You stay there.
This hair is just not listening today. Ugly.
Hot!
Hello. Hello and welcome to my room.
Today, I am in one of those moods where I want my room to be really cold,
but I want to be under the covers
getting warm
from the cold, you know?
Okay, pal,
You're — this isn't happening. Go away!
He's still there. I-I see him, and I want him to die.
I'm sorry that was harsh.
If you hear the AC running, I just wasn't willing to compromise today.
I don't feel like being hot, but I do feel like drinking hot tea.
You just got to listen to your body.
Also, today, I'm in one of those moods where I
kind of just feel like hanging out at home and not really doing anything,
so I'm wearing the same pajamas that I slept in last night,
and right before this I was watching Gilmore Girls for four hours.
I'm not upset about it.
I'm having a good time, okay?
I also felt like talking because I've been silent for a long time, too
So I thought I'd talk to you guys, people who are always here for me.
I asked you guys for questions on the social media platforms that I use frequently,
and you guys gave me a lot of good ones, so,
I figured, let's do an Ask Cone!
The folder on my computer is named 'Ask Coney.'
I just want to ramble today
Rambly Conan mood has come forth.
I also don't feel very, like, peppy and excited and crazy right now.
I just kind of still, like, chill, like everything's fine.
So don't be like, "Oh, Conan seems sadder in this video." I'm just not like,
*buzzing noise*
You know, which normally I'm like, *buzzing noise*
But like, today I'm like, *slower buzzing*
Let's get started!
@lovesickboy asks,
That's a good question.
I'm very nervous to go to UCLA.
Whoa!
I just saw, like, a big bird outside my window.
I'm really excited to go to UCLA. I'm also really nervous to go,
just 'cause sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have gotten in,
and that I'm not smart enough to go to that school,
and I'm scared that I'm going to fail all my classes,
But I'm sure that's not going to happen.
I'm sure I'll be fine,
but. Anyways.
I'm really excited to be in an environment where everyone at that school, like, actually wants to be at school,
You know what I mean? You know what I mean.
You know? You know what I mean.
In high school, you're forced to go to high school, so all the kids there don't really want to be there.
But at a school like UCLA, where it's really hard to get into, the kids actually want to be there?
They worked really hard to be at that school
and I'm really excited to be surrounded by
people who actually worked really hard to be at that school studying, have big aspirations,
have big ambitions and want to do amazing things with their lives.
I'm looking forward to being surrounded by people who I actually relate to.
I live in a small town, so people kind of have different dreams than I do?
You know, I have dreams of being able to be a musician and being able to work in the music industry.
But most the kids here, you know, have dreams of having a family and settling down, and I think that's wonderful and beautiful
But it's just not really what I want.
And so I'm excited to be surrounded by people who also have different dreams other than settling down and getting married
I'm also really excited to ride my bike around campus, and like,
*brrm brrm* *bing bing* *bike noises*
That's the sounds that a bike makes.
*more bike noises*
So, spot me around that campus ridin' my little bike. Imma, imma be zoom zoomin.
I'm excited to just, like, enjoy the campus and like, be a college student.
I'm excited to learn about the music industry. I'm excited to feel intellectual.
I'm gonna trick everyone into thinking that I'm smart. anyways next question
Joke's on you. I don't belong at that school.
Anyways, next question.I'm really excited, basically.
The thing about Texas that I'm most excited about leaving is that
There's not anything to do here. Like there's not that much to do here.
There's not much opportunity job-wise, there's not much stuff to do outside with your friends,
it's too hot to go outside, and I spend a lot of my time alone,
working just to like, fill the time, basically. It kind of is driving me insane.
I really don't like sitting around.
The thing that I'm also least excited about leaving in Texas is that
when I'm in LA, I'll never have that downtime. I'll never have this feeling of just
there being nothing to do, and like,
not having to worry about what to do.
LA is just so fast-paced and so zoom-zoom, go go go,
and there is definitely a big spot in my heart that's sad that I won't
have this mentality and this lifestyle to kind of ease my mind every once in a while
My biggest fear when I'm on my own?
I'm scared that I'm gonna, just kind of like,
Get really stressed out once I move out, and like, fall into, like, a tiny pit of sadness
I know that's probably not going to happen just 'cause there's gonna be so much to do
I'm not going to have time to even get sad.
I'm scared that I'm going to be lonely, that I'm gonna, like, spend too much time alone
because I mean
I don't really know that many people in LA. I would just but overall I'm mostly just excited
I would def— But overall, I'm mostly just excited.
And I know that the fears that I have right now are all gonna disappear
within like, a couple weeks or a month. Like, those are all just going to be out of the window.
I feel like I would be Mei from Totoro because
Mei has a very vivid imagination.
She's kind of, like, weird and crazy and like, runs around all the time.
She is a child, and I am a child in spirit.
I just feel like her personality and my personality are super similar, and
she's just a silly kid, and I really like that. She's also very curious.
I'm an extremely curious person.
I think also I relate to her a lot because my sister is a lot like the older sister in Totoro, and I'm totally like Mei,
and I think it's something about like, sibling-ship type of thing that really makes me relate
to Mei, because Alyssa took care of me, like, so much when I was a kid.
Fun fact, I used to be really, really shy.
And I still am shy sometimes, even if it doesn't look like it,
but when I was younger I used to be super shy.
I was always, always, like, hiding behind my mother; I was never talking.
Um, in elementary school, I was not hyper.
I was very, very reserved and very quiet, to the point that like teachers would like,
ask my parents, like, "Is everything okay with Conan?" Like, "Is he okay?"
Um, but I was really, really shy.
