But if your attention goes higher
– say [as] my attention is. I am only nothing but charity! I mean what am I?
It just flows. You just become the charity.
So the difference between
a person who is a realised and a not realised is this
that the attention which was giving myth as reality to you
is gone now, is gone higher.
It can see that it is myth.
Attention can clearly see that it is myth,
and you can see that yourself and you can remove yourself from them.
That, of course, I have to give you a push, no doubt,
and I am working hard on that to give you a push.
But you should also know that mythical things must be dropped out,
otherwise you will not grow.
All mythical things must be dropped out.
And the best way to do it is to be in thoughtless awareness
because as soon as you transcend these three gunas
you become thoughtlessly aware.
You have to cross Agya. Once you cross Agya, these three gunas,
absolutely you go into a state where you are gunateet,
you are beyond gunas.
So you do not deliberately do anything,
but it just works out.
So now for you, because you are enlightened now, is to understand
that our attention has to move higher and higher, at a higher space.
Now actually what has happened in Realisation?
Your Kundalini has risen and has come up,
just like, you can say, a small, thin hair, one hair,
and that has broken your Sahastrara
and now the grace is flowing into you.
But it’s a very small movement that has taken place, of course
which is a very difficult movement no doubt, but it has taken place.
Now you have not expanded like this.
Your chakras are only pierced in the centre,
but the rest of the attention is still intact.
Actually it is so intact, that you don’t even feel that it is pierced.
Now you have to expand that, open it out,
so that more strands of Kundalini can rise
and your attention, which is in these centers, expands.
By expansion it drives out all that is mythical on the sides.
On every centre we have our attention,
which is being enlightened in the centre
through this Light passing through.
But the Light is too small for the darkness that you have collected.
Specially for the people of the West, I would say,
your confusions, you must get rid of them.
But still you identify.
Because if I ask you anything [like], “How are you?”
Means what?
Means you are still confused.
Alright?
Confusion should go.
One confusion was there that, “This is Realisation or not?”
I hope that’s over now with you people.
At least now you believe it is Self-realisation.
I had to tell people, “No, you are self-realised now, you are!”
Still they would jump up like [a] jack-in-the-box, you see.
They’ll say, “No, we’re not Mother!
How do you say this is Realisation?”
“We expect this out of Realisation and that out of Realisation
– that we’ll be flying out of the door if we are Realised,”
or something nonsensical like that.
Thank God, these ideas have gone away.
But when we are Realised, there is Light that has come in us,
we have to grow it only by separating our attention
from the myths.
It’s all mythical.
I also play with you,
because unless and until you are sure,
I am not going to give you a wrong idea about yourself.
I want to see how far still your attention is moving,
and I know [that] still you are not sure,
still you are not sure of yourself,
that’s why the confidence is not there.
First of all you have to learn how to drive, then you are tested.
There will be five stones put together,
the distance will be only that hardly a car can pass through
and the fellow will say, “You bring it zigzag!”
And you cannot do it.
Why?
That’s how he makes you a master.
The mastery of your attention
will come when you will start seeing that it is all a myth that upsets you.
It’s all a myth that upsets you.
Just throw it away.
Just throw it away and understand
that you are the eternal attention,
that you are the eternal life,
that [the] only thing that keeps you away from it is ignorance,
and the ignorance is too simple to understand:
that you have accepted myth as Truth.
Just drop it! It’s all myth!
You’ll be amazed how your attention will rise
and you’ll see all these nonsensical things
which used to frighten you or to elate you,
will drop out, and you will just smile at it.
And then only you are going to enjoy yourself fully
because your attention
will be completely drenched into the bliss of Self.
I am saying you will, I say you are
already drenched into that bliss.
Keep it up.
Now, how to do it?
Actually, in every day-to-day life, how to kill the memory of the past?
To kill the memory of the past is to have new memories.
You must remember when you got your first Realisation
– always think of it.
Whenever any such memory comes to you,
you [should] try to think how you got your Realisation.
Any memory that is troublesome or even so-called elating,
you just try to remember how Realisation has come to you.
When you feel aggressive about something or angry [about] something,
just try to remember how you felt the joy of surrendering.
Just think of that joy of surrendering, of dissolving yourself.
So the new memories must be built up.
If you start building up new memories,
then you will start collecting moments
to establish other moments which have such memories.
Like a memory when you tried to help somebody,
you raised the Kundalini of someone.
Now the problem would be when you will be raising the Kundalini of others,
you will be in thoughtless awareness – there won’t be any thought –
and thought is the only thing which impresses.
But [at] that time you can record the joy of raising the Kundalini.
If you could record the joy of raising the Kundalini of others,
you will feel [that] a new wealth
of these beautiful moments will be accumulated.
And all those moments which were giving you confusion
or fear or so-called unhappiness and happiness will drop out
and pure joy will remain.
Because now most of the experiences you have had are more of joy.
Joy has no thoughts.
It’s just an experience, a pratyaksha.
That’s why I said you keep your eyes open.
I hope you will understand what I mean by that.
May God bless you all.