hey guys welcome to a new video
so i'm looking really pale it's the lighting it's the lighting the melatonin i took last night
worked kicked in around 30 minutes but i didn't go to bed until like an hour and a half after taking
it i don't fall asleep at a normal time lately oh my god i look way too pale this looks dark in here
but whatever um i have been having trouble falling asleep but i needed to be awake super early
today because i have an oncologist appointment i'm wearing britney spears perfume today
i because that queen but yeah melatonin worked i am awake
i slept for like six hours these six hours feel more rested versus my other six hours
that i usually get because that's such a weird time i just want to say congrats to me oh let me
take some of this off because we went to target yesterday we got the salmon we got the shrimp
we got the cat food but i forgot the edamame actually i could just erase the whole thing yes
so oh hi i look blue i feel pretty rested but i feel like i'm gonna get like super tired later so
i might take a nap okay so we're here at the cancer center and i'm sad okay bye
okay you guys have breakfast with me i'm having the um chocolate peanut butter premiere protein
which i've never tried it before i'm just a clementine it's not really breakfast i just call
it what i have when i first wake up i have already taken my nap i've already gotten my results back
i've already done all that so i had a really good nap by the way like melatonin okay i don't
remember my dreams very rare but melatonin gave me some wild dreams like me and my
girlfriend were like in a car that like drove itself i was getting like constantly ate by
rattlesnakes i don't know and i had to like take them off of me and like throw them
so it was like great stuff right now i'm like super allergies around my appointment so i went in
i said i have an appointment for eight o'clock with blah blah blah my name is amber reed reid
birthday 12 27 90. i said your appointment's not in the system i had an appointment with my
oncologist because i've been taking estrodol for two years after having endometrial which
is uterine cancer and i know what it means when i am told repeatedly when i just want to forget
that i have those pre-cancerous cells and i had a hysterectomy and after my hysterectomy
they said you're gonna be taking this for the rest of your life i've been getting refills you guys
it's been 24 months now and no one has said anything until this month they said you should
not be taking this why are you taking this so they're like you need to come in you we need
to have like a checkup and see what's going on like who prescribed this to you like everyone was
so confused i wasn't even in their system i don't even know so we scheduled an appointment for today
the 21st of july and they said that i'm still not in the system that my appointment wasn't scheduled
my oncologist is super popular super amazing so i had to see a nurse practitioner which is totes
fine because this cancer center is um so i saw the nurse practitioner oh by the way my blood pressure
was 111 over 70 so oh healthy queen and she was just like you're healthy like she she had my
charts in her hand she was like you're healthy but you are obese i'm just kidding um let's try this
real quick and then i'll keep going with the story time because this is insane okay so chocolate
peanut butter it better be good i'm gonna get so mad i'm gonna get so mad it's not okay
for a protein shake this is good so the nurse practitioner when i told her why i
was there i i she had fear in her eyes she did she said you should not be taking this medicine
because it has now increased the chances of you getting cancer again you know sometimes
i forget that i have cancer people are saying there's holes in my story that none of it adds
up or makes sense yeah it has now increased the chances of you getting cancer again
and patience with your history should not be taking it should i sue them malpractice i
you put your life in the hands of professionals and i love these professionals people make
mistakes but i'm angry if i if i was to have a health problem because of this i'd be very very
angry obviously it has now put me in harm's way so she's trying to figure out who prescribed me the
medicine which there has been several doctors who have i remember at first it was my oncologist and
then it was someone else it was a male actually it was a male name but i don't even know who it was
was a few times and then there was a new girl on my uh bottle because you're not like when you get
something prescribed like the doctor's name is on it even when i went in there and they were
like looking through my file they had nothing on me it was so strange i i feel like honestly
i'm partially in the twilight zone right now i don't know i just feel so freaking weird the nurse
practitioner was very honest very open and said this is not good she um got my blood taken and we
did like a cancer marker thing and in the middle of my nap she called and i said hello and i'm good
she said it was perfect um they like i don't really know that like the technical terms but
the number's supposed to be below 40 and mine was five and they're scheduling me for a ct
scan because it's time that i get another one of those because i did explain that i get like
pelvic pain sometimes like if i'm like lifting something super heavy or if i do a lot of bending
she explained that scar tissue from hysterectomy just in case um i'm gonna get another ct scan
so i'm done with estrogen you guys i'm officially going through like actual menopause i'm just young
i know people even younger have gone through this oh my god this is the worst thing in the world
you know what i'm not gonna explain myself i'm scared this is a scary situation i'm anxious i'm
worried i'm sad like i'm just having like a hard time showing it because i think i'm in shock that
i've been taking this medicine for two years that could possibly have given me cancer like ma'am
maybe it hasn't hit me yet yeah it was really weird to actually be back in the
cancer center i brought back a lot of memories in the beginning i was there all the time and
i have a little bit of regret i wish i would have filmed my cancer journey a little bit more because
there's a lot of things i went through that i wish i had documented and that's one of the reasons why
i love vlogging because i have all this stuff documented and i like to go back and look at it
and such i think it's time to peel this because like this was empic i don't feel like yesterday
and today um i don't feel as nauseous which is really good it's just i don't have an appetite
really and that's the point hi i love that for me um i really want to tell you guys my weight
but i kind of want to wait a little bit i'm just excited for with my progress i'm excited with
my meal planning i've been cooking every meal um oh two sensitivity i also keep my
mandarins in the fridge so that was cold and hurt my tooth i'm falling apart i'm falling
