SHOW
SHOW FORCED HIM TO FACE AN UNCOMFORTABLE TRUTH THAT WAS KIND OF RAISED, YOU KNOW, TO BE
ARROGANT.
>> AND BORN 1968, THE REASON
THE 60S WHEN BACK WHEN THEY HAD
BLACK AND WHITE ONLY DRINKING
FOUNTAINS I KNOW THAT I SEE A
GROUP OF WHITE KIDS AND I GROUP
OF BLACK KIDS I'M GONNA BE MORE
ON GUARD WITH THE BLACK KIDS
BECAUSE OF THE WAY THAT I WAS
TRAINED, THE WAY I WAS RAISED.
I'M JUST TRYING TO I GUESS BE
REALLY HONEST AND I KNOW IT'S A
REALLY HARSH THING TO SAY AND I
DON'T WANT TO SAY IT AND I KNOW
THAT PEOPLE ARE GOING TO TAKE
IT WRONG BUT I KNOW THAT THAT
I'M RACIST AND I DON'T WANT TO
BE I DON'T MEAN TO BE.
I'M TRYING NOT TO BE.
I'M TRYING TO.
AND THAT'S KIND OF WHAT WE'RE
DOING HERE IS HOW HOW WHY NOT
ME?
YOU KNOW, WHEN IT'S BEEN
INGRAINED IN ME FOR MY WHOLE
LIFE I'M 60 YEARS OLD.
YOU THINK IF YOU DIDN'T HAVE A
BLACK DAUGHTER THIS WOULD BE
SOMETHING THAT WOULD EVEN BE ON
YOUR MIND AT ALL?
NO.
THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS I
REACHED OUT.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
>> I'M RECORDING SO MY DAUGHTER
IS MIXED.
AND WE NEVER REALLY HAD A
CONVERSATION ABOUT HOW THAT
AFFECTS HER CURTSY CURTSY WHEN
SHE WAS RAISED.
>> I MEAN SHE HAS EVERYONE IN
HER FAMILY LOVES HER BUT ALL
THE PICTURES ONE BLACK KID AND
I NEVER LOOKED IT.
HOW DOES THAT HOW DOES THAT
FEEL KIND.
ME AND HER MOM MET GARY AND
GOTTEN CLOSE AND EVERYTHING
THAT HER BIOLOGICAL FATHER WAS
ANOTHER REALLY IN THE PICTURE.
WE'RE BOTH WHITE.
OUR WHOLE FAMILY IS WHITE.
WE WERE RAISED WHITE.
I MEAN WE NEVER WE NEVER I
GUESS WE NEVER REALLY ADDRESSED
IT KIND OF YOU KNOW I MEAN JUST
TRYING TO DO THE BEST I COULD
INVEST WE'RE DOING.
IT'S ALL ABOUT HER BEING JUST A
LITTLE GIRL, BEING A KID AND
ALL STUFF THAT I FEEL BAD ABOUT
NOW LIKE I'D MAKE HER FOR MY
DANCING OR SOMETHING.
>> SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO GET A
RHYTHM.
I'D SAY I'D SAY STUFF LIKE.
SO THAT MUST BE THE RIGHT SIDE
OF YOU.
THAT'S PRETTY RACIST THING TO
SAY.
WELL I SAY WITH SOME RACIAL
THINGS I'M NOT I DON'T REALLY
MEAN IT, YOU KNOW I MEAN I
REALLY DON'T EVEN THOUGH LATER
I'M LOOKING BACK ON IT OR
SOMEBODY POINTS IT OUT.
OH, THAT WASN'T GOOD.
I'M DOING IT OUT OF IGNORANCE
MORE THAN ANYTHING.
YOU KNOW NOW LOOKING BACK ON IT
OF COURSE I'M DOING IT TO BE
FUNNY AND JOKING AROUND AND
STUFF.
BUT THOSE ARE THE KIND
OF THINGS THAT I'M SAYING THAT
I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO IDENTIFY
BEFORE IT HAPPENS AND GET HER
TO IDENTIFY IT AS WELL SO SHE
CAN CALL IT SO SHE WANTS
SOMEONE THAT SAYS THAT SHE CAN
GO OH WAIT A MINUTE, THAT'S
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
THAT'S RACIST TALK.
AND I WENT TO LIKE MOSTLY WHITE
SCHOOL I WOULD BE CALLED NAMES
A LOT.
>> THEY'D CALL ME LIKE LIKE
BROWN YOU'RE LIKE LIKE RACIST
NAMES OR THEY CALL ME LIKE
MONKEY LIKE A MONKEY DIDN'T
REALLY BOTHER ME BECAUSE I
DIDN'T REALLY KNOW THAT IT WAS
RACIST.
