so things have been pretty hectic since
this summer when I made some major
changes to my life I try really hard to
keep myself busy with something new
every day and although things aren't so
bad at the moment there are still a few
ups and downs that like you know make
life spicy so here's a week in row
hey guys how's it goin it's Michaela and
today I'm enjoying a lovely stroll
around ohori Park in the center of
Fukuoka City
it's a beautiful gorgeous day today we
just had an awful time food blow-by it
was crazy and stormy until yesterday and
then today post - and the weather is so
gorgeous although a little bit windy
still today's video starts off at one of
my favorite spots a hoary park this has
become a popular place for visitors to
Fukuoka so I want to show you a little
local spot that I really enjoy walking
around in noble matza is the neighboring
area to the park and the back streets
have tons of character when starbucks in
the park is too crowded
a short walk total paul matzoh will
bring you to one of my favorite local
cafes days cafe is a quiet little cafe
only a short walk from the park the
drink list is extensive with non coffee
options available as well and there are
light snacking options - like sandwiches
scones and cookies the cafe is operated
single-handedly by its owner who also
bakes a mean cheesecake it sells out
really fast though so if you see it
consider yourself lucky and give it a
try the best part for me is that it has
one outdoor seating which makes it a
perfect pit stop during a walk with my
two dogs
the rest of robot matzoh has interesting
side streets and traditional shops that
make it interesting for any visitor to
Japan
don't forget to also check out the
massive gold cocoa shrine when you make
your way back to old horny Park hey guys
how's it going this morning I'm up early
I'm heading to the hair salon to finally
get my hair cut I already cut the tips
once already out of frustration just
because it's been so long since I've
gotten the haircut I haven't had like
the financial stability to get a haircut
in a really long time I've been dealing
with like the aftermath of separating
from my partner which includes like I
don't know paying for the pets paying
for the car the cars broken by the way
the car's broken I can't use it and I'm
still paying 150 dollars a month to have
it parked in my apartment complex so
that car has to go and that's happening
this weekend cots was coming down from
Tokyo to do it it's a little bit
stressful to be honest like I'm a little
bit nervous about how I'm gonna feel
when I see him like we haven't seen each
other for about four months we broke up
at the end of April and then he moved
out in June and now it's almost October
so when he comes to get rid of his car
I'm gonna see him and that's I don't
know I don't know that has nothing to do
with why I'm cutting my hair I'm cutting
my hair cuz it's like for the first time
in the past few months after like
scrambling and like getting a job and
like trying to like get money cash flow
in like a stable place again I finally
have like a little bit of financial
leniency if I can finally like afford to
cut my hair and not cut it at home
but yeah here we are Ohio the line
we have decided that we're going to give
me a nice fall long bob allah but that's
going to be a little bit longer in the
front and shorter in the back with some
bangs
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all right it's supposed to be a long bob
but I feel
really short at the back and then a bit
longer in the front
and I got the bangs back which I'm
really really really happy for because
they were in my face and I was
constantly pushing them to the side and
now I have them here and I actually feel
like this has improved my overall look
like I feel tinier I'm gonna show you my
reflection in this mirror like when my
when my hair was like frumpies I felt
huge like I felt really really big and
now that everything's like small again
and like my face looks smaller
I feel like overall like a lot cuter ah
I'm really glad I did this I'm really
glad I did this
thank you very much bye bye bye bye bye
bye okay guys so I am wearing my running
shoes my leggings my official Taylor top
merchandise and I'm heading over to the
gym right now I'm supposed to be going
into the gym twice a week I have not
been going to the gym twice a week and
so I predict that today will be a very
tough day as I try to get back into it
and establish a routine it's just like
past few weeks have been really draining
and tiring and I never have the
motivation but today I had nothing
planned so forcing myself to go
so here's Joe and Joe has been training
me very hard for like a few months so
hard once a week I hate it cause it's
always so hard when I get here he makes
me do things that I don't want to do
right yeah exercise yeah yeah yeah so
we're in start with our silver bar I
think we're inside that okay I like that
you clarify exercise wise because what
else you never know you never know try
to I'm not going to tell you any time so
just hold as long as you can
ready because I'm so bad at high
intensity exercises like running Joe has
me focused on weight training instead we
do 5 sets for each exercise which maybe
doesn't sound that hard but always
guarantees I'll have muscle pain the
following day
I'm so tired I don't want to do this
anymore
thank you Joe
when I get home I have roommate duties
we're pretty good with working as a team
and one of the things I'm in charge of
is making food it's something I really
enjoy and we get to save a lot of money
by eating at home so I don't mind doing
it at all food is a creative outlet for
me and planning what to eat based on
what's in the fridge is always a fun
challenge that gives me a chance to eat
things I wouldn't necessarily be able to
find at a restaurant in Japan
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good morning it's like 7:00 a.m. on
Monday and the weekend has passed by and
Tata was supposed to come this weekend
to see the Pats and pick up his car and
dispose of it and we were supposed to
meet yesterday for lunch and around just
before lunch I got a message from him
that said he missed his flight and that
he wanted to reschedule
and so I think he's in Fukuoka now and
he's coming later today and I've got
plans today so I've had to like move
around my schedule to accommodate him
and everyone's like upset at me for
being too accommodating and maybe I
shouldn't have been so willing to work
things out so that he could still see
the pets and you know get what he wants
but I don't know I know that the vets do
mean a lot to Tatsu and I don't want to
be withholding and I feel like I'm in a
tough position so I don't know I don't
normally get up at 7:00 a.m. but today
is supposed to be the day that I go and
see him after like 4 months
I can't sleep and I'm just like I don't
know I don't even know if I'm doing the
right thing by going out and spending
with him like part of me wants to and
two legs hi and make sure everything's
okay but then I don't know yeah I've
been feeling a lot of mixed emotions
