Arghhhh!!!
Yes, I was rejected and it sucks
Yeah still sucks
Before I begin this video I want to ask you guys a question: Are you generally, in
dating, the heartbreaker or the heartbroken? When I was younger I used to
always be the heartbroken and now I feel like I'm a pretty good mix of the two, but
when I'm the heartbreaker
I'm not that big of a heartbreaker, because if I'm not interested in you I'm
pretty good about telling you and being upfront about how I feel. Part of the reason why I want to
tell you guys this story is because it's actually a continuation of a story that
I tried telling you guys a couple of weeks ago in my video called I Have A Sex Problem.
that you can check out right here in case you missed it or you can
check it out in the description section below, but in that video I told you guys
a story about this guy that went on a date with that I actually really liked
we were talking on facetime for a couple of weeks before we met and we met one
night and I had to confess to you guys that I actually ended up hooking up with him
on the first night we met
Shame
I went over to his house after I got off work
at midnight so I kind of knew what I was getting myself into, but I said to myself
"Travis you are not going to sleep with him!" and yes of course I slept with him
and you know that was really great, but I'm not really a person that's all about
the sex. Like I'm a very sexual person. I enjoy sex, but it doesn't drive me. That's
not the first thing I want because today it's so easy to just pick up an app and
go get sex casually wherever you want that I generally want something a little bit more.
With this guy, you know, I went over to his house and we were talking for a
while and I wasn't ready to like him as much as I did, but we had so much in
common and it was so nice and so we ended up hooking up because I was also
very very attracted to him.
After we're done doing the deed, we need to take a
shower and so I was gonna shower first but then he suggests showering together.
I normally don't like taking showers with people, but for some reason it was really
great with him.
We clean ourselves off. We kind of help soap each other down and you
know it was kind of cute you know. Sexy, but it's also kinda cute.
As soon as I'm done washing myself off
I'm about to turn off the shower and he grabs my hand off
the shower handle and he takes it off and he's like, "Wait just a few more minutes."
and so when he does that
he kind of comes up behind and just kind of wraps his arms around me and tucks his
head over my shoulder and we just stand there in the shower for like 5-10 minutes...
I don't know how long it was, but it was just like nice. It was really nice!
because I hadn't had that kind of intimacy in a long time, but I liked it
and the fact that I liked it is a problem in and of itself. After that we
get out of the shower finally. It's f*cking amazing and we go to bed and normally when I'm
in bed, I don't like to cuddle with you very much like while I'm sleeping, because
I get hot and it gets uncomfortable, but for some reason I was ok with it with
him and so we kind of cuddled the whole night and I had my back turned towards him
and I was sleeping, I remember waking up and I just felt him kissing down my
spine and I was like, "WHAT IS THIS??" Lawd Jesus I got that love drug in my veins
and I want you to shoot it in straight
Then I was like, "Whoa, is this something
that I could actually date?" Anyway fast forward to the next morning. We stay in
bed for a while. We kind of sleep in and we put off our morning appointments so that
we can spend more time together and then I decided time to go so I finally get ready to
leave and that was kind of it...for the moment.
Anyway, because I don't want the story to
last forever. A few days passed and I don't really hear from him and so I decided
to text him to see how he's doing and he kind of gives me like the one word response.
I'm like, "How you doing?"
and he's like, "Good Man", like no open invitation for more communication and
that right there is just like something that really starts to f*ck with your mind
because I'm like wait a second we had such a good night why aren't you saying
anything more? and then you start going to the over-analyzing thing and then
the crazy girl starts to come to life from within! Getting to the point, I text this
guy a few more times and he's not really responding very much and so I decided to
send him a message
Were basically I asked him if hooking up too soon was what kind of messed things up
because I said that I liked him and I know that you're not supposed to put
your cards on table that soon, but I didn't give up... So he responds to that
though it's like the first real response that I heard from since then and he's like
" Yeah, having sex probably wasn't the best thing to do that soon."
and he kind of alluded to the fact that he did like me, but then he
also said you need to let me come to you
I don't know if that is a douchey thing to say, but it's also kind of true
regardless, because I feel like people like the chase
I like to chase and that's probably why I was so crazy about him.
