- Hey, what's up, I'm Lauv,
and today I'm gonna be painting my album, How I'm Feeling.
Basically the whole concept for the album
was about embracing different parts of your personality.
So I created these different characters
that are all different colors
that represent different emotions
or different exaggerated personalities
that altogether makeup me.
Purple, which is existential,
blue, which is hopeless romantic,
and we got green, which is goofy,
yellow, that's positive,
orange, that's boy
and red, that's spicy.
♪ I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet ♪
♪ Ah , am I a winner yet ♪
Drugs and the Internet,
okay.
♪ I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet ♪
That's it?
For me, that was the place
that I was in when I made that song.
It was me calling myself out
and it was the beginning of this existential crisis I have.
It Basically sets the tone
because it was the first time I'd really written something
that wasn't just like hopeless romantic
and like love or heartbreak or whatever.
And yeah, it sets the stage
for something a little bit more substantial I guess.
My relationship with social media in some ways has changed,
someways is, on some day's the same
which I'm not happy about.
But I would just say it's a lot more natural
I'm a lot more just not boxed in to the sex personality.
'Cause before it was like, I always would overthink
and I feel really ashamed saying this,
but I would sometimes spend like an entire day
thinking about like a caption for a photo,
which is so not good for happiness.
So I would just say I'm in a much more natural place,
which is nice.
♪ It's been me myself and why ♪
♪ Did you go ♪
♪ Oh, , I'm lonely, ♪
♪ I'm lonely, I'm lonely, I'm lonely, lonely eye ♪
♪ Lonely eyes ♪
♪ She had those lonely eyes ♪
♪ Ooh, goddamn ♪
♪ I wish we would've met ♪
Okay, Sims.
It's actually surprising to me how hard this is
'cause I want it to be so good
and I'm so bad at painting.
The funny thing is I honestly didn't even really grow up
playing a lot of Sims.
So I feel funny in that way.
I used Sims to introduce other characters
'cause I wanted to kinda do this thing,
showing the different people inside of my brain
and like making it this exaggerated thing.
I especially love the .
I was so bad though when I was shooting that,
every time I play the it feels so gross.
♪ Miss me missing you too so to say and that's annoying ♪
♪ I tried to impress you with some ♪
Not good.
Not Good.
I feel like for me,
my favorite is goofy green.
Just because its just like the most free and fun
like whatever childish doesn't really care.
I also have been really digging into yellow positive,
just like I'm gonna do a lot of things like meditating
and practicing gratitude,
'cause it's really helped me get out of a bad place.
Purple existential is very present in me,
I would say hopeless romantic, less so,
unless I got a crush on somebody
then all the hopeless romanticism comes back.
♪ Shoulda believed in us, ♪
♪ Oh, oh, ho, 'cause I feel now ♪
"Feelings".
♪ I wanna do whatever you wanna do ♪
♪ If you wanted to, girl, ♪
Honestly,
"Feelings" it's like where
♪ That's what you said, but, girl, let me change your mind ♪
I just like that feeling
of when you're really falling quickly for someone
and you're super happy,
you're kind of like high off of it.
And you're just like, "I hope you're there with me
"and like we can just like dive in together."
when the other person's a little like, nervous about it
and not totally in yet.
So yeah, that's about it.
♪ What if we move to Canada ♪
♪ And buy some things we don't need ♪
♪ Bring your mother's dog, ♪
♪ Your paintbrush and some candy ♪
♪ But for now, I'll love you through the phone ♪
♪ Don't build me up just to let me down ♪
♪ Just to let me down, down, down ♪
Okay, we're gonna do "Mean It".
♪ Don't mess with my head ♪
♪ Don't tell me you're falling ♪
♪ With your feet still on the ledge ♪
Cool.
And I'm almost looks like a butterfly.
I don't know how that happened.
Long story short, I was seeing somebody
and I tend to dive in really fast, I've realized
it's a bit of a pattern.
And sometimes I realize that maybe I don't feel the way
that I thought I felt.
And so I was imagining what that person might say to me,
which felt kind of .
