I was like going through the worse two weeks of my life it was literally
hell after those explosions I woke up next morning it was like a brand-new
life I have I feel so blissed out and is connected to everything. I
literally flipping from hell to heaven and at the same time I was
flipped inside out. My perception and my cognition how I experience the world...the
shift was quantum and the state is still here today. The whole energy you feel
like there is a snake in your spine and it goes up up and then and then the energy
goes you know through your different chakras and then you sort of just like exploded
on your third eye and the energy went out to the crown chakra.
That went through like four times and each time that I
went through that, it just exploded. So one of the most asked
questions that I've got in my life is what is the "Dark Night Of the Soul"
what is "depersonalization" more people are asking this question nowadays
because of the quarantine crisis and the collective Dark Night that's going on in the world
during my max effort Dark Nigh ...there is degree to this stuff. There are cycles
macro-cycles micro cycles. It felt like I was going to blink out of existence at any
minute I almost called an ambulance because I literally thought that I was
gonna die
I was sucked into a vortex/Void
The event horizon of the inner black hole which is Infinity but just remember that whenever you have a
"Dark Night" it's happening because your Consciousness is upgrading itself. This is
better not to be born you know. The entire Reality
Everything that I thought was me was
shredded to particles and every particle every atom in your body it's like like I said
before every every atom in your body is like a nuclear bomb and you just you
just get combusted it and then you lost your body you lost your mind and
then you're in the space of like... just like this inconceivable space and then
you're reconstructed as the mind came to the end to be plunged into the Source I think
the most accurate analogy that people can relate to you is like a DMT trip
it's pretty much a natural DMT trip
Just My Mind's melting when that max effort the dark now was over I was flipped
inside out the distinction between inside and outside perceiver and the perceived the
and the subject and object becomes nonsensical inside this 360
degrees Natural Awareness the Natty state is now my default state.
That was the extreme side of the spectrum some people barely notice it but Dark Night occurs
when you have had a glimpse of your True Nature but the Realization didn't stick
So now you have one foot infinity or the Void. And another foot in the finite. The "physical"
Eckhart Tolle calls this "No man's land". Shinzen Young calls it Enlightenment's evil twin brother
Enlightenment's evil twin brother. Ronnie Coleman said "everyone wants to wake up
but nobody wants to die"
lookaside thing but I thought some parts of your story empty where other person
so solid but again emptiness inform identical
Each time you peel off the onion that you thought was "you'"
The Dark Night is less intensified you peel one layer and another, and more stuff come up you dissolve
them, deconstruct them. And ask yourself "To whom do those sensations belong to
(Your True Self) has no location no size no dimensions no shape no form no smell no
distance no quality there is nothing that could be conceived of in the
realm of the imagination or thought that could even come close to describe this thing...It's your True Self
awareness on to it so detective that's out of the vehicles like after a moment
I think Elena taught me more about life
than anybody else she's almost like a walking embodiment of the Dark
Night of the Soul what is the darkness? (it's when you got)
One foot in emptiness/Infinity and another still on the "land"
yeah one foot emptiness another foot still on on the land even that the
Even that...the feeling of the "Depersonalization' the sensation of depersonalization. It is the same Insight into
impermanence applies. It arises and passes. It's just a
more solidified, gross sensations. That's what suffering is really just
perceiving things as solid. The laser of Awareness is not sharp enough to chop or
deconstruct or break apart certain elements in certain parts of your
experience and the reason why "Dark Nights" are important is because working
through those experiences give you Insight into "impermanence" into "no-self"
into "suffering" The Dark Knight comes
after this phase called "Arising and Passing" the rising and passing is like
this blissful experience with rupture where you experience altered states of
consciousness. It's almost like tripping on LSD naturally through meditation
Tripping on LSD is an "Arising and Passing" experience, it's when things expand and then something
expands, it will come down and "contract"
"Dark Night" has a different texture to depression I think, I think depression
from a personal experience is a longing for something that is personal
"DP" is something existential, you're longing for "God". There is no turning back.
The only way is through. And some people get stuck in his phase for years without proper techniques
when you realize that your identity is nothing more than a mental
fabrication a fictional character. A transparent Nothing An invisible man
wearing armors and as an automatic response to this glitch. After you glimpsed your True Nature
The Matrix goes into overdrive