It's not my fault that I'm talented,
that I'm beautiful, that I'm well spoken,
and that I really feel comfortable with myself.
It's not my fault that I'm that girl.
I'm sorry that you feel some type of way, baby.
But me, I'm a evolved person.
So talk that shit because you're not affecting me.
I'm not gonna allow you to affect me,
I'm not gonna allow you to disturb my peace.
I'm okay with myself. I sleep good at night.
Me and Powers got together again after "I Like Him",
and we went into the studio,
and immediately he cooked up this beat,
and me and my writing partner, Robot, started freestyling.
It's a big part of my routine with music writing.
I either have a lot of my songs written in a book
that I've printed, that I bring with me to sessions.
There's a lotta ideas in my phone,
or we just freestyle back and forth,
and that's what we did, we just put the voice recorder on,
and we freestyled.
The beat was knockin', so we just knocked her out the park.
I practice gratitude and awareness of the blessings,
and the abundance that has come into my life.
And you know, in the middle of a pandemic,
I also felt really blessed to have the most fruitful year,
and the most mainstream year
be very hard for the whole world, and for myself.
In Yoruba culture,
we use the metaphor,
"To open your hands and allow honey to collect sweetness."
The way one attracts goodness
is by being kind, and being sweet, and opening their hands.
When you are bitter, and you are salty, you cannot attract.
But, if you have honey, you can attract.
Anything on honey sticks,
and it's a metaphor and a allegory for how I do business,
and how I've attracted my abundance in my life, personally.
I have to shine regardless,
and I have to be happy regardless.
I wake up with my inner child awoken.
I wanna feel the sun, I wanna go live my day,
I wanna go be productive.
I feel like light, I feel like I'm shinin'.
Well, I'm in the top 1.2 creators,
so I'm very popular on there.
There's a couple of boyfriends
subscribed to the girl next door.
I am very confident, and I feel a very firm stance
in what I do with OnlyFans
because there's a deeper meaning to it.
There's a real big deeper meaning to it,
and it's spiritual, and it's liberating, and it's ethical.
It's a safe way for me to not be triggered,
and to not be touched.
And I provide a service, and it's fab.
Kirby's about munching the coin,
and I love to munch the coin, baby.
I've always been a go-getter.
Finding work has just been the biggest part of my life,
and I've been really good at it, actually.
Even when I was a waitress, even when I was a weed dealer,
even when I was, you know, X, Y, and Z,
and now it's a musician, I apply it the same.
"Thick thighs, and my money husky,"
So, my butt never been big,
but my thighs have always been massive, baby.
Sometimes that makes you feel bad about yourself,
it really will.
It will make you feel depressed,
it will make you feel like something's wrong with you,
but you realize there ain't nothin' wrong with you.
You have healthy relationships,
you have healthy perspectives, you take accountability,
you love people unconditionally,
you share you life with them,
and that's the best you can do.
And after that depression,
after that existential internalizing,
you go, "Fuck this, I'm amazing.
I'm awesome, I'm wonderful, I'm a good friend,
I'm a good person, I'm generous, I'm kind."
And you go, "I don't give a shit anymore.
It's not my fault that I'm that girl."
Talk your shit 'cause I'ma still be rich,
I'ma still be gettin' this bag.
I'm gonna still be following my dreams.
I come from the jungles of New York City.
I come from the projects of the Lower East Side, baby.
What I do is a testament for a lot of people,
and it's kind of a once in a lifetime life chance,
so the fact that I'ma just stay focused on me,
and what I'm doin',
is what that chorus is all about.
I have very famously been wearing my N.E.R.D hat
for like the last year.
It's a big part of my fashion staple.
So it was just a ode to my inner child,
and what I wear now, what I feel like now.
It's my energy, I'm a rockstar like N.E.R.D, you know?
Baggy pants, little N.E.R.D hat,
and I'm still at the skate park
blowin' it down with the kids.
And I got a crazy bank, you know?
But it's like, that's what makes me happy, that's who I am.
That's what makes me feel good about myself.
Two deals, Sony, Arista,
publishing and record deal.
Incredible deals that me and my lawyer went over
for many months to make sure that it benefited me
in the most ethical and lucrative of ways
without, you know, hindering any legalities,
or my creative control,
or my ownership of my intellectual property.
These aren't real,
but, uh, they were at the time, so.
I've been very transparent that I got a minor breast job.
I had a little body dysmorphia, so I got my titties done.
But they're small, you know?
Like, you don't even see any cleavage, like, you know?
It's like, not even like I got 'em done.
I just got a little bit
so I can fill out this dress just a little bit more.
Give me a little confidence.
I think a woman and a person's choice
to do with their body is their choice.
And I've always stood by that,
and never was against plastic surgery in any type of way.
I don't believe in that.
I think that's actually very disrespectful
to people and their choices.
Gwen Stefani's probably one of the biggest influences
in my life.
She's a fashion icon, music icon, rock icon, you know?
I was thinking about "Hollaback Girl,"
and how much I love Pharell and Gwen,
and how much I feel like both of them, you know?
They're just big influences in my life.
Honestly, Jennifer Lopez
is one of the biggest influences in my life
from my childhood to now.
I am very different from her,
which I think is really cool as well.
But, no matter how different I am,
no matter how radical or kinda weird I am,
I do have that New York City,
Puerto Rican, Boricua effervescence.
In a funny way, I have the torch, you know?
Like, I am the J. Lo, the weird J. Lo of my generation.
So, I got that glow and glamore, you know?
'Cause I'm a model, and a dancer,
and I am, too, a beautiful representation
for Boricua visibility in my generation.
There I go making another great album.
There I go impacting myself, or the generation.
There I go impacting culture, you know, like woo.
There I go doing another good business deal.
I'm consistent with my goodness.
I'm consistent with my work.
You my friend.
And we had sex, but you're my friend.
And like, woo, like...
See you again. I don't wanna be attached.
Like...
And I just kinda giggle with the cavalierness
and the power that I have over that.
I'm not everyone's cup of tea,
and that's because sometimes I'm a shot of whiskey.
Instead of fighting fire with fire,
or putting myself in a low vibration to match them,
I'm not mad at anybody that mad at me
'cause I'm a vegan, I don't beef.