[MUSIC PLAYING]
For me, things are getting real.
Things are getting permanent.
The decision I make will forever affect my life,
and it's just scary that I have to make the decision so soon.
Even though Matt has done some disrespectful things,
I still like him, have a connection with him.
Lately, Matt has been giving me more quality time,
and it feels like he does want to be with me.
So this time is going to be really
important for me to reflect and to make this decision.
I don't want to give up.
Because, for me, marriage is forever.
Bye.
Give me a hug.
Oh.
All right.
See you.
See you tomorrow.
Sounds good.
So, like, you settled on where you think your decision's at?
I definitely need space before decision day to, like,
think things through.
Yeah.
Well, so I've got something to tell you,
and I don't quite know how to tell you.
But the other night I was out at a bar,
and I saw Matt with another girl.
They were definitely focused on each other,
and it didn't look good.
They left together?
Yeah.
I'm sorry.
It's not something that I wanted to have to tell you.
You OK?
Even though I'm hearing this, it's
like I hate the idea of giving up because I like him so much
and, like, I just--
I want this to work so badly, like, so badly.
I don't want this to end, you know?
I just don't want to believe.
If he didn't want to be with me, I just wish he
would have [BLEEP]-ing told me.
Like-- [CRIES] I just [BLEEP]-ing-ing
hate hearing this [BLEEP].
Like, why couldn't he just be honest?
Why does he think I deserve that?
You don't deserve it.
This has nothing to do with you not living up to something.
It has something to do with his effort back into this
and back into you.
It just makes me wonder what he's been doing all this
[BLEEP]-ing-ing time, like so many days, so many
nights spent away from me.
[CRIES]
I wish I had something that I could tell
you that would make it better.
I'm just so tired of like, the [BLEEP]..
It does not feel good to have to tell my best friend
that her husband potentially is being unfaithful to her.
[SOBBING]
Because that is devastating to someone who put herself
so deeply into this and wanted it for the right
reasons and tried as hard as she has and has been as forgiving
towards the things that she rationalizes
that should hurt her more.
It's just unfortunate.
You have your decision day.
You don't have to keep feeling this way.
[SOBBING]
I don't want to do [BLEEP].