>>> The first time -- [ bleep ].
>> I don't know.
>> Okay, wait.
What just happened last night?
Gave fans everything we want.
Drama, tears, face-off, I love
we got hot tub proposals.
It was all there.
>> This guy, the bachelor
himself, Colton Underwood, okay,
we had becca, we had Dean here.
We all felt you did really well
to defend yourself.
Not that you needed to defend
yourself.
But I think there were some
questions of virginity kept
coming up, which is too much of
that.
Are you tired of getting sort of
the label?
>> Yeah, I just -- especially
with me, I hate labels.
It's not even like the virginity
thing.
It's like the athlete.
Don't call me an athlete.
Don't call me a virgin.
I have so many more qualities of
what makes up me and I think
everybody does, too.
We all have a bunch much small
things that make us the human
being we are.
>> Don't you think the label of
a name tag would be useful?
Night one --
>> You didn't know her name.
What's her name?
>> Oh, mcnut.
>> No, mcnut.
>> Got it.
I always thought that, too.
They're putting the pressure.
Do you remember my name?
Um, no.
My name is Colton and your name
is --
>> We saw in that super tease,
it looked like you proposed to
somebody, and I think it's Elise
from Alaska.
It looks like she said no.
Does this actually happen?
>> I will say going through all
of it, I came into the bachelor
having a much better
understanding of who I was and I
grew a lot.
There was still so much room to
I thought I had it all figured
out and that was the last thing
that I had in there.
So you're going to see ups and
downs and you guys are going to
see a lot of --
>> Sounds like you're not
getting engaged at the end.
>> As far as that goes, I will
say like I know exactly what I
want going into it.
Things happen and we'll see.
>> Watching it back last night,
more importantly the super
tease.
It was just a fun night.
What does that feel like?
Because you shot it awhile ago.
It'so weird.
>> It is.
I think for me looking back at
all of this, it brings up so
many cool different emotions and
memories.
And I'm like, I can tell when
I'm nervous, you know?
I was really nervous.
>> We all can tell when you're
nervous.
Talk to me about the midnight
run in the super tease.
It looked like you were running
for your life, maybe exercising.
Getting some insight.
What was going on?
>> I'll just tell you, obviously
emotions get heightened and at
one point I decided I needed to
leave the show.
So -- I mean, it got to that
point where I needed some time
to myself and get away.
I think that's what you see.
>> Did you ever have a moment
where you were like, I want out,
this is not what I thought --
>> Yeah, the moment I jumped.
I was done.
>> I'll tell you the moment I
wanted you to jump the fence.
When Kathryn came out for the
fourth time last night.
I mean, do they tell you to --
that last rose in the first rose
ceremony to the villain?
>> No, no.
It's all -- everybody like has
this idea of how production and
all that.
But I actually respected the
fact that she let it be known
that she was here for me and
I've been on the other side.
I knew exactly what she was
doing in the house and people
were getting riled up.
But I respected, she's like, I'm
here to get to know you.
I don't feel we had enough time.
>> I love her and her dog.
>> Lucy?
Chris adopted it.
>> When you jumped the fence and
you're running, what got to be
too much?
Because you've handled a lot of
pressure your whole life.
We think of this show fun,
campy, this was real emotion,
what happened?
>> More self-discovery.
That is a of the beautiful
thing.
You see all of what America
would call break downs.
I consider them breakthroughs.
You find yourself, you find the
growth, you find what you can
improve on in life.
And at the time it seemed like
such a big ordeal and you just
need an escape.
I'm the type of person when it
gets to that, I need space.
>> Sorry, sorry, go ahead.
>> Chris said to you, I think it
was the beginning of the show,
are you prepared to meet who
could potentially be the woman
you asked to marry you in a
matter of moments?
Are you prepared to meet that
person tonight?
What was that experience like
for you?
>> I think when he said that I
sort of got the goosebumps.
Oh, man, it became real.
You walk in the house.
I said it.
I'm hopeful my wife is standing
in this room.
Right after I was like, man,
even saying that, here we go.
