Hey guys, this is um
this is a kind of weird little video, I just kind of wanted to talk to you guys in. First off
thank you guys so much for the
600,000 subscribers, it's so crazy. It really is. It means the world to me. You guys are awesome,
you guys are amazing, you guys are wonderful and incredible.
Thank you guys so much for the 600,000. I kind of wanted to make a video
where you guys kind of get to know me more. Don't worry,
I'm working on an animal video right now as we speak. It'll be up the day after this one posts
so you only have to deal with a "me" video for one day.
But I felt like it was suiting because I went a week without uploading and people were really curious again
why I wasn't uploading and where I was and things like that
and it kind of just made me realize a lot of you don't know much about me
you just know about my animals. So I wanted to make this video where you kind of got to know me. It is way
too hot here to be wearing a jacket. This is going to be basically a summary of my life.
I promise it's all relevant to why I'm here and why I made this Youtube channel.
I kept trying to think of a fun video to
Post after not being here for a week and no matter what cool or cute idea I came up with I wanted this video to go
up first
basically
There's a lot about me that some of you guys
probably don't know we'll just start from the beginning and when I was three my appendix erupted I know it happens to a lot of
People, but when I was I was very young for it to happen, so when I was three my appendix Burst no clue
Why the doctor said if I was even 15 minutes later to my surgery it would have erupted inside of me
And it could have killed me that was just the first weird little medical problem
I've ever had in my life, and if only that was the last and everything would have been great
But my life is a constant struggle with medical problems. I don't like to advertise it that way and for a while now
Iv'e kind of been trying to pretend like it's not I've been trying to pretend like I'm not
"Sick" because I don't know I've, I've been feeling kind of lonely I've been feeling kind of
um
We'll just get to that later. Iv'e just been, I was trying to make friends, and I've been trying to be more outgoing and just
just.. put all my...
Is not I haven't been taking care of myself basically I've been focused too much on things
I probably shouldn't have prioritized after age three. You know if only things would have
*scream*
At age three if only that was the last of my problems that would have been great, but no it wasn't let's
fastforward to 5th grade because that's when things really got bad. I had a lot of medical problems throughout Elementary school
I was in and out of school
But never was it bad enough to where I had to pull out of school or take any further action
I just missed a lot of school. I was absent a lot when fifth grade came. I got extremely sick
I couldn't go down the hallways in school because the fluorescent lights would bother my eyes would bug out my eyes
I'd get terrible migraines and the migraines are where everything kind of started I went to several
Neurologists tried a million different medicines none of them really worked then in addition to headaches
I started getting extremely bad stomachaches and
Was extremely dizzy all the time they got to the point where I had to be enrolled in a program called homebound
Which is basically I was too sick to go to school
But I was still technically enrolled in public school where the teacher would come to my house
Bring me my work for the week teach me anything
I needed to know please come back a week later pick it up
Drop off new work and repeat and then the middle school came, and it was hell
I survived about the first two weeks of 6th grade same problems
Just got too much for me
And I couldn't go to school again it got pulled out and got put on homebound and all that stuff
7th grade came and I decided I really wanted to try to make it so I was enrolled in a different kind of homebound program
Where basically I could go if I felt well, but if I missed more than three days in one week
Then I'd be put on homebound until the next week
And then repeat seventh grade is when I started to get really really hard on top of having all my physical problems people started to
Um
Doubt them on the days. I did feel good enough to go to school
I didn't just look like I was suffering I looked physically fine, so teachers were my biggest bullies they were
Jerks, I remember I have several fun stories
But just one that I was going to share right now was when in Seventh grade my home economics class
I had missed the first two weeks of a lesson and then I showed up on the third week of a lesson and
I raised my hand and I had a question about it because I didn't know what was going on
I didn't know what the teacher was talking about because I hadn't been there for any of it
I asked a question and the teachers like well
If you would just suck it up like all these other kids like she started turning red in the face
Screaming at me because I didn't understand what she was talking about and she's like you see all these other kids. They
