what the [ __ ] is going on here with the title i heard you go with them soft lips
yeah you know word of mouth the square root of 69 is eight something it's a song just don't mind me
are my neighbors having sex okay no someone's just walking by i was like what um anyways
i was like okay someone's having sex no but my neighbor was having sex the other day i mean it
doesn't matter everyone has sex for the most part but when you hear it it's a little awkward taco
have your neighbor neighbors heard you doing the dirty yet are you a loud girl oh definitely are
you kidding i'm embarrassed to leave my house um yeah i'm sure they have i'm going to be honest
oh hello is a meow looking full
oh my god watch me get demonetized because i sound just like the person who sings that
um we're currently on my standing desk moment so are we like excited for this or what i love this
thing you guys have no idea i'm trying to get the angle good can we see your top it looks so pretty
it is a dress moment i mean i got it in like a small size so it kind of does look like a shirt
let's be real it's like emerald green and it's velvet you will see it more i'm like literally
touching my boobs you'll see it more um oh my hair looks bad today maybe it's just me
in um my vlog and i filmed my what i ate today video today is that why do i have like sorry
i'm just feeling self-conscious ignore me um i filmed my what i ate today video today so i
haven't filmed already and it's edited so that doesn't even go up until saturday
which is so crazy um oh my god evelyn honey is there someone you can talk to
i want you to be alive and i know there's people in your life who love you and also want that
um wow evelyn i feel so please reach out to me on instagram i'd love to talk to you your comment
section has been so positive lately i'm shook it really has been um it means a lot to me you guys i
i'm putting in a lot of effort in these vlogs i've been loving editing lately like i literally
sat down with myself today while i was journaling and i was like i love youtube again
i love filming i love editing i feel like i'm kind of being like a little bit creative with it um i'm
enjoying it and if people don't like it that's fine but i thoroughly am loving it so yeah um um
i have been engaged twice um i was engaged i got proposed to when i was 17. i thought i was in love
i said yes and i was also engaged to becky you handled it really well i was surprised you stayed
on for as long as you did i'm surprised i did too because in my head i was like okay maybe like a
20 minute moment but well evelyn i know how it feels to like have those thoughts and i i promise
you you are loved and you are wanted and please just reach out like there's hotlines you can call
there's me um there's so many people in this chat who obviously are here for you as well um
you're making mine making me emotional um but please just stay watch the live stream i will
try my hardest to cheer you up um and then please message me on instagram i'm so excited for vlogmas
okay let's restart that i'm sorry it's because you accidentally put excused which i know exactly
what you mean um autocorrect sucks i'm so excited for vlogmas this year i want it to look like xmas
exploded in your apartment i might have to make that happen so yes um
oh my god evelyn do not be sorry i just appreciate you opening up like that
i we all of us clearly just want you to know that you're very loved and you can reach out to us okay
where do you think your vibe shift is coming from i finally started taking my medicine correctly uh
eating healthier doing more like movement you know those endorphins um vitamin d has helped a lot you
know there's just a lot of different things like i have a normal sleeping schedule it's just like
a mixture of a lot of different things and like i'm surrounding myself with people in my life who
make me feel good like sometimes you are literally the company that you keep
and i like totally believe that so look at who's around you and who you surround yourself with
sometimes taking out some of those people can make you realize that they're actually the ones making
you unhappy or they're like sending out bad vibes i'm very much i i mirror other people's vibes and
like emotions so if you're sad i'm gonna be sad if you're happy i'm gonna be happy if you're
having a bad day you're gonna make me have a bad day um so very much surround yourself with
like just better people that you you want people to match your aura if that makes sense like
that's the best way to describe it i just feel like i just feel i don't know
sometimes you just have to grow up i think that's another big thing is
like i just have to grow up there's so much i want in life that like
if i would have stayed my old self i wouldn't be able to get those things that i want in life
there's just so much more than food and trolling and laziness you know those were like my things
trolling food and laziness there's just so much more than that and i just feel
so much better being productive and happy and really working towards a better me in every way
um i love the post with the two picks of you showing how different you look i was like
shook like i think what made me really notice it is like okay yes my face is round but like
my face was really round in 2019 and it's like i don't even remember looking that way
like my eyes look so much bigger now because my face is getting smaller and
the picture that i shared my eyes just looked like almost non-existent and i think that's that was a
really big way of like telling the difference um like my eye my eyes you know it's so crazy
like i never realized i looked like that like ever it's just so weird and i cannot wait to
lose more weight and then see me like this and be like damn i don't remember looking like that so
i'm excited for the changes girl you need to throw a party when you get below 100 bmi i already am
oh yeah that's what i wanted to do okay i want to do a little um
bmi moment i'm going to go to my bmi calculator because i want to see like what i am now
um versus what i was i feel like that'll make me feel you know a little good okay
um so my highest okay so my height i am five oh wait okay no i'm definitely not 15 five feet
highest was 572. so my bmi used to be 101. we are getting crooked sorry about
that so my bmi used to be 101 that is like so bad doctor now would be
