Looks like I'm wearing black lipstick
It's actually dark purple
Hello everybody
So for today's video, I wanted to do something a little bit different
A little bit more relaxed
I wanted to use this day before the 24th, so the 23rd, to just sit down and chat with you about the year...
...And just to say thank you really
Because i'd scheduled quite a lot of these christmasy videos
And i did this last year and i remember thinking
before it was christmas
i'd already pre filmed a video
and i hadn't really said
Merry christmas or you know have a great day
or you know gave a great new year or anything
it was just kind of a video of me and joe that we do every year
on christmas eve
but i din't really get to chat
to you so thats what i wanted
to do in todays video
i feel like 2016
went buy so quickly i feel like i blinked and
it went
it's been an incredible year for so many different things
but its also been a deeply saddening year
in other areas but
i am so optomistic
and happy and i feel so positive
about 2017 i've already made a list
of things i would like to achieve
or i would like to work on
and i thought it would be nice to start
the conversation off in the comments
of this video discussing all the things you want to
work on change or start doing in 2017
quite a lot of the time i find new years resulutions really difficult
to stick to because i set the bar
really high and before i know it
i've failed it already
i don't really ever set big goals
they're always very little and most of them are
personal goals because because i'm quite happy with all the
big projects i've worked on
i've done so many amazing things this year i'm so so lucky
i've done some incredible shoots i've met some incredibly creative people
that have really inspired me and motivated me
and i've gotten to meet so many
of you guys out and about
which is always so lovely
and i've also got to bring out new product ranges
and my book got released
and me and joe worked together on something
which is so nice because
obviously we're both in this together but quite a lot of the time
its very individual and that's the same for me and alfie
and me and all my friends you know
we all do this and it's all so fun
but it's also very like you kind of work on your own stuff
so it was really nice to get to do the sugg life merch with joe
that was like one of my highlights
theres just been so many great things
erm in the kind of zoela catergory
that i've been really happy with but
i always struggle
to think of goals
within that catergory because
with what i do it's so unpredictable
you know theres so many things that just
come out of nowhere
and so many crazy oppurtunities
and different projects
that are i mean even 2 years ago
i would never of even
thought these things would be where they are
so it's really hard to set myself those kind of goals
and i feel quite happy and content with where everything is
at the moment so for me
2017 is working on me
i've decided to call it a year of self love
which raised a few eyebrows whenever i mentioned it to anyone
because they were like that sounds like something completely different
which i get but that's not the vibe i'm going down
that's not what i'm trying to say
basically i want to take the time
to focus on me more
because i feel like the year went so quickly
i didn't really focus on myself as much as
i would have liked
and i also want to travel a little bit more
and you know focus on
friendships relationships
and really make it like a year of zoe
do you know what i mean?
yeah just a year of me
i'm going to be so selfish (laughs) i'm not going to be that selfish
but i'm going to allow myself more time
for myself so that is what I've told myself im gonna do
i feel like in 2016
i've really grew in terms of not giving a crap
it's so difficult within this industry
i guess its an industry i still fell like it's a hobby but
there you go
it's quite hard to feel
really confident in every decision you make
every video you upload
every blog post you put up
you wanna be a 100% happy with everything
you do well i do personally
because i'm such a creative perfectionist
and it's so easy to listen to the people whispering in your ear
you shouldnt be doing that you've got to be doing this
and for a while i feel like those little like kind of whisperings
took over and
when i went away to on holiday to mikonos
i made a vlog when i got back and i
was like i'm just not going to care anymore
i'm not going to care if my vlog is 30 minutes
or it has nothing interesting in it
i'm not going to care if i've had the most boring day
and that's what i chose to upload
i just wanna be happy with everything i post
and i am
and i can be 100%
confident and happy when i say that when i
hit publish on a blogpost a tweet
an instagram a video
i want it to be published
and i think that has really improved my confidence
it's improved my overall wellbeing
and happiness and i think ultimately
that has so helped me to create things i really love
and er that for me
i think that for me has been one of the biggest things of 2016
is just not caring anymore
and just staying true to myself
doing what i want to do
saying what i wanna say
you know its like
its so easy to feel suffocated
by the things people are telling you
you should be doing
just bat them away
and i'm hoping to carry that on into 2017
with any other projects or
kind of creative things that i choose to do
whether thats a vlog of me sitting in my pjamas
for half the day
or whether thats a really cool photoshoot
that i do with someone
you never know
i don't generally get very excited for a new year
i don't know why i think its just kind of like another year over
here we go again
what's this year going to be
and i feel like i'm not that optomistic
when it comes to like the new year
because i feel like i have no control
i don't know what i'm doing
but this year is different because
i have got organised i have scheduled
my time i've planned more
i've given myself certain days for certain things
i'm basically getting my ass in gear
and getting motivated and organised and scheduled
and i think that is gonna make a huge difference to how i spend my day
and how i run like my business side
of things
and any of my free time
i just thing its going to be really great
there's already a lot of exciting things
for next year in the pipeline
but the purpose of this video was mostly just
to get chatting
about things that you really want to achieve next year
for me to give you a little bit of a confidence booster
sometimes resolutions are made to
be broken but it doesnt matter
as long as everyone is trying
doing things they love make the most of it
because it goes so flipping quickly
i also just want to take this oppurtunity in this video
to say thankyou
so much
just for being the best viewers the best readers
the best supporters
you guys are such a massively positive influence on my life
you keep me motivated
your so inspiring
i love meeting you i love hearing your stories
and you guys are what make me get up everyday
and make these videos
and i love doing it so thankyou so much
for being there
whether you've been there for two weeks or you've been there for the whole seven years
i love you all very very much and
i really do want the best for all of you i want you to have
an amazing christmas whether you celebrate it or not
i want you to have a lovely day
i'd also like to wish you all a very very happy new year
make it what you want it roll with it
theres going to be highs theres going to be lows but
we're all in this together
and im so excited for it
enjoy the video tomorrow with joe it's really quite funny
erm and i will see you in the new year don't freak out if i don't uploads a video for a couple of weeks
the sort of christmas and january
er time is where i like to completely like deco like decompress the year
get back on to schedule
clear my head after filming 2 videos a day
i will see you in january with lot's more exciting things
i can't wait thankyou so much for supporting me and sticking by me
it really does mean the absolute world to me
bye guys