apart while trying to actively put myself together i love that for me but not this time
not this time amberlynn reed she's getting her [ __ ] together she is you see me rolling gate
all right so we're at post malone's house posties just kidding we're at the post office i have
boxes to send off to my cousin i want to check my p.o box i do have a p.o box it's
down in the description below send me a letter because i love reading letters
i'm all the way down at the end two three nine three seven oh my god i have letters
thank you guys oh my god i'm gonna cry i keep all your guys's letters i do have some like ads that
they have a trash for oh my god a letter letter number one that's trash trash oh letter number
two and then we have this big thing oh my god i should show you guys my collection of letters
i have a lot and i'm never gonna throw them away they see me rolling they hating the song's stuck
in my head like hardcore okay so i'm about to make salmon and i'm just gonna put it in the oven
so i'm gonna spray my baking sheet which i have aluminum foil on with extra virgin olive oil
and then i'm gonna place my salmon down i'm gonna add some garlic powder to it some pepper
add a little bit of salt
and that is literally all i'm doing to it i'm also going to have some rice
i'm gonna have some zucchini i'm just gonna cut them in small pieces
i'm just gonna add some oil to a pan for my zucchini and i'm also gonna have
a little bit of onion as well i'm going to season my zucchini with some pepper
some garlic salt okay now i'm gonna add some onion so i'm also having
corn in the cob this is how i season my corn on the cob okay so i'm gonna take some butter
country crock nothing special and i'm gonna add it to the plate
and i'm going to roll it i know this is weird but i'm a quirky girl what can i say
my girlfriend's also having corn on the cob she's also gonna use this plate
you guys are probably gonna judge so hard for this which is cool and fine
i'm there for it so i add a little bit of salt on top of the butter and i add pepper
on top of the butter all right so we add a corn we add another corn i'm having two
and she's having just one there's only 50 calories for one of these and then i just roll
and they just like have the time in their lives and i noticed by doing this i actually
save on calories because if i was just to straight up add these things to the corn
and the cob i add more salt and i add more butter when i do that and since the corn
is hot it melts the butter and all that a food okay so i'm gonna add my jasmine rice
i mean basmati sorry uh it's just a serving i like to have two but i ain't got the calories
for it like that right now over here i'm gonna add my zucchini and onion now i'm going to add my corn
okay now i'm going to add my salmon now i'm just going to add a little bit of soy sauce
a little bit of sriracha so this is 470 calories
and yes i use a thermometer because let me tell you i'm weird when it comes to meat
okay so i'm just like sitting here realizing like my hair is always up in a messy bun always the
minute it's dry after i wash it i put it up in a bun i've had long hair for a majority of my life
um i did used to have really short hair but like my childhood my hair was like up to my
freaking chin sometimes my mouth like my hair was super short i always wanted long hair so
i finally did it but my question is for any of you long-haired gals pals non-binaries i'm wondering
what do you guys do with your long hair like what are your favorite styles you should definitely
message me on instagram and let me know because it's like what i want to do with my hair i'm sorry
ready set buzz i'm not happy with it
um i kind of want to start wearing my side braid again because i did that for a long time so
ozempic update still going good this second week is definitely helping a lot with my appetite
i can definitely say works um i can't find like a coincidence like there's nothing else
that could possibly be making me lose my appetite it was almost like literally a couple hours after
my second injection um that i noticed the appetite suppressant like i'm fine all day
but the minute after thinking about food i'm just like it's taking me like a long time to eat my
food like a meal takes me about like 30 minutes because i get to like really digest it and like
wait for like the full signal and stuff um i am counting calories and such i don't want
to over you know barge overboard what what i was trying to say is i don't want to bombard you guys
with too much information also we're gonna do a little life update it is a book this is my kindle
guys that book wow i'm on page 174 and what one of the characters his name is jude what he has
been through when he was a child my god my heart rips for him but you know i don't know if you guys
have ever read a child called it it's one of my most favorite books it's actually like a real
book it's a real story um this guy actually lived like the author of it like who went through these
actual things this horrible abuse from his mother oh my god he actually lived around where i grew
up well i kind of felt like a connection hi rodos um i kind of felt like a connection through that
i don't know but i've been reading that book since i was like 10 years old um i don't know
something about it is like empowering the abuse is heartbreaking but knowing like because he has like
a few books it's not just the one a child called it like he grew up to be an author with a family
and to me it's empowering like to know that you could be raised so horribly but know how to like
fix your life and do better for you and yourself i come from a crazy family that's the truth i come
from drug addicts bipolar people um mentally ill people just i do that is the family i come from
did you honestly think that i was gonna be the only normal one did you i'm able to kind of digest
these type of topics pretty easily but i know some people might not be able to so definitely
oh your claw got stuck in my chest is baby girl okay
and i heard a lot of people saying like the book has no plot or whatever i disagree i feel like
following the life of someone or a few people to me is a plot that's a plot to me i don't know
how it's not you know books that have plots that usually have that climax and such but sometimes
i feel like books when you when it's literally just sharing someone's life i feel like there's
several climaxes because several different things happen especially if the book is like sharing
several years or decades um hi baby girl so and i know in this book it's like decades and decades
so i'm just i'm enjoying it look at this one oh my god i'm gonna go give my parrot um some lovins
are you a parrot now do i gotta teach you how to talk oh my goodness okay butt in the face
yeah oh my god anyways i am gonna edit my last vlog
and just chill out um i don't know if i'll see you guys for the rest of the night but
if i do hi you'll see me then but if i don't i hope you guys enjoyed this video