mad okay um now let's go back i'm gonna do it now i will not tell you guys my weight now because i
do have a weigh-in coming tomorrow so you guys will see that then but i am gonna put it in and
see the difference okay so we went from 101 to 89. that's disgusting like obviously it's disgusting
it's bad i'm healthy the whole nine yards but it's better i am down so that means i'm down
matt amberlynn what 12 bmi points you have to start somewhere i'm happy with that um
let's see hey girl i love you but can you address why becky is hinting you were abusive
i wasn't abusive i don't know what you're talking about i feel like people are just trying to start
drama is that a new choker another tiffany's moment yes um okay well this is tiffany's
um it was 1300 and i just love it so much no this was like five dollars for your height every
5.4 pounds is one bmi point think of that that's incredible use that as milestones every 5.4 is one
point closer to normal range i love that dang hold on i just oh my god please don't tell me i'm gonna
have an allergic reaction right now sometimes that happens because my cats um no no no hold on
crap um wow the fact that you know that that's pretty cool um wow so 5.4 pounds is one bmi point
so like i love that my bmi is going down but i know there's a lot of people who don't believe
in bmi or whatever because you can look at it as okay so this six foot two guy okay so there's two
six foot two guys one is fat who weighs 290 pounds and the other one is just muscle who weighs 290
pounds since they're both the same weight and the same height their bmi is going to be the same but
clearly the muscle man is more healthy than the fat man statistically so it's like bmis can be
a little whatever but i totally like obviously the fact that my bmi was over 100 at one point
uh that's death like i should be laughing about it because it's not funny but it's like why did i
let myself get to this like i i feel like i'm kind of stuck in a cage at this moment because like my
brain and my body and like my mental and my heart and my soul my gut the cells in my body we all
just want to be free and we want to just travel and do things and like right now i feel trapped
like it literally feels like i'm in this like small bird cage and like no one's letting me out
and there's like impossible to let me out because someone lost the key that's like how it feels
every day is one day closer to me reaching my goals that's all i gotta say what's the type
of food you never tried but want to i feel like i've tried everything that i want to try honestly
um i can't think of anything stephanie welcome to stream queens
my ideal partner charming female well that don't matter i just want you to have a vagina
i don't care what your gender is i just i want you to like um that's just what i prefer um
respectful supportive um loyal trustworthy someone that i could be silly with
a sexual person you know all the goods um if you have a place to get korean dogs oh my gosh
amber oh my gosh you need to have one or two for your next cheat meal i have looked up places near
me that have those and i can't find i just can't find it anywhere that's a food that i want to try
actually they look so good oh my god um what would your dream wedding look like
intimate beautiful small um i don't know i feel like my dream wedding like has recently changed
a lot because i used to be very much like oh my god i want a big wedding and like all this stuff
and now i'm just like i don't i don't want to spend a bunch of money on a wedding i'd rather
spend a bunch of money on the honeymoon that's kind of how i see it amber i wasn't trying to
start drama but he legit liked to comment that said she was free from your a word and i want
you to have a fair chance to dispute this before people take it too far um becky tells me that she
just hearts comments so i don't really know what to say about that um i'm not abusive so i mean
oh god it's just more drama um karina kaboom's videos are annoying she plays the same three clips
from your channel it's like get some new content and if you want to talk about clickbait titles
she's the queen of that so um would you rather stream where you were putting together a lego
set i think it would be so fun relaxing if you were working on something like that and chatting
with us i could do that y'all oh my god i just bought a new lego set ugh i am so excited okay
i know it's so weird that legos are a passion of mine we just
let's just embrace it at this point i don't care what people say
i literally don't i like literally don't i love me lego like it's just like therapeutic it's fun i
i don't have to justify what i like but um oh my god it's so oh my god when i get it in the mail
i'm literally gonna vlog i think i'm gonna vlog like the process i don't wanna bore you guys with
it too much so it's just gonna be like very quick little like okay this is how much i've done now
because i feel like a lot of you are gonna like this one as well you would love legoland took my
boyfriend we had a blast they even have roller coasters legoland where is that at oh my god
do the lego set in your next live stream while chatting with us we would love to watch you
build something i could do that i could get like a um like a smaller lego moment because
okay the biggest lego i've ever done has been obviously the typewriter and
um the mario one which i have over there those were about two thousand pieces
the one that i have coming in the mail is three thousand so that's the biggest
i've ever done but then the one i'm buying on november first is four thousand pieces
oh i'm feeling that i stay in a lego resort vlog moment oh my god it's totally gonna happen are
you joking totes gonna happen it's on my bucket list now because what the hell a lego resort
um have you yeah a spinner i used to have one of those too have you noticed a change in the
way your clothes fit yes actually um looks like my clothes are falling off of me um there are certain
things that i can wear now that i wasn't able to wear like just recently so that feels really nice
there's a lego land in california is there oh my goodness maybe i should go back to california i'm
gonna go i love you guys it has been a great live stream um tomorrow you will get a weigh-in video
you guys will see how i did this week all right bye guys you say i make you
nervous a tragedy i'm a beautiful disaster a reckoning you wonder how i got this way