my name is meli b that's the name that was given to me by me well sort of i mean i made it my name
on discord i think and then my boyfriend and i as like gamer friends started calling me that
you can just call me melissa i'm 22 almost 23 years old and it's just now hitting me that i've
almost been out of high school for five years damn but anyway i'm far past the years of teen angst
instead i'm in this purgatory that is my early 20s because i don't know what the hell i'm doing
i spend most of my days bored trying to think of things to do and never doing them so i decided
that i should live like teenage me always wanted to and i went on an adventure and this is my story
i went to dunkin donuts and got complimented on my eyeliner oh thank you the end me too
they made the coffee with real milk instead of oat milk so i felt like i was gonna [ __ ] myself
i drove from my little suburban town into this town that's still very much suburban but has
brick streets and old rich people i aggressively dodged the people that i thought i recognized
from high school even though the chances of anyone recognizing me are slim to none
i took in the sights and sounds of the restaurants and shops that i'm still too
afraid to go in despite being double vaxxed catch me on influencers in the wild y'all
we love it i can take this off there's no one around
i'm exhausted but this building matches my whole look today so cute you know i'm learning it's fun
to romanticize your life but when you have a camera while doing it it makes it 10 times more
awkward and i know i wouldn't feel awkward if this was a film set so i just need to pretend that my
life is one big film set i guess the amount of people that just stare they're like oh camera
yeah yeah i got a camera you got a problem with it okay then i'll put it away
yes people did stare but this was my main character moment
and whenever the social anxiety gripped me i would just turn my
camera around and take videos of random objects
wow a brick building how cool she's an artist but the point of this video
is that life is not a coming-of-age movie when you're a teenager if anything it feels
way more like one when you're in your 20s and to be honest i've always found it weird that
coming-of-age movies center around characters that are like 16 or 17 years old because like no they
make it seem like those are the years where you have the most amazing experiences and memories and
make the most out of your life and start figuring out who you are and while you do start figuring
out who you are i feel like my life now at 22 is far more like a coming-of-age movie than it
was when i was 17. and i remember that first year after i graduated high school thinking that i had
missed out on the best years of my life and that i hadn't experienced what i should have and whatever
and it's like no you don't want to peek in high school like damn when i was 17 i did not have the
freedom nor the confidence to drive to a different town on a monday morning and take videos of myself
walking down the streets and do i have the confidence now not really but i'm working on it
and here's the exact moment that inspired the concept for this video
if there's one thing i wish i could tell my high school self it would
probably be that life doesn't feel like a coming-of-age movie until you're in your 20s
yep that's right your 20s you still feel just as awkward and uncertain about your
future but you have more money sometimes more time and uh more energy and freedom for sure
these are the years i've actually been able to
make cool memories and do fun wait wait what is that
oh my god y'all frogs are one of my literal worst fears and one just jumped into my bag
so i don't know what to do let's let's figure this out and this this is the moment right here
where i came of age i hate this okay that was one of those things
apology video for that joke will be coming next week
i think that's my sign to go home it's fine i'm just gonna pretend like that never happened
also how are you supposed to romanticize your life when it's like 100 degrees outside