But that's what is so amazing
about the bachelor and the show.
>> You told T press that the
bachelor isn't for marriage.
That's kind of the formula.
They want that proposal at the
end.
>> Yeah.
I think there's a lot of, a lot
of things that have always been
done in the past when it comes
to the bachelor and like I said
before, I don't like labels and
I don't like doing things just
because everybody else does
them.
>> Another first.
>> I'm a trail blazer, I like to
set my own ways, I like to be
unique and stand out and that's
what I feel like I did.
>> It's going to be a great
season.
People are authentic, it's
great.
Much more with Colton.
I want to get into your
childhood you brought up last
night, bullied when you were a
little guy, came through.
A side we haven't seen.
After these messages from your
local station.
>>> Oh, look at you.
Welcome back to "Access" live.
We've been speaking with the man
of the hour, Colton Underwood,
fresh off last night.
Here he is, first thing on
"Access."
You say you were a chubby kid,
but you look adorable.
>> Yeah.
>> And, I mean --
>> But kids can be vicious.
>> There it is.
>> You had a hard time, right?
>> Yeah.
I think grade school I struggled
the most.
Just trying to fit in.
I don't know how I would have
done in this society today with
social media and everybody is
trying to compare themselves to
one another and really like
seeing the highlight reels that
people put on -- I'm guilty of
that, too.
You only want to share your
great moments.
But then it leaves everybody
comparing themselves and not
feeling like they're enough.
>> Yeah.
What did they say to you?
What was the bullying?
>> I was a little overweight.
I had a bad habit of licking my
lips.
I had a ring on my lips.
I had glasses, you know, it just
was -- it was a rough go.
>> Cool Jay made a career of
licking his lips.
Shouldn't be a problem.
>> There was a red ring --
>> You went in on the lips.
>> They were chapd every
morning.
>> Where did you find your
confidence?
Sports, foot ball?
>> Foot ball was my channel.
It was a way to let any anger
and aggression out.
It was nice to come into my own
and have that as my passion and
allow for me to sort of have
this venting session, yeah.
>> It made me think about the
things you go through and that
motivation that you then pull on
to really pursue, in this case,
foot ball.
But other avenues in life, you
kind of have that same approach
you want to create a good TV
show, a good experience, right?
>> I think it comes from being
an athlete, too, that sense of
anything that I do in my life, I
want to give 100% effort into
and I want to make it --
anything I touch, I want to make
it the best.
You can call it egotistical,
whatever.
I'm very prideful in anything I
do.
>> Drive.
>> I want to try to make it
great.
And I would confuse that with
being perfect in the past.
But nothing is perfect.
Nothing is going to be like all
rain bows and butterflies all
the time, but I still have that
sense of pride.
>> That influences perhaps your
decision to remain a virgin as
we heard last night.
>> Enough with the virgin.
>> It explains a lot about the
choice.
It's a choice.
>> Yeah, I think people have a
better understanding of maybe
the choices that I've decided to
make in my life.
But I don't have anything to
prove to anybody.
I don't have anything to defend.
Hopefully they understand.
If they don't understand, I
don't know what to say.
It's not my job to make people
understand or to have people
like really feel like they need
to have it all figured out.
>> It was right to ask.
The show -- good lord, every
other one --
>> The label as you said.
>> You know, my hope is
throughout all of this you're
going to get a better
understanding of not only who I
am, but all of these incredible
women, who they are.
Yes, it's going to be
so hang in there.
Bear with it, you know.
>> Fireworks.
>> Steve carell knows who you
are.
>> Have you heard from any of
your X's, honestly, at this
point?
>> Tia and becca?
They called me before I left for
filming.
That speaks volumes of who they
are as human beings.
>> Check in on the situation.
>> They want to be happy in a
I can tell by having a phone
call with her she is in such a
I'm happy about that.
>> Well, we hope you're in a
good place.
We can't wait to see if you fall
in love.
We know you fall in love, but
how it falls out.
We'll see.
The bachelor is back Mondays at
8:00 on ABC.
>> Bring it home.
>> Susan Boyle's emotional