about it so we'll see how it goes
hmm hey guys so it's around 2 p.m. and
I'm just heading out although I think we
were a little bit nervous at first it
didn't take long for us to feel
comfortable with each other again I
don't know what I was worried about
romantic relationship aside we used to
be really good friends after all in this
Sun
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they miss detail maybe maybe we don't
know okay seems so excited yeah it
definitely remembers you he missed you
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they're probably really happy to see you
and have you here giving them snuggles
at the end of the day although it was a
little bit stressful at first I'm really
glad that we went out and did this then
it's off to work I've been working at a
holy good a Japanese daycare part-time
recently obviously I can't show you a
lot of what goes on there but I am there
most of the day record at work and I'm
not going to shoot any of the children
and right now there aren't any children
here so I'm just chillin and I'm making
a bunch of worksheets for Halloween the
kids are gonna have a Halloween party at
the end of this month and it's really
exciting so we're teaching them
Halloween words so this afternoon
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every month they have a chef flyer for a
different Hilton Hotel summer in the
world and they hold like a month-long
buffet that's based on the theme of the
country
they're slaves
I'm very bad at explaining things
every month they changed the cuisine at
the buffet and this month it's Thai food
and I'm really excited cuz I love Thai
food and these pre openings are
invite-only and I've been getting
invited to a few of them this year and I
always have a great time you get to like
watch a cooking demonstration sometimes
they've got displays and it's like very
educational I love food I love eating
and so it's always a pleasure you lived
in Thailand right yeah favorite Thai
food at times cliches that is I make a
sticky rice we go stick your ices or Tom
come back yeah I like the coconut soup I
hope they have cooked anytime anytime
tonight Media previews are traditionally
for outlets like newspapers local
magazines and TV companies but recently
more places are involving
non-traditional media through web
platforms as well since they aren't paid
there's no obligation to post or spread
the word about them but the Hilton is
always fun and their buffet menu has
always done really well I'm getting so
excited I just saw on the menu that
they're gonna be making Tom Kha gai
which is my favorite it's like a coconut
I asked our coconut soup it's really
really good I wasn't sure if they would
have it but I see it on the menu
really excited I'm hoping we get to
sample it later
I love the cooking demonstrations
because I find them wildly educational
but that's the foodie in me the best
part is that we all get to eat the food
right after it's made we got called soy
which is like a curry with a nice dry
noodle on top and then a Tom Kha gai
which is my favorite it's the coconut
soup I've been waiting for this of
coming to these tasting previews because
I get to try but then I always end up
coming like again so I can sit down and
have more of the food like they serve
everything in little bite-sized amounts
during the preview but when you come
here as like a customer during the
daytime you can eat like your favorite
stuff in your favorite quantities and I
would probably have all the Tom Kha gai
this really is like my favorite and I
pay a lot of money but the type lives
near my house to have it so I think it's
almost worth coming here just to have
this
just with joy so the finale of my
self-care week I'm gonna go get my nails
done I always go to this place here
will not call max Kelly because it's
very cheap and this they're really fast
usually about 50 minutes to an hour to
get your nails done and you can shoot
the design they have like a really good
list of design something published every
month that come for a set cost so you
always know how much you're going to pay
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I'm glad I got my nails done I feel like
I still look exhausted I look so tired
the whole time I was getting my nails
that I couldn't stop me awning I'm like
I'm exhausted I feel exhausted I feel
like I look tired
I'm ready to go home and have like a
nice quiet afternoon but I'm glad I got
this done
all right
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hi so now I'm back home and editing the
clips I'm putting together this week in
my life and looking back and I think
like it's been interesting to see how
this week played out and it was actually
a pretty good week
I stayed busy I did something every day
I saw lots of great people I had good
experiences good interactions with
everybody and that was better than I
could have possibly expected so overall
like I'm really pleased with what this
week has become I think leading up to my
visit with katsu I was a little bit on
the edge I was a little bit down because
I wasn't sure if my interactions were
gonna be positive or if they were gonna
be negative and I didn't know if we
would come out of that like feeling good
about each other or feeling angry and I
don't know I don't think anyone will
ever be able to like replace what toxin
was in my life like he was a really good
friend and we were we were very close
there are a lot of things that we love
to do together and in many ways he is
irreplaceable in my life but I think
accepting that like an understanding
that I don't need to find like another
version of him I like he can just exist
as he is and then I can like move
forward and meet people and have like
new interactions like that concept is
something that's kind of only entered my
mind this week it's like it's okay to
know that the person that you used to be
with cannot be replaced and they
shouldn't be replaced because people
humans shouldn't be replaceable I think
just feeling that and like accepting it
and then also understanding that just
because I have those feelings doesn't
mean I made the wrong choice like it's
okay to respect what it was and what he
is and like everything like that but
moving forward I can meet new people and
I can have new experiences and I can
find things that like like new hobbies
and new favorite things to do with new
people I don't know if I'm making sense
but I'm really I don't know I'm excited
about that and I feel like that kind of
excitement connects to the rest of my
work and makes thing was bearable on
days where I feel exhausted and when I
look exhausted like yeah
I don't know um anyway I wanted to make
this video because people gave me so
much support when I talked about my
feelings before and I wanted to show you
that things are better and I'm working
to make them better all the time and I
am working with him to make things
better and yeah I don't know
everything's gonna be okay
I think just gonna keep going full steam
ahead and see where I end up hmm then it
should be interesting
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