Hello, little buns
It is just about six in the morning
Its a little before six in the morning
and, where's the light, there's the light *chuckle*
um,
I don't feel like I'm awake, like, I feel like it's not real yet.
Which is odd
All I wanna do is take a huge drink of water, but I can't because, like you're not allowed to drink water
before you get the ffs or whatever
and I'm not worried, I'm just
I don't feel like it's real yet, so
Hello, look at this, look at that.
Wow, well you can't really see it. Um, I only, I don't wanna move around too much
I think I am allowed to but I don't want to. Um, It is like seven o' clock which means
I should be in surgery in about half an hour, I mean if things are a little bit late, that's ok too,
but, um, you know, stuff's happening. I feel pretty good, I'm not anxious, I'm not nervous, I'm not worried
I'm definitely not worried, I just have like butterflies feeling which I think is like an anxiousness but I don't know, It's fine.
I'm definitely anxious to drink water
Um, because you have to fast before surgery of course and, so, I am fucking parshed
But I'll be fine
I'll get it soon, I'll get it soon.
I've never been so unconcerned with how I look in my life, but it's like, this whole procedure is me being very concerened
So, I don't know, I'll see you soon.
-You don't wanna hold it do you?- I can hold it, I'm not weak.
Hello, *faint laugh* um, I cant really express right now, or use any, like, lips sounds
but, I am in very minimal pain, there's not very much pain
and all of the pain I'm experiencing is under my jaw and my throat, and um, and only one eye is swollen.
And I'll show you that so just be warned it looks really gross but..
It's right there. Wow, that's so hot, ok and
um, what I really like is that I can already see a difference in my brow bone right away
It might swell up eventually but from the side you can tell like it's flat and it's smooth and...
The Doctor was really nice and he, he came and got my mom
and he said he was really pleased with how it turned out and he made her feel comfortable and
um, I think everything is gonna be really fine because I can't imagine how I'll get in more pain later
like, I know I'm gonna swell more, but will I get into more pain, I don't know.
So, I guess I'll see but as of right now I feel very optimistic about everything
Um, I can already eat and drink like applesauce and water
um, yeah
I'm very happy, thank you.
Hey, so, um, one of the nurses, Jackie, created this really ingenious like situation to hold the gauze flat on my eye.
because this eye's swelling a lot and this one not swelling at all. So, I just wanted to cover one of them and keep it there, so that was really nice.
All the staff has been so so so so so sweet. Um, they just brought my mom a cot cus my mom is staying with me tonight.
I cant really move my head so, I'm just gonna, -It's okay- yeah, you see they brought a cot for my mom to sleep on
Um, Dr. Speigel was so nice everybody's been so kind and I'm at a point now, I think, where I'm fully aware
I'm like, I think, I don't know how long it takes for general anesthetic to wear off but I feel very
grounded, like I don't feel like there's anything in my system nor in my mind, you know what I mean?
Um, I've been eating a lot of applesauce
Um, I don't know how common it is to be able to eat right away but like it took me like two hours to be able to eat and drink so,
that was good
Um, I'm not, It's kind of like, I'm gonna show you, It's really, it's really awkward but like
And like you just have to be very slow about it so,
Um, If you're gonna be doing a surgery like this just be aware that, you know,
You might not be able to drink right away but that's ok
Um, I don't know how I'm able to do it so fast cus like most of the girls I've talked to took at least a day 'til they could really eat and stuff.
So, I guess I've just got some crazy viking warrior shoving me or something.
Um, I just, I'm feeling very grateful
Ugh, -It's okay-, I'm just so happy
I'm just so happy
-You're doing good-
I can't really express because like, I don't wanna move any stitches but I'm just so happy
So thank you all so much for making this possible. -Do I shut it off?- No, I got it momma. -Sorry- No, don't worry, that's okay.
Um, I just, I'm so grateful, so
I'll see you in the morning.
