I think I look a bit like Tracy Beaker today.
Do you think I look a bit like Tracy Beaker?
I haven't sat down and recorded in so long!
I pre-filmed for LA, then I went to LA and then all the footage I've edited since then has just been stuff that has been pre-flimed.
Because I did sponsorships and.. I just haven't sat down in so long!
I was going to call this video What's Gwanin, and then I realised that I probably haven't said that phrase ever in my life before.
The big question now is, Hi! How are you doing? I'm doing really well.
I'm in a really good mood today and I have been all my period actually
and you know what I think it is? I stopped eating wheat on my period and, fuck me I feel great. I feel really good.
So I have a lot to fill you in on. I tried to film this video maybe like two or three weeks ago but it just feels so out of date now.
Things are progressing fast. So we should start off with graduation. I'm graduating in a couple of days.
If you follow me on Twitter, you'll know I got a 2:1 in my degree. Woo amazing I'm so thrilled
and so just over the moon about it. Like absolutely over the moon.
I'm not really the sort of person to set aspirational goals, that are really big and kinda fixed.
I'm very fluid. I'm happy to kinda embrace change.
However, I have really really wanted a degree for my whole life it's something that I was I guess conditioned to really want and so to have it now, is just like
(claps) oh my god. In a week I have a degree.
What else do I have to tell you about? So in other news. I'm going to hit one hundred thousand subscribers on youtube
in probably a couple of weeks. I've just passed ninety nine thousand.
(outward breath sound)
That's so weird, that's so so so weird. Because it has been such a slow growth for me. I still feel like a small Youtuber.
I.. Not small but very very medium sized. Someone said to me the other day, "but Lucy you're a big Youtuber now, like you're recognisably big"
and I was like, no I'm not. Don't be silly. I'm still a small fry in the big world of the McDonalds chip packet of Youtube
But no I'm getting bigger now and thank you so much because obviously
(change of tone) It wouldn't happen without you guys! (Laughs)
(resumes original tone) I'm just so happy about it. I really am and I couldn't thank you enough for that.
and so harking back to my update video that I did maybe two months ago.
can you tell it's been a busy period ? If you do an update video with two month intervals that's busy.
So yeah, harking back to the update video. I said I was going to focus on Youtube for two or three months and then maybe like half way through last month
I had a bit of, a bit of panic and I was like you know what I do actually really want a nine-to-five right now like I just want that stability.
So I started applying for things. But right now I'm actually, very financially stable.
I'm really happy being free lance and like doing jobs for other people and then doing my own stuff.
I'm really, really happy doing this and so, yeah. I'm just I'm very content with it and I'm very happy to stick with it for quite a while.
So yeah that's exciting. Right now my main priority is upgrading my equipment and making better produced and like edited videos.
I've had the same camera for what like six years now? Five years, It's been such a long time.
Same lens, I'm still vloging on what people were vloging on in 2010. In fact even 2009.
So I'm looking forward to getting a proper setup. Doing this properly because, I care about it so much!
I'm not sure if you can tell! (giggles) But I care so much, about this YouTube thing that I'm doing.
I want to use my platform to elevate minority voices a bit more as well.
Because I can do that now and that's amazing. So hopefully I'm going to be making a video on intersexual feminist...
Intersexual? Intersectional not intersexual.
Hopefully in the coming months I'm going to be making a video on intersectional feminism and that will be... Made with you guys!
You guys. I hate the phrase you guys. This is a pet peeve of mine.
I hate the phrase you guys because it's so overused by Youtubers, and I just think it amasses this huge like audience, into this like, lump.
I just I just really don't like it I will be using your voices to make this video and, I have big plans for it.
and I'm looking forward to getting you on board. Because I think it's going to be really good.
The thing that's occupying the most of my brain right now in terms of aspirational stuff is how to move back to London.
I love my family home. I love where I live. But it's not big enough and it's not independent enough
and I need a space that's bigger than a large closet to do, stuff in.
You know I can't have a desk right now and that's really a problem in terms of, my back hurts and I'm editing in a busy kitchen for most of the day.
If you follow me on snapchat. You'll see me rant about this the other day but it's difficult because, I'm spending so much time in London and yet I'm not there enough.
Even now I'm bailing on people. I'm not able to go to events.
For an example I've missed a pottermore event and a fantastic beasts and where to find them event.
which is like. I can't tell you how upset I was. But I'm just missing everything and everyone as well.
Like I can't be there for people when they need me as easily and whenever I do go up there, I see the same
people a lot because I stay at their houses a lot and so it's not.. I don't know I'm a bit of a liability and I don't ever want to be a liability. So I want to move back to London.
basically what I'm trying to say and I'm saving up. And it... Hopefully September or October I'll be back there. But it's so unpredictable.
Oh! And about alcohol, I have as of like two or three days ago be reading this book, it's called The Sober Revolution Calling Time On Wine O'clock.
And as I've been reading it. I've been like, fuck this is me. This is 100% me.
I keep like just snap chatting photos of it and then just saving them so I can like highlight the important bits.
I've never read something before that's really been like having been kicked in the face with something you already knew.
But my god like this is that experience. And the problem with alcohol is that it's fashionable.
and that I think is the hardest thing for me. Kind of glamorised, so nice to like go home and like hang out with your friends over dinner with multiple glasses of wine
and drinking prosecco with your friends. Having a cold beer like in, on a really sunny afternoon in a park.
Like ahh, all of that is just so you're like. My months aren't going to get any easier for the next like a half year. Umm, if this is the case. You got to do what you got to do you know!
And if that's what I've got to do I've got to do it and I'll document it. And make sure that everyone who watches me or who can find it is able to find some
like comfort or support in there or inspiration because, I think that's a good thing to put online.
Also maybe a brief mention of Vidcon. Vidcon was absolutely amazing, I adored it and I couldn't recommend it enough.
Now that they have a creator track. Honestly it just seems like such a positive experience. And I met so many creators that I was like, oh my god you're the next generation.
you're so cool. It inspired me to keep making and I hope it inspires you to keep making as well.
Because so many people, that I met, that came up to me and were like oh my God I like your videos.
I was like well you clearly make videos, you've got your creator badge on. You are so smart and insightful, and I can just tell that whatever you're making is really good!
and it turns out as well one girl that recognized me. I think, I think it's her, she's called Mia Moran and I'll link her channel down below.
because I was actually already subscribed to her and I just haven't realized and then she uploaded and I was like hmm.
I really recognize this girl.
#Keep makin that good sweet stuff.
TLDR I graduate, I got a 2:1, I'm doing YouTube, want to make more things, want to move back to London, also might be an alcoholic.
Ok so thank you for watching and I will see you in my next video!