>> I'M CONFUSED WITH MY
IDENTITY IS I JUST DON'T THINK
I COULD BE ABLE TO REALLY GIVE
A COMPLETE LIKE BLACK LIKE
AFRICAN-AMERICAN OUTLOOK ON
STUFF BECAUSE OF HOW I WAS
RAISED.
IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE UNWANTED
AND VERY CONFUSED JUST BECAUSE
I ALSO HAVE EXPERIENCE LIKE NOT
FEELING WELCOMED IN THE WHITE
COMMUNITY.
>> I WAS BEING SHELTERED.
I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW MUCH ABOUT
THE WORLD.
WHAT STARTED AS A SMALL
DEMONSTRATION EARLY THIS
AFTERNOON HAS NOW TAKEN OVER
SEVERAL CITY BLOCKS.
>> THOSE PROTESTS CONTINUE
OUTSIDE THE THIRD PRECINCT WHEN
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT WERE
HAPPENING WITH THE BLACK LIVES
MATTER STARTED COMING UP.
I SEEN HOW IT WAS STARTING TO
AFFECT HER AND THAT MADE ME
REALIZE THAT I'VE GOT A TEACHER
.
YOU'RE KIND OF IN DANGER
BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF YOUR
SKIN.
LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING
ABOUT LIKE COP KILLING BLACK
PEOPLE OR ANY OF THIS STUFF AND
I DIDN'T KNOW REALLY KNOW ANY
OF THE RACISM STUFF WAS GOING
ON STILL UNTIL LIKE RECENTLY
MAKES ME FEEL NOT LESS THAN
THAT LIKE I AM FALLING SHORT.
I NEVER REALIZED I TEACH HER
HOW TO ACT AROUND A COP, YOU
KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
THAT NEVER CROSSED MY MIND
UNTIL I HEARD PEOPLE ON TV
TALKING ABOUT.
OH, I TO DO THAT.
THAT'S WHEN IT STARTED COMING
UP IN CONVERSATION BECAUSE
OF THE THINGS THAT WERE
HAPPENING IN SOCIETY THAT I WAS
TRYING TO HELP WITH.
I WAS TALKING TO HER ABOUT
BECAUSE I SAW THAT IT WAS
UPSETTING HER.
I HAVE TO CHANGE AND THAT'S
GOING TO AFFECT EVERYONE AROUND
ME.
THAT WHITE PRIVILEGE THING IS A
BIG DEAL TO ME, YOU KNOW.
SO IF I DO HAVE WHITE
PRIVILEGE, WHY CAN'T I USE THAT
TO DO SOMETHING TO MAKE A
DIFFERENCE RIGHT OFF THE BAT?
WHITE PEOPLE ARE PROBABLY
GHETTO WHEN WE'RE NOT
IDENTIFIED IT BY OUR RACE.
SO IT'S A LITTLE UNCOMFORTABLE
JUST THAT PIECE AND THEN YOU
SAY THE PRIVILEGE PART WHERE
NO, I WORKED FOR EVERYTHING BUT
THAT'S NOT WHAT THEY'RE TALKING
ABOUT.
THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT THAT THE
STRUGGLES THAT I'M GOING
THROUGH HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH
THE COLOR OF MY SKIN IN THIS
PIECE RIGHT HERE.
WHAT I CAN DO PERSONALLY IS
GIVE MY DAUGHTER A VOICE AND AT
THE SAME TIME I'M GOING TO
HOPEFULLY LEARN WHAT CAN I DO
TO BE MORE CONSCIOUS ABOUT
BEING RACIST?
HE CORRECTING YOU AND IS HE
CALLING YOU LIKE CERTAIN THINGS
YOU'RE LEARNING?
NOT YET.
NOT YET.
SHE WILL.
IS THAT WHAT YOU'RE HOPING FOR?
YES, OF COURSE NOT.
A LOT OF YOU ARE WILLING TO
CHANGE THEIR MINDSET INTO
CHANGE LIKE HOW THEY COMPLETELY
THINK OR ACT.
I WILL ALWAYS CONTINUE TO TELL
HIM WHEN HE'S WRONG.
TELL THEM STRAIGHT UP BUT I'M
NOT AFRAID.
I IMAGINE WE'RE GONNA HAVE A
LOT OF GOOD CONVERSATIONS AFTER
THIS WHICH IS REALLY COOL.
I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO
THAT SO I WANT TO PROTECT HER.
YEAH, I KNOW THE WAY TO PROTECT
HER I THINK IN THIS PIECE IS TO
START THAT WHOLE EDUCATION
PIECE, THAT DIALOG PIECE AND
ALSO TO GET HER TO START
REALIZING THAT SHE DOESN'T HAVE
TO SETTLE FOR