Get fevers they get stomachaches, and they make the effort to come to school
It's not my fault that your parents baby you and let you stay home
And she was turning red in the face and all the kids were looking at me like laughing and like
And that's when I decided I hated school
Um
That I didn't even want to be there even if I was good, you know I felt good enough
I didn't even want to be there, but um I was lonely because I was in Seventh grade
And I wanted friends, so I still maybe effort to try to go to school
but
Ultimately failed again and got put on the you know permanent homebound where I was just at home for the whole year this happened intial
Senior year in high school, and that's when I decided to just do online school
I wasn't even going to try the public school system again. I was just going to go
Do it online
Like I said I have plenty of fun stories about you know stuff that happened to me in high school and Middle school
what happened in A
Sorry one of my fish decided trend jumped out of the water anyway
I have plenty of fun stories about what happened through Middle school in High school
But that's not the point of this discussion right now. We're not talking about that. That'll be another video
maybe on my blog channel or something throughout my middle school in high school years I was
diagnosed with Celiac Disease and
Um
That was it basically Celiac is an autoimmune disorder where my body attacks itself any time I eat gluten
It's so sensitive that if I be like go to chipotle they have to change their gloves
And they can't touch anything with flour on it
You can't touch flour and then touch my food or it's going to get me sick, so I'm extremely sensitive
But even going gluten-free didn't cure all my problems. I still had a lot of joint pain muscle
Pain body aches extreme just pain a discomfort all around so although celiac was diagnosed. I still didn't know
What was ultimately wrong with me? I have seen every
ologist that exists
I sent my life up until I was about 18 in and out of hospitals
Every week eventually my doctors here locally gave up on me and sent me to the mayo clinic in Minnesota
to get further treatment because basically they
Gave up on me if any of you seen the TV show house like where they send patients where they don't know what's wrong with
Them basically that's what happened to me. They sent me to the real house. Which was the mayo clinic
I stayed there for about a week and ultimately
they confirmed my diagnosis of celiac and they confirmed my suspicions of having ehlers-Danlos syndrome and on the spectrum of
Complex three no pain syndrome basically I have a cluster of things wrong with me
Ehlers-Danlos syndrome is a connective tissue disorder which basically means I can dislocate my body very easily I can hurt my body I can
Get myself hurt very easily
Basically one time I woke up and thought I had it cold so I went to the doctor and they found out I had shattered
My Clavicle in my sleep and that it had already started healing
And I didn't even know because basically my body hurts all the time something used to it. So I didn't realize I had hurt myself
But I did my bruise very easily
I just have a lot of problems
I can't do any high-impact activity like I can't go running and stuff like that a lot of exercises that can't do
complex regional pain syndrome
Basically just means a certain part of your body is hyper sensitive the pain receptors are all screwed up
and everything hurts like hell, so
That's fun, but like I said, I'm just on the spectrum for that
I don't have it full-blown, so I don't have like a part of my body that's always a 'king and flared up
It's kind of comes and goes and it's not that extreme
I'm just more sensitive to pain, but at the same time I feel pain a lot so I don't really care
I'm hypersensitive to pain, but at the same time
I'm like you can do anything to me because I'm so used to
Things hurting that it's not any extra pain which sounds really dark, but I'm not meaning it in that way
I'm just saying like like when I got my tattoo everyone's like oh my God tattoos hurt
I wasn't even the slightest bit uncomfortable, so I don't know you know that's relative but
Anyway, that's basically my three problems is ehlers-Danlos celiac disease and complex regional pain syndrome
I have ehlers-Danlos type 3 for anyone that's familiar with the disease. So you know what I have
No one really believes me in Middle school in high school that I was sick all my friends just thought you know my parents let
Me stay home if I have a little booboo or something
I scratched myself, and there's a cold stay in bed honey some teachers tested me
I didn't really make any friends everyone thought I was just always ditching school
And no one really wanted to talk to me because I was the weird kid, and that's how I ended up on the internet I
Made a Facebook account because I was lonely I met people locally on Facebook everyone locally decided. They didn't like me too much, so I
Deactivated my Facebook and made a Twitter. I was like four years ago
I've had not Youtube for a little over a year, but I never really started using it until about nine ten months ago, but