This morning it is the dawn of the second day. The moon is almost crushing into the planet and Link hasn't done shit to help me yet
But that's ok
Um, my swelling has definitely increased over night a lot
I'm not in a lot more pain, I'm only in a little bit of more pain because my throat is swelling
Um, and of course they did a lot of work around my jaw and my throat so that's gonna swell
quite a bit
Um, I feel physically quite weak. I've gotten up a few times and walked around a bit.
and that's help me kind of, reground myself
Um, what else can I say?
I wanna show you guys my eye, can, mom can you just help me get this gause on after?
Momma? -Of course honey.- k
So, I'm just gonna pull this up.
So, this is my swollen eye and I'm actually really lucky because a lot of people have this on both eyes. I don't know why this one is so good.
Actually I can do this myself -Very good- Wow look at that -Good, look at that-
Um, I feel like I'm gonna be fine. I don't feel sad or depressed or anything. I know sometimes
when people are very sick or they are like wounded or recovering or healing they can feel very sad and drained
but I just feel content, I think cus this is something I really wanted and I knew
that it was gonna be really bad but this is actually a lot less than I expected
You know to deal with during recovery so, um, you know, I'm really glad that I can talk
Um, I'm not pushing myself too hard
I'm just relaxing talking to my friends
Texting, and like, you know hanging out with my family and it's a, it's nice. As nice as it can be, you know?
Anything else I should talk about momma?
-Just, um, I don't think so honey, I think you covered everything.-
Do you wanna tell everybody what Dr. Speigel said to you?
-No-
Please?
- I Dont have my make up on-
Its okay, you look good
-Alright-
Um, no, the Doctor was very kind and told me afterwards that he thought everything went well
-and that he's pleased with the results himself. So, he knows that Stef will be pleased-
-Um, an he said like it's the next couple days are difficult-
-But um, Stef is a very strong person so we both agreed on that *chuckle*-
Yeah, -Yeah, and thanks you guys for keeping me kinda focused yesterday while Stef was in surgery because-
-that was a difficult time for me and you guys made it so much easier, thank you -
Um, my momma has a twitter now,
Um, cus she was gonna post thing if I wasn't able to in recovery but -I posted a couple- Yeah, she posted while I was in surgery and right afterward, but, um
But if you wanna follow her, her handle's @BreadNona, ha, I can't talk. Link is in the description box though.
And, um, yeah, I'll keep you posted. Thank you guys.
Hi, -Is that a phone call?- No, text.
Hello, um, it is about noon on day two. I've swollen up a lot more
I don't know if you guys can tell. I look like hell, uh, but I still feel pretty good, I just
The pain itself isn't bad but I've been getting a lot of pressure, like I'm in pain cus this is really tight right now because we haven't change it yet
Um, the doctor's supposed to come really soon and like take it off and show me how to clean everything
and then put it back on. So, um, it will be switched soon and then I won't be in as much pain, I think
Yeah, it's a good time. My family is here,
There's my momma, and my brother and Ron, my lovely family, and uh, yeah, I'll see you guys In a second.
What's up? Um, they let me out of the hospital
Um, I was only there for one night which is pretty good
And, now I'm going back to the hotel and gonna heal the rest of the way there so, good times
-Do you guys like the Greek yogurt!?- -She does sometimes-
*indistinguishable* -I grabbed it because I was like I know she likes fancy yogurt that's -?--
-I don't like, I don't like the texture of it!- -I don't like it either-
It's really hard to talk
-Which is full pack-?-- -Oh okay- -It's uh... it's fancy yogurt but it's not healthy-
_I like just... Americans make crazy yogurt, like... I have_
Hi, guys, *light cute chuckle,* so I look totally dreadful. I just wanna show you guys, look at my brow bone
And look at my, like I'm really swollen
And I'm not supposed to leave this off for very long so I just wanted to show you really quickly. Yeah, this is honestly really good progress
So, I know I look really bad but this is honestly really really good for the end of day two
Um, and I'll be back very soon with the next few days, okay?
Thank you and don't worry about me, I'm gonna be just fine, okay? I love you, bye *attempt at kisses* :)
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