Everybody got really mad at me about the candy video, cause you know there's kids smoking
weed in it.
There's a lot of paraphernalia references I guess.
My label also called me and was like "What in the fuck is wrong with your eyes?”
It's all just raw.
I liked that video cause we pissed people off.
This is what it is.
Youth is exactly like this video and people I guess were kinda just mad cause I called
it like it is.
The day I did this record Trippy came to my house party.
I always wish he was the one singing "I'm in my head again I took" from the jump when
I did that I was like man that sounds like something Trippy would.
Every time we tried to record Trippy's verse a party would just happen and nothing would
happen no work would get done.
So like he did the first line "My bitch tastes like candy, yeah play with
death like I'm Billy and Mandy, yeah" And I love that line I was like what?
This is so sick and as soon as he said that.
The door opens and hella people came out he's like "Oh man I wanna do this record right.
Can we do this another time when there's not a party going on?"
I'm like yeah came back another time.
It was something about that record man and it was so dark that's what's so weird there
was always a party following that record.
A double entendre cause I mean candy is clearly a metaphor for something else, but Candy is
also a Mandy Moore song and then more as in quantity, but Moore as in Mandy's last name.
Damn...
Some people when they wake up they need a cup of coffee to crack a smile.
Me when I go into the studio I need crack an addie and open my mind up and lose all
my worries from everything going on in the real world.
Cause the studio is supposed to be for art only.
I guess it makes me mad so I like to get a little mad and let my pen work.
That's just the way I've done it since I've done it.
Covering up a low with a high.
I had this ex that just kept creeping back into my life and it was the most toxic relationship
I ever had.
Every time she would come in I would give her a piece.
And whatever this is you know squeeze everything out of it and hand it back.
It was a theme that constantly kept happening so I put that theme in the lyrics of a hook
that keeps happening over and over again.
So it's metaphoric of it actually happens in my life, it just happens over and over
again.
The repetition in the song was on purpose.
I think when people see me or you know act in a certain way.
Asking questions about why I act a certain way.
You got to put yourself in the position of being 11 years old and trying ectasy for the
first time going out with your friends putting pacifiers in your mouth.
This is 11 years old dude.
Mom dipped at 9 I'm on my own doing what I want at 10 years old.
All these things in my life now are just like I was raised like that so I guess I never
really changed like that.
I've been stuck in my ways.
I actually wrote this part about Pete Davidson because towards the end of 2018 he and I were
probably some of the most hated dudes on planet earth and we both just had these hit at the
exact same time and it was in front of everyone and I just remember how he was handling he
was like "fuck all of this".
And he didn't want to go on Saturday Night Live he didn't want to leave his house.
He didn't want to have a picture of himself anywhere he didn't want to see himself he
didn't want to be around anymore.
I'm stuck in it.
So I acknowledge that I'm stuck in it I can't run from it you know what I mean like, but
I remember he was trying real hard.
And we all realized oh, we're here or we're out and the only way out is in a box so looks
like I'm here.
I think after I saw Mac's video of him in a coffin and then what followed I just realized
when you put it out there it's going to come back to you so when that part came in the
song with that line we just replaced the actual word with the gunshot.
So that we never actually acknowledged it or confirm it.