But that shyness all went away once I had a really good group of friends.
You know when you have friends you kind of get comfortable with them,
and it doesn't really matter what they think of you, you just kind of have a mutual understanding that
you guys are both absolute freaks and it's okay.
And when you have a group of friends, then, like, all of y'all can be weird together,
and it doesn't really matter, you know? By the time I was in the eighth grader in middle school,
Um, I wasn't really shy. I was shy with, like, strangers sometimes,
but I think I got to the point where I realized that enough people liked me for who I am,
then it doesn't really matter what some stranger would think about me.
It takes a long time to learn that it doesn't matter what strangers think about you,
but thanks to my friends, I realized that
once you realize that the public's opinion of who you are,
and the public's opinion of what you should be doesn't matter.
Being shy just isn't an instinct anymore.
Obviously is it different for everyone, but that's how my shyness went away.
It was not an epiphany moment. My whole entire life,
I always wanted to be a singer.
There was a period around middle school when I started to doubt myself a lot
and thought, "No, I could never. Like, I'm not talented enough,
I don't, I don't know anyone in the industry. I, I don't have anything. Like, how could I do that?"
I really brushed it off and I really like, brought myself down and told myself that I couldn't,
but for as long as I could remember I always wanted to be a singer.
From the second that I found out that people could actually have music as their job, I knew.
I knew it wasn't a single moment. It was my whole life. My whole life was an epiphany moment.
Feeling uninspired is definitely a very hard thing for people who are creatives.
Artist's block is a real struggle, and like, it can totally affect your career.
But with me, I don't really struggle that much with artist's block just because I am constantly creating.
Even if I don't have inspiration I'm just constantly going and going and going and making things.
And if I have some kind of creative boost randomly while I'm constantly creating, and then I'll make something very creative
But I'm always circulating, always making.
I'm pretty sure it's Chuck Close who said
that inspiration is for amateurs.
Let me look it up. There's a quote that is important.
Yeah, it is Chuck Close. Chuck Close, one of my favorite artists ever, said,
"Inspiration is for amateurs — the rest of us just show up and get to work.
If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain,
you are not going to make an awful lot of work.
All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself."
And I absolutely agree with that. If you just keep that creative tap running,
if you keep making, keep making, keep making, you're going to make great things.
As long as you keep working, and you keep working towards that.
But on days when I'm feeling a little bit uninspired to make things,
I usually will get in my car and just drive around to anywhere,
just drive and drive and drive for hours and hours gallons and gallons of gas just
gallons and gallons of gas just disappearing,
and that kind of helps me clear my head a lot
and helps remind me why I love to create so much and why I adore the process so much.
I hope that is a good answer for you and for everyone who deals with, um,
lack of inspiration.
Whenever I randomly mentioned that I had synesthesia in one of my videos,
like a bunch you guys commented and asked me to talk about it, so...
Good opportunity.
I have synesthesia.
It is just a random thing that my brain does, its something that my brain has always done.
Basically, when I listen to music, my brain automatically places colors
to every single note/every single song.
Unwillingly it just does it
I think a lot of people are under the impression that people who have synesthesia like when they're listening to music,
there, there's like streams of color floating around the world and that's not true.
It's just, my brain is like, "Oh! This song is purple."
And there's no reason why, but it just is, it just is.
Music for me is extremely, extremely visual.
When I listen to music there are
definite pictures or colors. Almost everything in the world to me has colors.
Things that don't have colors, like numbers. Numbers have colors for me.
Like, one is blue. Two is yellow, for sure.
Three is green, for sure. Four is orange. Four is orange, five is red.
It's just, like, they just are.
There's no reason why they are, they just are.
Same with days of the week, I assign colors to every single day of the week.
So when I listen to music, they just are a certain color.
Let me give some examples. Adele's "Someone Like You" is gray.
It's one of the only songs that I know that is gray,
but it just is, it's gray. Like a pale gray, like the color of fog in the morning.
That's another thing about synesthesia: the colors that my brain assigns to music.
It's extremely specific. It's not just like, "Oh, it's blue," like,
it's a very specific tone and that causes my songwriting process to be very, very analytical,
because if a certain word or a certain note isn't the right color for the song,
then I can't put it in there even if it's a good lyric or something.
I just can't put it in there because it's not the right color.
One of my favorite songs in the whole world, "Dog Years" by Maggie Rogers,
it is dark blue, purple, and red. It just...
It just is.
A lot of songs have several colors as well.
My song, "Idle Town," is like, light blue, light orange, red,
the color green of, like, a lawn, that kind of color.
And if you watch the music video you'll see that
those colors are in the music video because I knew
the colors when I was writing the song so I had to get this very distinct visual
to make sure that the music matched the music video.
I have a song coming out in August, which I'm crazy, crazy excited to have
and when I listen to that song I already know the visuals.
From the second that I wrote it, I knew what the song would look like, and that's what synesthesia is to me.
It's just, it's another extremely visual aspect of music to me that I can't explain.
There's no reason why, it just is.
So that is all of the questions that I picked, I really hope you enjoyed.
If you have a certain question that you really want me to ask you can leave it in the comments below,
and then if you see any other comments that you think would be really good for me to answer,
give it a thumbs up that way I'll be able to hopefully see it and then answer it in the next one.
I also got some of the questions from Twitter,
so if you want to follow me on Twitter to get notified when I'm taking Ask Cone questions,
then, you can do that.
But my microphone is about to die, and...
I feel like watching more Gilmore Girls, so.
I'm gonna go. Thank you so much for watching.
I love you guys so much.
God bless and goodbye!