(cards being shuffled)
- [Horace] What's the most ridiculous thing
we have done together?
We gotta really do something, something on the edge,
I feel like we boring, we gotta do something crazy.
- You're boring.
- We gotta do, we gotta like jump out of a plane
or something.
- Between--You want, you're not gonna
jump out a plane.
You went to Six Flags and stayed on the ground
the entire time!
- Yeah, because that don't do nothing for me.
- You, listen. Between the two of us,
you're the boring one.
- The most ridiculous thing is that we both like,
I'm not gonna say his name, but...
(laughter)
Yeah.
So the most ridiculous thing
is like us both shooting our shot,
or me encouraging you to shoot your shot,
and then also me shooting my shot,
and I'm just like why, why am I doing this?
- I can say my birthday,
you showing up in lingerie--
(audio cuts out)
- Bun!
(laughter)
Um, sorry. Uh...
(laughter)
- Oh my god!
- Just so many great memories, um...
(laughter)
- You're the one who always,
"Uh, I don't wanna do that, I don't wanna,
I wanna go swim with turtles,
I don't wanna do this"
You're always the "I don't wanna do this, Mekeisha,
I don't wanna do this"
Like, your like, your always " I don't wanna",
that's your favorite line to use.
Whereas I'm the one that wants to sling and swing from stuff
all the time,
and have like, near death experiences.
- We spent four and a half hours flying towards each other
to see each other for the first time, it was ridiculous.
(laughter)
- That was ridiculous,
I'm thinking about like a goofy thing.
- Yeah, no 'cause I, I know my parents, right,
were saying like, oh you know,
if anything happens you call us, like,
and I think I had some other friends too like,
say well, how do you know that he's not some serial killer
or something,
and I'm like, I don't know, like,
that really didn't, like, cross my mind,
because I just trusted you so much already,
um, and I guess that was a risk we both took, right?
I mean I could of just like, not showed up, right,
and then you would have spent all this money
and flown 3,000 miles to, I guess--
- To just wander around by myself.
- Yeah.
- I was very nervous but also very excited,
and, when you arrived,
when I was there waiting for you,
and you arrived, I was like, uh, even more nervous,
and, um, but you calmed me down very quickly so,
that was a very nice feeling and,
I immediately liked you.
- You were like glowing, like, like, just,
I don't know, I was just like, wow, this is,
I think this is gonna go well.
(audio cuts out)
- ...wife's birthday party? Yeah.
- Yeah?
(laughter)
- You know where I'm going with this, right?
- I do, I know what you're talking about,
yeah, okay. Yeah, all right, you win, good one.
- That one was pretty ridiculous,
where we, uh, do we, should we share? Or do we just--
- No.
- No? We don't share that? Ugh, okay.
(laughter)
- No, but yes, I would say, uh, yep,
I'm, yes.
- Uh huh.
- Yes, yes.
- Okay, cool.
- Let me just comment on when you called me in my sleep,
and my,
(laughs)
my hair be sticking up the top of my head
say hold on, let me get my bun
to cover up my hair, and then you,
(laughs)
- Your bom bom, yeah.
- You be like, that's okay, I don't care.
- Yeah.
- So yeah.
- Wait, didn't we go zip lining?
- Yeah, after I forced you to go zip lining!
- You didn't force me to go zip lining.
- Yes I did. Yes I did.
- No you didn't.
- Yes I did.
- No you didn't.
- Yes I did.
Because you know what you said?
"Why, we on vacation, I want sleep, Mekeisha, Oh my god.
150, oh my god! They better have some gold zip line",
and then you went and you had the world of fun.
- All right, whatever.
- Exactly.
- Blame me, sure. All right, I'll take it.
- It is your fault!
You're the boring one, not me!
- I'll take it!
I'll take it.
- Boring.
- All right, I'm boring.
- Boring. I'm ready for the next question.
- What is the next step in our relationship?
- Well it's uh, it's, it's starting this
visa application and getting you over here
to the U.S. so that we can start our lives together,
and get married.
- Yeah.
- Um, yeah, I think it's pretty soon we'll
start on the application and that's our next big step so,
- Getting married!
- And I'm excited for it, yeah.
(laughs)
- Me too.
- In terms of what excites me,
the fact that, um, we get to get married on the beach,
that's our dream, that's been both our dreams.
Um, and the fact that the people that are coming
are celebrating us.
- Yeah.
- And truly love us. Unconditionally.
Um, 'cause that's why they've been invited,
and that's why they're coming.
- Yes.
- Um, that's probably the most exciting part,
and I finally get to make you my wife, like,
sheesh.
(laughs)
My wifey for lifey.
- Yes.
(laughs)
- You know just getting to know each other
on a physical level, like, you know,
It's only so much you can learn about a person,
- Yeah.
- You know, we video chat every day, all day.
