hey guys so today I'm going to do a
quick get ready with me to top makeup
tutorial I'm gonna go in with just a
harem palette by chibi is place today so
I'm gonna go in with the
Katsina this color it's a great it's a
great transition color and I'm gonna put
that in the crease so I know I haven't
uploaded in a really long time and I'm
super super sorry for that I mean
originally I started YouTube because I
thought it would be a fun platform to
kind of be able to express myself in a
different way than Instagram because
like at the end of the day Instagram you
know is like a photo and I just feel
like you don't really get to see who
that person really is I look really edgy
in my photos so a lot of people like
assume that I'm not as friendly as I
really am and I'm you know I'm very
talkative I think that a lot of people
misinterpret like the type of person I
really am I want you guys to know the
real me and then there's also like a lot
of topics that I've always wanted to
talk about on YouTube some important
subjects can be really controversial and
you know being born and raised in one
country but also having this other I
didn't like I was born and raised in the
US but I am full Japanese and I've been
living here for the past like 12 or 13
years I have this whole new identity
like I yes I'm also American but yes I'm
also very Japanese and I feel like
there's a lot of things that I can share
through my experience like I moved here
when I was um in sorry I'm gonna go in
with
Jamila this color right here yeah I
moved Japan when I was in sixth grade
when I was just starting sixth grade and
I mean it was very tough because I was
very very Americanized at the time and I
got bullied a lot because Japan is a
very special country Japan has a very
very special culture that is very hard
to understand at first like you really
need to I guess experience the culture
shock to really really understand it
Japanese people aren't as like they they
don't like to give their opinions as
much as Americans do so when you do give
your opinions some people get offended
by it like I guess the common thing that
a Japanese person would do you know in a
situation where they had to give their
opinion would be to it would be to agree
or to not like deny that other person's
opinion and you know I was a kid and I
didn't know that that was the social
norm here so obviously I would go out
and give my opinion and be honest about
everything and I mean it's not a bad
thing but when you live here you know
there are just times when you have to
you know you have to kind of think about
where your the the environment that
you're in and think about the people you
know you're with and in Japanese there's
this term called KY and it means it
stands for cooky yo man die which means
like it means like you can't read there
it means to like read the air and in
Japan like reading the air is a huge
thing it's hard to explain but basically
you have to say things or do things
according to the situation like you
really have to see what other people
what other people are thinking what
other people want what they want you to
say and you kind of have to do what they
expect you to do and that's a huge thing
in Japanese culture that I it took me a
while to understand that
but you know like when you're and
you're--you know you're in your early
teens and you feel like your friends
aren't treating you equally because of
the way you are you kind of learn to
blend into the social norms here and
that's kind of how I learned to become
more Japanese right now I couldn't
severe myself both Japanese and American
I'm not gonna say I'm just Japanese
American I think I'm both Japanese and
American so I'm just gonna take those
two colors and blend it into the under
eye area but yeah um I had a very very
hard time blending into the culture here
to be honest I hated Japan the first few
years I lived here just because I didn't
understand it you know I could
understand the culture I couldn't
understand the people it was very
difficult for a kid to blend into a
completely different culture and well
now I love it I love it here I love
Japan I think it's a beautiful country
the people are amazing they're nice you
know polite but I feel like because I
had such a hard time blending into the
culture when I was younger that I could
possibly help people who are going
through the same things that I had gone
through when I was younger if I did
videos on those topics so let me know if
you guys are interested in hearing
things like that you know and trust me
like I have gone through identity crisis
like cultural identity crisis for the
longest time my parents weren't very
happy that I was so Americanized but I'm
like it's not my fault that I was born
and reason that you
yes you know so you can't really do
anything about it well I guess they were
they were just worried you know cuz when
you're two American in this country it
gonna be a problem
so I'm going in with this color Iman
it's a beautiful foiled color like a
whitish bluish color and I just wet my
brush I'm into this thing where like I
draw cat eye but it's like my whole
crease so I'm gonna try and go in like a
little bit above my crease so that it
shows even when I'm opening my eyes
honestly like my makeup videos I just do
them for fun like I'm not doing them to
get views or to become a makeup artist
like I just genuinely have a love for
makeup and you know I thought it would
be fun to share some of my passion with
you
I actually don't get a lot of views on
my makeup videos but that's okay cuz I'm
not doing up over the views I realize
that I get a lot a lot of views on on
videos when I talk about modeling here
oh my god I have so much to talk about
um about the modeling industry here if
you guys want to know a little bit more
about that I'm actually planning on
visiting LA this July so maybe I should
do a video there I'm thinking of maybe
checking out some agencies while I'm
there also so I can even do a video
about that like my experience you know
doing go-sees in LA you know it's funny
like I've never really thought about
being Asian like you know the fact that
I'm Asian when I lived in the States
I had never experienced racism ever but
the funny thing is like now that I live
in Japan I see it more because Japan
this is a whole nother video to talk
about but Japan
has always had this fascination towards
Western everything Western Beauty
Western products everything and I've
also noticed in the modeling industry
that like 80% of the model jobs here go
to either white people or half white
people and that's just how it is you
know and it frustrates me because Japan
you know is a country in Asia with a lot
of beautiful Asian Japanese women and
yet the Japanese girls here are lacking
confidence in their beauty because of
the media promoting Western Beauty so
much you know every magazine there's
gonna be you know a makeup page that I
introduced is how to look more foreign
or how to look hafu which is a term in
Japanese for like mixed-race people and
it's just like it makes me so sad that
Japanese girls feel the need to to go
after a completely different beauty
standard when you know instead of like
embracing what they already have and
that's um you know that's something that
I've always wanted to talk about so I'm
gonna go in with the Gigi Hadid
maybelline color show liner in shiny
beige this is so pretty I love this
eyeliner it's like a shiny nude color
and I'm just gonna go in and the inner
corners with this I'm just gonna
intensify everything a little bit more
it might be a little bit uneven but I
don't care I'm just gonna whatever okay
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okay I think I want to add some
highlight to the brow bone the milk make
highlighter and lit I use this on my
cheeks today and everywhere also I love
this highlighter and I'm just gonna put
a pop of color up there
I love how easy this highlighter is to
blend yeah time for mascara I have super
straight hair so I have to curl my
lashes as girls they're like right
taking the DUP volume extension mascara
this is my favorite favorite mascara
ever in Japan so I'm gonna take the DUP
silky liquid eyeliner it's the same
brown mascara I just used I'm just
lining a bit in your lash line I think
I'm gonna go with pink so this is the
NYX Cosmetics soft matte lip cream and
what color is this
Ibiza
for some loss and a loss you know what I
like to do these days with my lips is I
like to take a shimmer shade this is the
Bobbi Brown sparkle eyeshadow in silver
lilac and I takes and then I pop it on
and I think with done thank you for
watching let me know if you guys want to
see more chitchat videos like this I
will be back soon bye