How I feel depends on the day
some days I'm like so excited about
my future and other days I'm like, this is not the future that I expected and
What just happened to me? And I'm mad and I'm sad and
Then I will be hopeful too. So yeah, I think there's been a lot of
emotions dealing with thinking it's going to be one way in it turning out to be a complete other and
It's been really tough I
Think it's time. We introduced our new bachelorette. Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome
Hannah B
In March 2019 Chris Harrison introduced the season 15 Bachelorette 24 year old Hannah brown a former
Miss Alabama and fan favorite from Colton Underwood season of The Bachelor realize in a matter of a couple months you
Could be engaged
you know, that's
So surreal
But I'm hopeful for it by the final episode the field of 30 was down to two
Tyler and Jen I think I I
wanted
Two men I
I think that was the hardest part is I didn't feel like I was drama Tyler
But it was done. It was the end and
What do I do when I told you I was falling in love with you, I mean it I
Love someone else I
Kept trying to tell myself, you're 100% sure you're 100% sure when I don't know if I was 100% sure
like now
Like being honest, I don't I I don't think I was more nervous. I'm sure ever
but I think it was the one that in the moment felt like this the safest the
The best decision I can make at that point my feelings with Jed had
been in progress longer and at that time were a
Farther along of where we had talked about where we had gone. It was like, all right
Do you have to pick now here he gonna pick and I picked yet. I've been praying for this movement a long time
I've been praying for you
It was beautiful. It was I
Meant everything I said, it's really hard watching back
Everything I said to him cuz that's what I wanted to say to my forever. You've supported me you've loved me
You challenged me. You've moved me and it's made me
Love you so so much. I remember
There was a second when I saw the ring when he opened the ring that
Yes, I knew I wanted to say yes and I was like there's absolutely like I'm doing this but
There was a second where I was like oh
But I've made a decision will you marry me?
Yes
And so
When the show wrapped in grease I thought I had
Found the perfect ending to my love story
And I was like, oh my god this is going to be so amazing like this
You know, I thought it was gonna be one story and it's ended up being a completely different story
I'm engaged you're engaged ring. We're engaged together Wow. We're getting married
whoa, the night after our engagement is the first time he
said anything to me about a
Another
Woman he just wanted me to wanted to let me know that he was hanging out with a girl
Before
Before the show and it was nothing serious and so I was like
So but you ended it with her I said yeah, whatever it was
So I'm pissed that I'm having to find out this after got engaged
I would have liked to known that before but I don't know it just
was like
They don't want it to kill me that much then but it did it stayed with me
It was hard. It was always hard
Loved each other, but it was hard
Right from the back. We're like actually engaged actually
and
We are sitting here. Just trying to take it in. It's like hard to talk about. Sorry. I
Just don't want to like not talk about it. Right because I'm I did love him
But
But I am like her
on
June 18th five weeks after Jed broke the news to Hanna about his girlfriend People magazine
Broke the same news to bachelor nation only the stories didn't exactly line up
I didn't find out everything until the
Article came out. I started reading it and it was not the same story that I was told
The article said that he didn't really in their relationship before he came here I told him that I
Think we've all realized that
Half the truths and lies get you nowhere and
honesty, even though sometimes it may hurt doesn't have the effect that this has had and
It was really embarrassing to have to send an article to your fiance in circle
hearts and
asked if they're true or not and
be told that the article is true and
It was rough they feel betrayed betrayed and like
How would you ever be ready to be engaged like
What I knew in my heart like once I found out everything I'm like, how did you get back from? I don't know
I'm ill I just see him differently. He's just it's not the same
It's the person that I got engaged to is not the person
that
It's here now, it's embarrassing. Um
Because I look back at some of our dates
and the things I talk about and I'm I'm like
I just know I can trust Jed and he's so honest with me and it's just
Heartbreaking
honestly, I know that I had opportunities to tell you but every time it's like I
Would get there and I would stop myself because it felt like I would just lose you which is selfish on me
I do believe that he loves he loves me
But he wasn't listening to me and I don't think Jed's a bad person and I don't think he meant anything malicious
By I think he was just really cowardly about
He loved me and didn't want to lose me and knew that it would rock me it was selfish
I just feel like right now my decisions my choices were all
Tainted he knew that between Peter Tyler and Jed I
Could see a life with all three of them and he took
He kind of took that choice away from me I feel like
And it sad this
Doesn't mean the same thing
he never wanted to hurt me and he always says that but he hurt me worse than
Anybody else did that's not what I said. Yes. I wanted that room
I wanted that moment. I wanted that ending and
It's up so that's not my ending
But I want it to be real and I want it to be true and I wanted to have a solid firm
foundation on the things that I believe that true lasting love is built on and so that
Ring is ultimately not mine. So I
It it doesn't have a place in my life
It's gorgeous out there right my entire life
I've wanted to be a role model and live my life that way and
It's been really neat to see that
Me just
Owning my truth and
my failures and my victories have
Made me the role model that I always wanted to be in the role model. I always wanted to have and
Y'all have not seen the last of me and I'm gonna be
Stronger
So that's like where a lot of my hope comes from is like, okay
I'm having to go through some pain but it's because it's about to be so awesome. And I'm gonna be like, oh, okay
That thing that time I cried like every other day. Oh, this was totally worth it
We'll get there