Talk on the phone all day,
but once you with a person,
you know, you have to learn different things about them
that you did not know, you know,
and, I'm ready for adventure, you know,
I'm ready to learn different things about you
and allow you to learn different things about me.
Um, my one thing, I have never been on a beach, like,
I don't know what sand feel like,
I never touched sand before a day in my life so,
you always be like, you would take me to the beach
and stuff so,
- Yeah.
you know. I'ma hold you to that.
I'ma hold you to that.
- What is the pain in me that you wish you could heal?
Mm-hm.
- Um, the ability to have a kid.
I feel like that's a pain in you.
- Mm-hm.
- That, you're... I feel that's something that you're,
you're suffering silently, internally,
and don't really speak about.
I don't want to say suffering but I feel it's
something that's forever on your mind,
probably every day.
And, I just want you to know that it's gonna be okay.
Stop worrying.
If it's gonna happen, it's gonna happen.
So, I feel that's the pain in you.
That I could think of right now,
there's probably more things but I feel that's,
that's, especially at your age, you're winding down,
and, I feel like that's,
that's, although that's cool
I think that's something that you probably worry about
the most.
- Mm.
- Than anything.
- I do.
- So.
- Definitely worried about child bearing.
- I understand.
- Mm-hm.
You know I don't like talking about it either.
With people always being rude and, asking about
when you gonna have a kid, they,
could you not ask me about that?
- I know.
- Mm-hm.
- One day. Don't worry yourself.
- Okay.
Don't stress it.
- I know that, in a lot of times in your life,
you were abandoned and that you were, um,
left for other people in a lot of friendships,
and I know that's, that's really left a big scar in you.
That that's left you with a doubt as well,
like, no matter what, people can leave in any given moment,
and that's what I want to, to heal in you.
Because trust me, I'm not going anywhere.
- I hope so!
(laughter)
- See again, you hope it, but I, I just, I just know
that I'm not going anywhere.
- I think I, in the beginning of the relationship,
was very like, cautious around having a relationship
with you and,
I mean even looking at my previous relationships too,
right, like, I was always like, kind of taught to
serve other people and that my feelings didn't matter,
and I think when I met you during college,
I was like in this process of,
"No, my feelings do matter, and I can't trust anybody",
Um, which I think got in the way
of our relationship.
Um, and you know like I, our relationship ended
like, twice, because of my trust issues and anxiety.
- Yeah, I mean I wasn't gonna bring it up, but...
(laughs)
- It's fine, it's fair game now that I brought it up.
Um, but, and it wasn't even trust issues of me thinking
like, oh is he cheating on me or any, like,
it wasn't any of that, I never thought for a second
that you were ever like, seeing other people like
while we were doing long distance,
it was literally just,
ultimately I just, I didn't feel safe,
And, um...
But,
I think,
even though we were raised very differently,
I think with a lot of like, the healing that I've done,
and with going to therapy and stuff
I now understand what like being, having a
secure attachment to someone is and like,
you were the first person I ever experienced that with
and now I'm like, I can't let this go, this is,
this feels nice.
- How are we most similar and how we most different?
(laughter)
- Uh, I think we're most similar because
we're both like, first born daughters,
- Okay.
- In African households, and if you know, you know.
(laughter)
We just have like, a lot of responsibility on us um,
already from home and also like,
being in Canada, feeling like you have to represent
your people everywhere you go.
- Mm.
Um, sometimes it, it can be a lot of pressure,
um, but on a positive note, ways that we're similar,
we're also artists...
(laughs)
- Yup.
(laughs)
- I say that with caution.
(laughter)
Let's say like, this goal is like,
people see this video, right?
They're like, okay, artist! Let's go check out her art!
(laughter)
Nothing, nowhere to be seen.
(laughter)
Okay, so yeah, I would say yes. Yes.
- Okay. No but like...
- Like you're out there.
- Yes, we're creatives, like, yeah...
- Yeah, creative.
- Creatives, general term, yeah, yeah.
(laughter)
- Are you (censored) kidding me?
What is something you never... oh my god.
If this were gonna be our last conversation ever
what's something you would never want me to forget?
Do you wanna answer first?
Or do you want me to go first?
- I, I think uh, outside of me loving you unconditionally
and, that I do and that I always will
regardless of, you know, our relationship status,
uh, I hope that it stays forever but, um,
if this were our actual last conversation um,
I guess what I would want you to know more than anything
is that, moving forward in life I, I just,
I need you to know that you're, you're worth it,
you're worth someone's love, um...
Sorry, you're making me cry.
Um...
You're just, you deserve compassion, you deserve love
unconditionally, um, and all the things that you carry
with you from when you were younger, um,
I know they can't be let go but, um, you uh,
you're worth it.
(sniffles)
- You're so stupid for crying.
- I hate you, I hate you so much.
(laughter)
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