so at a very young age about 9 or 10 years old i had a very traumatic event happen to
me and i had all these emotions and traumas coming up i literally grew up with severe
anxiety depression stress panic attack mood swings and i was clinically depressed and i
was on five different anti-depressants legs are prosonics you name it my parents would
take me to different psychiatrists therapists nothing was working and at age of 16 i was very
suicidal like that's when everything was getting like worse and it was progressing really quickly
and all of that stress and anxiety and depression manifested into eating disorder and as a result i
had a severe anorexia um i was losing pounds like rapidly and by the age of like i would say 18
19 i was 70 pounds and i was like at the verge of death and doctors were like she's not eating they
were giving up on me my family was worried everybody was worried um but i couldn't eat
even when i wanted to recover i just couldn't eat anymore and my body was so malnourished that um
that i couldn't digest food because my body didn't know how to break down food anymore
so i you know i it went on like that i with the emotions of suffering and i didn't know how to get
rid of those emotions and like mentally i couldn't handle life anymore i couldn't get out of bed and
um like i was working but i was not present in my work and i was just not here
you know i was mentally i was gone like um so if this suffering lasts a few more years
age of 24 um that's when i was like okay i'm gonna kill myself this is it
like i was suicidal i was planning how to kill myself and i found dr joe on youtube
and it gave me some hope i saw these people um recovering and healing themselves from like
so many different conditions so i thought why not i heal myself from all this like
anxiety and trauma and depression and recover myself from this eating disorder that it's like
eating me from inside out so i started diving into the work every single day i got up i like i did
the breath i did all the meditations um morning and night literally like all day long i would just
i did like five to six meditations a day because that's because i didn't want to live anymore so
i'm like okay if i don't want to live anymore i'm going to give this a try if it doesn't work
then i'll just take my life like that was the plan um so within a matter of few weeks um i
started feeling changes in my body like i started eating a little bit my body started digesting food
and what happened after a few weeks of continuously doing the work i came out of a
meditation one day and i got up and i was walking to my bedroom and this energy started flowing
through my body um through my legs and it went up through my head and it blew my mind away and i was
showered with this love love of god and at that moment i had the most profound mystical experience
i had an out-of-body experience i came out of my body and i was looking at myself from
the far and i had this love um for myself and all the trauma and everything that i've been through
um i just forgave myself for everything and um i was back in my body after a few minutes and um
then i did the mystical experience continued um i was in a different realm and i opened my eyes like
my eyes were literally open but everything was frequency and energy i looked at my hands i didn't
have any hands i look at furniture there were no furnitures everything was frequency and energy and
this love just kept going through me i felt like i was being cleansed i felt like literally my brain
my i felt like something switched my brain like my brain was being stretched and i was baptized
with love um this feeling lasted six months so the next day i woke up and my heart was just opened up
and i was crying myself to sleep every single night because of the love that i was feeling so
the next day i woke up i i could finally eat food and my body accepted food and i started nourishing
my body and my body started digesting food and my body started healing and i started gaining
all the weight back really quickly and just going back a little bit i lost my menstrual cycle and
doctor i went to so many different doctors to get it back but they told me you can't because your
body has been malnourished for like 10 years for all this time so some girls never get it back um
but i didn't i didn't believe that so i started diving deeper into the work i started doing the
energy centers meditations the blessing of the energy centers meditation and within four weeks
my body started responding and um i'm sorry not four weeks within four days my body responded
and i got um and i healed myself and i got my menstrual cycle back when i got to my job when
i went back to my doctor he run all the test results and blood tests and he was shocked he's
like all your hormones are normal what it what are you taking are you taking any supplements i
i was like i'm not taking any supplements i'm just meditating and you know um and my life has changed
tremendously and i started this work when i was 24 now i'm 27 and i'm a different person i am
completely transformed my life has been blessed my i have a business now my business has been
just like it's everything is just magical you know i got a degree as a graphic designer but i was not
i was working for somebody i didn't have a business of my own i was just like going to work
very like in a realm of like you know corporate very miserable i had no purpose you know because
i didn't even want to be here you know i don't want to be in this realm so when i after my change
i started getting downloads of what's my purpose and um i always i'm very creative i have this
artist the creative side so that's sort of flowing through me and i started opening up a bakery so
and i started creating these like recipes um that are like very like very french very exotic like
and the recipes i came up with it after every meditations i would have downloads of recipes
and one of the reasons that i have the bakery it's because i want to nourish people and the
stuff that i use are very like organic i use like whole foods like i try to nourish people with the
food that i make yeah it's very interesting how i went through that and that i've asked myself how
did that happen like i went through the anorexia and then i i literally got downloaded with recipes
like people look at me they tasted like what is this i'm like it's not me i didn't create these
recipes it came from other realms they'd look at me like i'm crazy but that's exactly what
happened like i'm telling them the truth i can't relate to that girl anymore the girl who was 10
years old grew up with all that suffering all those years i'm literally a new person and um
you know i feel healed and as a result of the healing i feel holy you know and i feel like
i feel like this that was the best thing that ever happened to me
you know because i it introduced me to this work um have i not been through all that stuff
i would have never done the work um so i'm so grateful and blessed for that experience