So he tells me
you know give me some space and let me come to you and so I stopped texting him
and so I wasn't like completely hung up on him. I just thought there was a
connection there, because that first night with all the intimacy made me feel
like there could be something more there
so anyway the next night I decided to go out with my friend for dinner and then
we were going to go grab a drink at a bar. Now, I should probably tell you guys that I
don't drink and I also told him that I don't drink, but we were going out to
just like have like a soda and a cranberry juice, because we wanted to be social and
be out and do something fun, but anyway I'm at dinner and I posted a photo of
myself in my netflix and chill hoodie that you guys may have seen through this photo
right here. If you guys want this hoodie you can check it out in the links in the
description section below
I posted a photo with Netflix and chill hoodie and I was like, "I mean...." and then he
writes, "yes please"
and I was like, "Oh, sh*t! he's coming to me! he's coming to me!" sh*t is working out and so
my friend and I we go out to this bar and we're getting a soda and cranberry
juice and we're just chilling out there. As we're chillin out, I just messaged the guy
a few minutes before, that guy walks right into the same bar that we're in.
No! God please no!! no!!
When he walks in, I don't know what comes over me. I become
this helpless schoolgirl and I grabbed my friend's arm and I'm like, "oh my god it's!!"
I can't say his name
I totally see him and I f*cking freak out. I don't know why I freak out either
I think a big part of it was my heart was kind of vulnerable and I hate that
feeling of being vunerable, because I haven't had that in a very long time and he
just told me the day before not to go talk to him unless he comes and talks to
me and so I just felt kind of stupid to be honest.
So anyway, I'm talking to some guy from New Zealand or Australia or some of the
country
I have no idea, because I can't even focus on anything else but the idea that
this guy that I like is just a few feet away from me standing at the bar
Anyway, as I'm standing there talking to this guy suddenly I feel this sharp sting
on my back. This is where that tree comes into play because apparently on that
tree there was a spider and the spider fell out of that tree and fell down the
back of my shirt inside and decided to land right on my back where it started biting me
Now, this sting burned like none other. It felt like fire was spreading across my back
and most people in this situation would probably rip the damn shirt off and run
and scream or do something, but you know what I did? I just sat there and smiled
and nodded at this guy's story who I wasn't even paying a damn attention to because I was
too proud to show that a spider was actually attacking me as I'm trying to
not let this guy know that I see him across the room
Sweat is dripping down my face. I'm feeling dizzy and I am sitting there like
Yeah? You went to the Poconos for Halloween? How was it this time of year?
I am dying, but it didn't matter. As long as I save face that's all that mattered to me in that moment.
So finally the guy that I like leaves the bar and I turned to my
friend and I'm like, "Can you look at my back right now I feel like something bit me."
I pulled my shirt up. This is what I see on my back
No!!!!
This thing has swollen up so much and it's burning so bad that I have to leave the bar.
So anyway that's kind of what happened and I haven't heard from him
really since then. I've reached out a couple of times and I either get one word
responses or no response and so I know at that point just let it go Travis
just let go and chalk it up to one good night, but I was kind of bummed out
though, because I hadn't felt that connection with someone in a really long
time, but it doesn't really matter because he obviously didn't feel the
same way, which means that I was hashtag rejected! Anyway I just wanted to share that
story with you guys, because it's been on my mind for the last couple of weeks and
I thought that maybe you guys could relate because
Ugh! being rejected just sucks so I guess I'm gonna just leave this now, because I don't
know how long the story time video is gonna be, but please be sure to give this
video a LIKE if you can relate to having your heart broken.
Let me know about your heartbreak stories in the comment section below and
I guess that's all I have for right now so thank you guys so much for watching
and we'll see you next time