You've been in my head
lately all the time.
It's been just a month since we hit the great goodbye.
So I needed space
I'm trying to rewind
picking up your pieces of the things you left behind.
It's so cold.
Remember the time when we gazed out
wandered at Golden Gate
We saw this was meant to be.
♫ at the end of time
You can see my breath
I'm stuck holding myself back from having a.
holding myself back from happiness
So, I'll run.
Run from you and all of it
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If you guys have followed me for a while, you would know that I love nature.
Just greenery and trees and the fresh air.
I absolutely love it.
I feel like nature is the most grounding thing, which is why I think
today's sponsor is one of my favorites ever. Christmas is around the corner.
And in my opinion, the greatest gift is green as in sustainable or eco-friendly
environmentally friendly, but Treedom literally goes beyond that.
Like their entire gift is green because you can plant trees.
You can get someone a tree. You'll buy it virtually, but somewhere in the world
they're going to you a tree for that person.
And what's so special about it is you can watch your tree grow.
You get sent little updates, you get sent photos of the people planting the tree.
I got a photo of my little seedling.
There are no shipping costs.
There's no wrapping paper.
It's a really good last minute gift because you just buy it digitally and then
you can send it by email or text message. Whatever's easiest.
I have spent the last month or so gifting, my closest friends and family's trees.
For example, my housemate Lara loves coffee.
So I planted a coffee tree on behalf of her. My other housemate,
Gabriel desperately wants to be a father.
Like he's just the most fatherly wonderful person. As he can't
just easily become a father right now, that tree is a good first step.
I'm very happy.
At least for the last month
I'm going to be a father. Gabriel,
I got folk a tree. He loved it.
So yeah, either get yourself a gift.
Get your mom a gift, get your friend to gift by a tree,
but buy it through my forest.
And then all of us can
add this virtual incredible forest that exists somewhere in the world.
My goal is for the UnJaded community to have planted a hundred trees on here.
And we love a discount.
You can get a discount with the code UnJaded Jade.
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A step at a time.
okay, let me ask you, what has been your favorite year of your life thus far?
And I dare you to say 2020.
It's funny how as humans, we construct the passing of time into segments.
We recognize the day by the sun
waking us up in the morning, by the dark settling in for night, by the
long wait in the week for the arbitrary days of the weekend, by the pinch punch
first day of the months, by the years, each passing faster waiting
for each birthday to Mark us one year older, one year wiser.
We don't remember years or weeks or even days that clearly when I asked you, what
was your favorite year of your life?
I doubt you remember even a day in its entirety.
In fact, I bet even your favorite and worst moments of your whole life
you can't put a date to it.
They're just kind of snapshots in your brain,
you know. You get colours, smells, funny sentences someone said,
the way someone tends to look at you, the way the sand felt under feet,
or the feeling of being embraced,
the feeling that we now take for granted.
It's weird to me how there's no objective way
that any event happened. We remember life as we want it to be remembered.
We can even trick ourselves into remembering events in a different
way or being so certain of details
that we actually just fabricated.
My friend probably remembers that party completely differently to me.
My dad remembers the family outings through the lens of his feelings that day.
A passing comment I made that faded from memory might be ached clearly in
the mind of someone else.
If we as humans are a collection of memories, but our memories are a
subjective fabrication of our own minds,
then are we not weirdly a fabrication of our own minds?
Can we not pick and choose who we want to be or who you want to become on a
daily basis by telling ourselves a new story, by believing new memories or
seeing all memories through a new frame? Every year of your life is I
guess, just another opportunity to collect new memories and to grow
in new ways, to redefine what makes up you, to experiment, to meet new
people, to have your heart broken.
To fall in love, to struggle, to be brave, to fool,
only to find yourself again and to come back to a clear version of
who you are and who you want to be.
2020 was not my favorite year of my life thus far.
I think most of us would say that.
This year, I actually lost parts of myself
in a relationship to the point where I couldn't pick up a camera because I was
so insecure and doubted myself so much.
I swelled into loneliness.
I was plugged into whole mental health following the pandemic paranoia.
And I really had to question who I was when the comforting stimuli of busy-ness
just faded away.
And I haven't even outwardly suffered that much. Apart from family strains and COVID
scares and mental health downward spirals.
I have a job that I love.
I got to live abroad in a city that I've fallen in love with.
I got to strengthen old friendships, make new ones, really good ones.
I'm so grateful for the everyday casual magic and
the occasional stroke of real magic.
What was your favorite year of your life thus far?
I'm going to tell you three moments of this year that made this year special,
independent of all the hardship that the world has gone through, which
I don't want to tract from. UK quarantine, if you guys followed me through UK
quarantine, I really did find myself creatively for a good time. From the
early morning sunrises to the random high pop self-confidence videos.
I needed it. Sure.
I did it for you or for someone out there, but I really did it for me.
I needed to translate these messages that I needed to hear,
and it just meant a lot to me. It really did.
I do this thing when I'm with special people or when I'm in a good
social group, good energy.
And I kind of just stopped for a second.
And I almost viewed everyone there like a fleeting 2D photo, almost
like I'm taking a mental Polaroid.
I only get one take.
And I know that in that moment it will be immortalized in my memory.
I don't talk. I just let everyone else keep talking,
keep doing their day to day thing.
And I just
look. And I try to mentally capture their facial expressions.
I try to make them feel how grateful I am for them.
I try to internalize whatever I'm feeling in that moment because
I know that one day when I'm in a tougher time, I'll look back right here,
right now in this moment and need it.
And special people are capable of that.
Capable of making time stretch and solidify.
Here in Berlin, I had a few of those moments.
I'd be just laughing with my roommates.
It'd be 2:00 AM.
And we'd be talking about those random, deeper topics for no reason.
I just sort of stop and just look at them and be like, wow, you cannot
find people like this everywhere.
How lucky am I?
Four months living with these people.
So lucky.
And lastly, another memory that made this year so great is me and my family
went to the Isle of Wight for a weekend.
Everything that could have gone wrong on that trip went wrong.
My dad booked the wrong dates for the hotels, we got there.
they didn't have a place for us.
So we ended up staying in this Gothic Hotel.
And it was really creepy, just very, not me and my family, but
that was kind of the fun of it.
So many things broke. So many things got lost, but it was just a really fun trip.
And I think the older I get and the more I live away from home,
the more grateful I am for family.
New people always come in your life.
There are a few people who are necessarily permanent.
When I go on FaceTime, it's like I never left.
They're just cringy and embarrassing.
It's always drama and just watching it, like you guys are in this movie that I
remember, and the movie is still going on
exactly the same.
And yet this is a year where I have sat and cried so many bloody times.
And so if you're watching this and you are in one of those dark
moments where motivation is never a feeling, it's just a foreign word.
Where the only thing keeping you warm is the weight of your blanket or the dim glow
of a light bulb in the winter darkness.
If you forgot what it feels like to feel truly loved, to give love, to hold hands
with a friend or your family or a lover,
to feel free dancing to loud music in the floor with crowd, to feel part of something
bigger, to feel like you as you know yourself to be, what would make 2021
the best year of your life so far, even if the world had to stay as it is
right no. What do you want to feel?
What do you want to be part of?
Who do you want to help?
What changes do you want to make?
Manifest it. Manifest the feelings, the people, the experiences,
the love, the light, but manifest it all through the feeling.
What do you want to feel like next year?
Okay. I'm really paranoid that you couldn't hear me anytime during this video
because it's kind of windy and I'm kind of just in a tree right now.
Thank you so much for being here.
I really appreciate you in my corner of the internet.
Have a gorgeous rest of your week.
I'm sending you love.