To be writing a song like that you're like,
"That's like a burden on yourself."
But, yeah.
That's spicy.
I mean, the spicy is basically
like I think the anger that person
would experience being like, "If you don't actually mean it,
"then don't say it to me."
♪ Tell my mama that I love her ♪
♪ And I'm sorry for the pain ♪
♪ Sorry for the pain ♪
♪ That I caused her ♪
♪ Sweatpants and songs about her ♪
♪ Coffee with a little bit of alcohol ♪
♪ Don't lie to me, just get in my head ♪
♪ When the morning comes, you're still in my bed ♪
I think "Who" kind of speaks for itself.
Like it's so clear.
"Who
"are
"you?
"'Cause you're not the girl I fell in love with."
I actually wasn't expecting to collab with BTS in the album.
So it was amazing that it did happen.
And I met them at their show in London,
and they were super sweet.
And then I was not really expecting anything beyond that,
but I just had the demo of "Who" lying around
and I thought it'd be something different
for them and for me,
but I thought their voices sound amazing on it.
And so I sent it and it just was supernatural.
I think every collabo on the album
happened very much in just natural-in-the-moment way,
I didn't really plan on having specific collabos
or anything so it's really cool.
♪ I'm so tired of love songs, tired of love songs ♪
♪ Tired of love songs ♪
♪ I met a girl at El Tejano ♪
♪ We danced ♪
♪ To spanish ♪
I was sixth Chile's logo .
♪ Mmm, 'cause I love you ♪
♪ Mmm, tattoos together ♪
♪ Yeah, your cherry earrings are my favorite ♪
Basically the pink obviously doesn't exist in the scheme
but I was wearing a pink sweater in the music video,
so that's just, so Omerge to the pink sweater,
we love you, pink sweater.
And yellow 'cause it was like very much a time in my life
where I was just so happy and so in love
that I didn't really care.
And I was like, let's get tattoos together
and shit literally happened like two weeks
into seeing this person.
So yeah, and it's just a fun song.
I think it's like,
in terms of the album, probably the most fun,
whatever kind of song.
♪ It's killing you to stay the same, but ♪
♪ It's all gonna work out ♪
♪ It's all gonna work out someday ♪
♪'Cause lately, I've been in the backseat to my own life ♪
♪ Trying to take control, but I don't know how to ♪
♪ I don't wanna be sad forever ♪
♪ I don't wanna be sad no more ♪
♪ These are the little things that I love the most ♪
That one speaks for itself.
♪ Modern loneliness, we're never alone ♪
♪ But always depressed, yeah ♪
♪ Love my friends to death ♪
♪ But I never call and I never text, yeah ♪
♪ La di da di da ♪
♪ You get what you give and give what you get, so ♪
♪ Modern loneliness ♪
I feel like "Modern Loneliness"
says something that I felt for a long time
growing up for various reasons
and now today especially with social media
and the way friendships exist
for a really long time,
and I never really knew how to articulate it.
And one day, it really just kind of came to me in a way
that I never expected, like each lyric.
I honestly felt like it was like channeled
from a different place
that wasn't really thought about in my head.
And I just think it's something
that every time I sing it,
pretty much every time I sing it, I breakdown.
It's just probably the most true thing I've ever said,
a lot of the lyrics are really, really,
like I'm ashamed of myself,
to love my friends to death,
but I never call and I never text
that's like very very, I don't know, close to me.
And I think a lot of people,
at least that I talk to feel that way today.
And I want it to be about not being sad,
about breaking monotony, that's the whole thing.
So this is how I'm feeling my album, 21 songs.
I didn't think it would go well,
but I actually really enjoyed this.
Honestly, I'm really proud of this,
'cause it's got such a different like,
so many different vibes like symbols,
like abstract, words and I don't know, I really like it.
And I really like this one "Sad Forever",
is really cool to me.
So it went better than I expected.
I don't know what you guys think,
you guys probably think it's but I enjoyed it.
Yeah, thank you guys so much for watching
and for allowing me to do this, it was really fun.
Yeah go check out the music.
Bye.