If we're out in public, it's going to be called Tina,
'cause it sounds like you're just talking about a girl.
Doesn't sound like you're talking about one of the worst drugs in American history.
Crystal meth is actually the more pure form of methamphetamine.
Commonly, people think methamphetamine is just a powder.
But really, these days, you have to go searching just to find it in powder form.
Crystal meth is the most common, what you're going to find of the meths.
It looks like glass -- like blades, almost, but it's like glass pieces.
It comes in different flavors sometimes. It comes in different colors --
pinkish, brown color, like an off-white, and sometimes it's crystal clear.
And there is also another thing, it's called peanut butter crank.
It actually looks like peanut butter, smells like peanut butter
and it's basically pure speed, it's a more pure form of crystal meth.
It's made out of... everything underneath the hood of your car or in your kitchen sink.
--Ammonia. --Driveway cleaner.
--Lye, gun bluing. --Battery acid... --Pesticides.
It's basically ingredients that, if you ingested any of them,
would pretty much kill you or send you to the hospital in serious condition.
And I know that the people that manufacture it can get blown up, and they die.
It's just it's strictly just toxic poison.
For every one pound of meth that you make, you get 6 pounds of toxic waste.
It's going to cause irreversible damage.
-- Originally started out snorting it... -- Snort it, smoke it, shoot it, whatever.
-- I'd snort it, shoot it... -- And I would ingest it as well.
I tried it every way that you could do it. And I just kept gradually going up
and trying to get that better high, until I was slamming it multiple times in the day.
I was 13 when I first started doing it.
-- Started about the age of 16. -- First time I did it I was 17.
When I was at my brother's house he was sitting out there smoking it and he offered it to me.
Got into it 'cause I wanted to impress a guy.
It was utter curiosity, maybe boredom.
I started off just having fun and hanging out. It was a social thing.
My parents and my school sent me to a rehab 'cause I got caught smoking weed at school.
So I met some people there, and I started hanging out with them when I got out,
and they introduced me to it.
One day they pulled out a crystal meth pipe and were smoking it,
and I had no idea what it was.
I thought, "Okay, well, this can't be that bad. Everyone else is doing it."
I decided, since I already smoked marijuana, maybe I try this meth thing, so...
Big mistake.
So I tried it that one time, just this instant euphoria --
it probably kicked in within 10 or 30 seconds of smoking it.
At first you feel really good, and I felt like I was on top of the world.
And it lasts for quite a long time, for some people up to 12 hours.
When you come down from it, it's the complete opposite.
Started coming off of it the next morning. That's when I actually called the drug dealer and said,
"Is this supposed to happen?" He's like, "Yeah, but there's an easy remedy -- you just do more."
Once you start and get going, there's no stopping it.
My body would ache, like I had just gotten over the -- or had the worst flu ever.
Throwing up, couldn't hold anything down. And I was yellow on top of it.
Lethargic all the time. Really hard on your body.
I came out of the military, I was weighing, like, 180.
And within 6 months I was down to 135.
I went and saw a friend and she's like, "What have you been doing? You look like a stick."
I had spots in my head about this big, of hair literally gone, like a baby's butt.
And you can tell when somebody's on meth. It definitely takes its toll on you physically.
I started getting more psychotic -- my boyfriend and his friend would be talking.
And I would just, I would swear that they were talking in code.
You know, I would be hallucinating so bad, where I'd see things in my room,
see things that weren't there, like bugs, or see things crawling on me.
Picking at my arm and trying to get these bugs out of my arm.
I spent 6 hours not moving, other than picking at my face in front of the mirror,
by the end of the night had huge gashes all over my face --
I'd have them on my arms, I'd have them on my legs.
I was up for my eighth day with no sleep and no food, watching the walls move.
I'd been up for 37 days on meth, and I was looking out my window in the back yard
and I was absolutely positive the police were there,
and they were in the bushes, they were in the trees,
they were waiting to bust me, they were waiting to bust all my friends.
So, I picked up the phone and I called 911 and I told the dispatcher that if you guys
are going to sit in my backyard and just watch me, why don't you come and arrest me?
All my friends at that point just left. The police came, they surrounded my house.
Eventually they had to get me and tackle me and get me out of the house,
and ended up taking me away.
... and thinking people were chasing after me. I actually went to a family member's house,
and they ended up calling the cops on me, because they didn't know what was wrong with me.
Woke up in a padded room. --And I spent a week in a mental hospital.
And you just go crazy on it, because you're tweaking -- you're not thinking straight.
It kind of gets your wheels turning real fast.
You're just moving a hundred miles per hour, in your head, your thoughts --
everything is just going poom-poom-poom, really fast.
You'll start projects without being able to finish them. Or you can't concentrate on any one thing.
Just constant motion, and you're doing absolutely nothing.
I had to calm myself down -- panic attacks and stuff.
I would just start getting real irritable, cranky, tired.
You get depressed.
Feel worthless. I remember just wanting to lay in bed and sleep my life away.
That was the only way I could function, is if I did just do a shot.
Just needed that and wanted it and was going to do anything to get it at that point.
Wouldn't have any problem going to your house,
kicking your door in and robbing you for everything you had, just to get it.
It makes you not care that you're wasting your life away.
It makes you not care that your sister cries at night because her brother
is out committing crimes and manufacturing methamphetamines.
... had completely kidnapped me, mind and soul.
And the more I did, the more it built up inside of my body.
I noticed in myself short-term and long-term memory loss, nerve damage,
my muscles sometimes twitch -- just things that seem to be irrepairable.
My gums have permanent damage, I have permanent bone loss underneath my gum line.
I have an eroded esophagus now. 6 years ago it was near cancerous --
I still have problems today with it and
I have really bad heartburn. I can't -- I mean, if I drink water, it can burn my throat.
I got cut from here all the way down to below my bikini line,
and they removed all my large intestines. They left me with one inch.
I have tendonitis now.
Like I have tetanus C from injecting drug use.
Doing all that battery acid and muriatic acid and all that --
it eats away not only at your teeth, but every bone, your eyes. It kills you.
You are the company you keep.
So if you're hanging out with people that do drugs, you're going to do drugs.
I don't care who you are -- you're just, you're not going to be able to function better on drugs.
Of course I was always warned as a young kid: stay away from this, stay away from that.
Whereas, knowing what I know now -- yeah, I would have definitely avoided it.
You know, nobody ever told me when I started it that,
"Hey, this is an extremely deadly poison."
If anybody had actually told me what it would really do to me,
I would have walked right away from them and told them they're crazy.
Yeah, there's nothing cool about it. There's nothing fun about it.
It's deceiving at first, but it'll just take you to a place of going nowhere.
Becoming addicted for just one try
or just one time -- it's not worth it, because that one time can kill you.
A couple nights of fun can lead to a whole lifetime of destruction.
Look at the pictures -- they don't lie. You know, the mug shots -- they don't lie.
The people that are going to jail -- it's not lying. I mean, it can be you.
It's probably, in my opinion, the one drug that will make sure it happens.