Anyway, that's kind of how I ended up on the internet. This is where I make all my friends
this is why the internet is so important to me is because
I didn't get to experience all the things that normal teenagers get to experience like I never went to dances
I never went to parties my first party I ever went to was in California like two months ago
So I didn't don't do a lot of I never really got to have much of a social life
Always have loved animals since day one when I was a baby like when I was like 2 years old
And I couldn't really understand accents that well my mother and I would watch
Crocodile Hunter and she would translate what he was saying because I couldn't understand the australian accent
So I've always adored animals like nothing else, and I've also always loved entertainment. I loved entertaining people
I loved bringing in Joy to other people's day
So to be able to find this niche for me where I could show my love of animals and entertain people
it's like no other I'm so glad that you guys have accepted me into the community and
Embraced my channel and been so kind and loving and wonderful with all of this of course has come some anxiety and depression issues
Since I was about 13, I've had pretty bad depression and anxiety but I think I handle it really well so basically
That's why I sometimes don't post consistently like I'll go from posting every other day to not posting for a week and a half
I just have bad weeks sometimes rather it be mentally or physically. I just have a lot going on
I have to be I'm I'm extra delicate but also kind of not because I've been through everything and still going strong
So it's a little bit of both so basically that's a little bit more about my medical life basically
That's a little bit more about the person you're watching I try to not put you know any sappy stories
and this just kind of give you the
straight up facts
but I just want to thank you guys so much for the six hundred thousand subscribers and for supporting me so much and
Being so kind and I have seen some people say that I make really big deals out of like that
I'm sick all the time
And that I always go missing like not post videos and then use some lame excuse of being sick again
And I just kind of wanted to get it clear with you guys that yeah, I'm actually a little sick, but I'm okay
I'm taking care of myself. I appreciate all the love and support and thank you for the
600,000 subscribers, and I hope you like this next video. I have coming up
It's with all of my animals that will be posted the day after this is posted. So that's fun
I guess I got in this weird funk for a while where I felt like talking about
My illnesses on here too much
Would just get me viewed as like the sick girl or something and that people really wouldn't want to be friends with me
I still have that like
Innate fear in me just from what it was like growing up
That people are going to judge me and that people are going to not approve of me and not like me
And I'm always worried about that, so I'm really bad at making friends, but I try my best. That's a whole nother issue
I'm really really really outgoing
I really really love meeting people
But I'm also overwhelmingly anxious about the whole experience and kind of suck at making friends sometimes and keeping up
communication and
That's another story. I don't even know why I'm getting into that anyway
Thank you guys so much for supporting me in my channel
and I hope that kind of gives you an insight as to why I ended up here and not a
normal job having a normal life
Why I ended up
Talking about my 20 animals on YouTube it all comes with nothing but good intentions though
I absolutely adore animal, and that's what I'm here
Hopefully to do is to help you guys learn more about animals
Develop a connection with animals you never really knew you had and just to have a good time
So thank you guys so much for subscribing to my channel
And thank you for all your support and please don't worry about my illnesses
I just did this to inform people not to have like a pity party, so
Yes, thank you guys so much. I love you guys and yeah, bye
Oh, yeah, one more saying you only have until july 31st to buy my back-to-school supplies
Merchandise I'll put the link in the description and like I kind of mentioned in this video
I'm making a vlog channel where I'll be talking about other things that aren't just about my animals and like big videos like that
I'll be making smaller videos on there that aren't like as
Nicely produced and then I'll be doing vlogs and just videos that are more personal rather than about my animals
But I'll also have my animals on that channel, too
It's been a few videos since I have shown cheese, so people are speculating that he died. He's not dead. He's fine
I just turned on my fish lights so I can show you guys cheese the tank is turned off right now
just while I film because it's so
But there she's it won't focus, but I promise you. He's there
Promise you he's there he's just mouldy because the lights are off, so I think you guys so much for watching. I love you. Goodbye