my life experiences would be defined as
double knowledge yes you can
don't you dare who the [ __ ] do you think
you are okay you can make films but
they're not really films okay you can
borrow my camera but I think you're
gonna bleed all over it so once I began
evolving dreams and motions for
performative actions I took a lot of the
movements from what my cats did certain
kind of attention to scratching jumping
always absorbing a mistake when a cat
makes a mistake falling or something
it's not a mistake it's just a different
calculation when I get money Nia I've
just had surgery on my leg I haven't
been in the studio for a year the cat
begins bringing little toys and making
objects two bedroom slippers she puts in
beside each other it looks at them she
goes away she comes back with a toy
mouse it sit right on top of the
slippers and then she looks at me like I
never touch a thing she doesn't want to
move my photograph though so there's an
accumulation so she objects collage
little kill related things and then
she's going to have an exhibit in New
York City
as a landscape painter immediately
you've learned that you can only fail
when Cezanne came in the next day his
roses had [ __ ] wilted and I've read
that he was in a fury at them and said
I'm not ready for my new vows and
flowers I didn't finish this one and so
that was the feeling that I learned
outdoors that the light would change the
temperature would change my piece would
get stiff my paints would get soft the
wind would be blowing everything in
another direction so I loved that
intricacy that my job is to extract
whatever is constant and to accept
whatever is happening that might not be
my wishes
I used to get very resentful when people
come in and they wouldn't look at the
work like the painting or the drawing
they look at the floor and say all the
floor is really interesting but now I
agree the floor is about the time
process of the work that happened
because it accumulates all the years of
painting there so I don't want to cover
it or paint it over anything it's so
charged it's so full of spirit and
that's how it's always been for me but
when I was first here camping out with
my partner James Tenny it was very
derelict it becomes our muse he does all
his early writing I defuses meet Joyce
drempt here if he had flakes his first
laid out here I had to teach myself
filming because I had the very close
friendship through Jim Tony wills down
brackets 10 he did D rolling music for
all the brackets back and white cycle
drama films
just so magical to sit here and type and
look out the window through all the
different seasons having lived in it so
long it becomes part of my physicality
and so my future now is trying to find a
way to preserve a legacy of the house
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