what no it's like you're not saying
something last week caught me by surprise I was I was shocked when I
realized you know the three good-byes that I had all told me the same thing I
really was because I'm not gonna like hearing your name brought up in that
terrified man and tasia saying you could ask any of the other women in the house
that's where I get so emotional even thinking about it because that is my
greatest fear and all this is getting to the end in somebody just going through
the motions not being ready like I'm so shocked at any of those things that any
of those girls would say I don't want you to believe that I am Telling You I
would not be here if it weren't for you
yeah and I don't know why girls are making stuff up like that I don't know
why and it's like I feel so helpless cause it's like I can't even like
there's no truth to it and I can't even like say I don't know I just don't know
why someone would make that uh but I feel like I haven't done anything
I haven't done anything to like make them I don't know why uh I just don't
get it I don't get it I don't even know how to like defend myself there's no
truth to it so there's nothing I could be like explain I want you to believe me
when I say I'm here for you and I mean it and I wouldn't be here if
I didn't really really see something with you
and I wouldn't bring you home I wouldn't want to bring you home to my felt my
family means so much to me I wouldn't want to bring you home if this wasn't
real if I didn't mean it I think you're amazing I think you fit right in
I don't like seeing her upset I think one thing for me is like if I'm trusting
my gut my gut right now it's telling me that she would have never gone to the
lengths to say anything like that it would break my heart if he ended up with
someone that is not here for him or is not ready but I don't want Tia to come
off as like she was making it up because we know that she wasn't gonna say
anything if Colton asks I'll bring it up yet I would want to make sure that he
ends up with the right person at the end of the day my main focus is myself but
I'll give my honest opinion of who I'm a little bit concerned about still because
I don't want killing and Cassie to screw him over at the end of this so how are
you feeling about hometowns I feel confident in the decisions that I made
so far I can't say that but there is always going to be that concern of
getting to the end of this and really if someone's just going through the motions
they're telling me that they're there but they're not really there I mean I I
just don't want you at the end of this to be blindsided and end up with the
wrong person because I've had to end an engagement
and go through that and I never want that for anyone especially you I have
concerns about Cassie and Kailyn that they're just not ready I just want to
present you with everything that I know so you can make the best decision soon
that's like that's worth it is hard on me because I hear Taoiseach and then I
spend time with Jessie and she tells me it's all fabricated and
made up I mean I I did want to ask you like have you heard or seen anything or
did it come from Katie after you gave your speech in Vietnam after Katie left
they were the only two girls that started to panic and they got very
defensive and everyone thought that was very strange like why do you need to get
so defensive if everything's right in your heart that is where I am fearful of
making the wrong decisions you're going to meet people's families I just yeah I
want you to make sure that you're very confident going forward because it's a
huge step I just don't know where the truth is I'm hearing two completely
different things from women that I feel like I trust I think that's the most
concerning thing is like men where did my gut go wrong is my gut wrong it's
frustrating I need to protect myself but I don't know what that means like what
do I do here to protect myself
how'd it go he asked about the Vietnam situation I said okay well this is what
I've seen and if Katie heard that and felt strongly enough to tell Colton that
people still aren't here for the right reasons or that they're not ready like
she wouldn't have made that up what why would you go spend your time talking to
Colton about me I think he needs to know all the know but Ally it's not a lot of
why it is my life right now told the girls and if you have a problem with it
then you need to call Katie up and okay let me just call Katie right now she's
the why I'm telling him he says he trusts Katie whatever if he trusts Katie
whatever okay you you don't have anything to back it up and so you don't
have anybody back it up this is just it's so dumb to me cuz it's not dumb if
this is not a dumb situation when it is a dumb situation all so far is on the
line right exactly okay why are you not okay we need up
things that aren't true to him and you know I am as I've seen I don't then our
red flag I'm going to bring up to him like if I was a hundred percent sure
about it I would never bring it up to him cuz you're just I never with him I'm
not yes you are I have his best interests at heart he asked hey what's
your take on this I told him this is like reeks of desperation to me
why would Katy say that if it wasn't true I don't know I don't know I don't
know I couldn't tell you but if you brought it to me I might be able to talk
with you about it and you'd probably see the truth and you did I'm going and now
you just inserted in I've seen with something that isn't true and I hope you
feel bad about it I don't because oh you shut Sheila bad about it I don't have
anything to feel bad about is I didn't make anything up but he's aware of that
I'm telling you yoga I'm not wrong I care about Colton I expressed my opinion
and that's that okay what it's like it's either true or it's not true it's not
your opinion like in my opinion you're an idiot I think when people get
defensive and resort to crying or shutting down and breaking down because
they know in their heart that there maybe their intentions aren't right or
they're hiding something I knew today wasn't gonna be easy I didn't expect it
to be this hard
I don't know exactly what I want to do yet with the two biggest roses up until
this point so I want to head into the evening and
continue our conversations and take it from there
obviously we get on out of here
I really need tonight to just have the clarity and figure out what I need to do
and I need to be confident in the decision that I'm making tonight so I
need this evening more than anything
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