when i switched from d-pod to c-pod i realized that running a store gave you some sort of uh
respect and it also was a way to remain social with people and you know having a little bit
extra money and influence is never a bad thing so i run the most unique store in c
even transactions i don't do owing and there's never any kind of debt at all
every single decision i've made in here has just
worked out for me except for doing some deals with ricky
ricky you know he has his own little black market he's been cheeking all of his medication drugs
hiding it until later and then selling it off to other inmates in return for other items
ricky's someone who needs to be on all of his medication because
when he doesn't he gets progressively worse
it's very confusing to talk to ricky but i've had experience talking to people who are
for lack of a better way to put it out of their mind in the hospital before and you kind of just
nod your head and smile did you want to talk to me well yeah i have some in my eye yeah i
i scratch my eye and ricky just goes completely haywire told me yeah i didn't like getting here
anything i got an eyelash in my eyes and blinking he really thinks that i have a demonic possession
because i touched my eye not like that um you might have just misconstrued things i really have
something anytime i prayed he was very generous somebody that ain't got control of their body
it's something in you that has to do it to let me know who you are and act like i'm friends
with you when you're an enemy yeah that's what i'm saying i ain't nobody to be played with
you can't have
you'll
so i'm kind of in a tough spot at this point because you can't rationalize with a person like
ricky when he's off of his mids and if you try to fight a person like ricky in a program like this
you're gonna catch a real charge i'm never doing anything again i kind of want to just settle down
honestly i want to be a better person my only real option is to kind of play along
with ricky and hope that they call my name soon i'll do what i have to do to be a better person
part of your career
i didn't sleep for the most part throughout the night i was nervous about ricky
who could have just done anything at any given point is just completely
unpredictable
ryan that maggot
when they called my name it was like a sigh of relief
and i just started grabbing my stuff and all the vultures started swarming what do
you have to give me i call this just like all this stuff started happening
even ricky asked me for commissary
at the end of the day i really feel sorry for people like ricky because
he shouldn't be in a place like this it's only making him worse
as i was walking out i really felt for a lot of these guys i'm about to experience
freedom and all i can think of is how some of these guys may they may never get out of here
you