I was yelling to God.
You're not a just God.
You don't care what is happening to me.
I'm so sick and tired of my life.
Finally I said that,
if You are the true God,
come and take my life.
If not,
let me die here.
I don't want to wake up.
"and in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed" Gen 22:18
Iran before the revolution,
was really a quiet country,
very peaceful.
When the Islamic revolution happened in 1979,
I left Iran and moved to Denmark.
The very first day when I came to Denmark,
it was snow falling,
cold, very cold.
And I was sitting in my room,
all alone and crying,
really crying.
Literally crying.
And called my mom.
I said,
Mom, I want to come back home.
I really want to come back home.
I don't want to stay here.
I cannot stay here.
I will die here."
And she said,
"If you come here,
you will die here too.
So you'd better stay there."
I tried to fill the loneliness
by making myself busy and making money.
I had a house in Bali, Indonesia.
Didn't make me happy.
In order to find Allah,
I start to go to mosque.
Doing salah five times a day,
but found no Allah.
And then I went to other religions,
Buddhists and Hinduism and Krishna,
you name it,
but [found] no god.
But still the feeling of loneliness
and emptiness was there.
My neighbor back in Bali, Indonesia,
they were really unbelievably nice and loving.
The first day,
they knocked my door and came with food
and tried to make friendship with me.
They also tried to get me into church.
Church for Moslems is a heathen place.
The more I turned them down,
the more they loved me,
purely,
unconditionally,
and finally I gave up.
I said, okay,
and I want to see what your Jesus wants to do to me.
Can He get me out of this misery?
When I came in the church,
I saw this guy,
he told the whole congregation,
4000 people,
"You will be touched by God in a different way."
Everyone was touched,
but not Ibrahim.
Nothing happened.
And I was telling myself that,
Ibrahim, you are a very,
very bad guy.
That's why God is not touching you.
But the more I turned Him down,
the more He loved me.
I mean it was really a strange love.
So finally I said, okay,
your Jesus couldn't do anything today.
Let me see what He wants to do to me tomorrow.
And the next day,
in exactly the same way.
And this time I was really furious.
I was really angry with myself and I was angry with God
and I was so angry with God
that I went right in front of the pulpit
and lay down as a dead man.
I was yelling to God.
You are not a just God.
I'm seeking to find You for years and years,
but it seems that You don't care.
If You are the true God,
come and take my life.
If not, let me die here.
I don't want to wake up.
After 10 minutes,
I heard a voice.
"Ibrahim,
if you don't want your life,
I will take your life for my glory."
I felt hands start to touch my head.
I thought that some of these 4000 people felt sorry for me,
and came to me just to give me comfort.
I opened one of my eyes,
seeing who is this?
Nobody here on this side.
And I opened my left eye,
nobody here.
And when I opened my eyes,
and tried to stand on my feet,
I couldn't stand on my feet.
And the whole church was empty,
and I was born again at that day.
God made us in such a way with a vacuum
that only God can fill it.
No money,
no children or mother or father.
Only God himself is needed to fill that.
And the same Jesus is now visiting Moslems.
Before the revolution in 1979,
Iran had only a handful of Christians.
35 plus years after the revolution,
they have more than two and a half million Iranian Christians.
Years after I became Christian
my view of Jewish people changed dramatically.
I love them with all my heart.
I respect them highly.
We, the gentiles,
are grafted into the tree,
but they are the branches.
I truly believe that God still has a plan for Israel.
And my advice to Christians,
do not give up.
Keep on loving people.
You don't know what is happening.
The Jewish or Moslem they turned you down,
but don't give up.
You don't know what is happening in their heart.
You have to be patient.
You are dealing with human souls.
And continue to love people
unconditionally.
I am one for Israel.