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hi guys welcome back to my channel and
welcome to Marrakech Morocco and here
for the week and I'm so excited as one
of my favorite places in the world it's
so beautiful but before we get into like
the usual travel vlogs I just have to
open up about something that I've been
struggling with for a little while now
and I just I think just talking to you
guys about it is gonna make me feel a
lot better
so basically I've mentioned it a few
times in here but I'm kind of going
through this like massive shift with
what I want to do with my content my
channel and like what that looks like
and I'm still trying to figure it out
but in all of this I've had this feeling
like what I'm currently doing isn't good
enough and I'm trying to figure out how
to fix it and with that I've been super
insecure about my videos and actually my
past like three or four trips I've
filmed most of them vlogs even started
editing but I just it felt like it
wasn't good enough and this like
perfectionist in me came out and told me
not to upload them and it's crazy
because I went through all the effort of
filming it and for some reason you're
like my head wouldn't let me edit and
upload them and I knew that that was a
problem obviously because this is my job
and it's what I do and also it's what I
love to do and I love filming and
sharing with you guys and sharing my
life with you I totally kind of hit rock
bottom a couple of days ago actually I
realized how bad it was because one of
my roommates asked to film just like a
really short clip of me for he's doing
these vlogs like um at the house and he
wants to have an intro with like all of
us yeah so I was flying out seas there
always want to get that really quick
shot of you before you go and I just got
so like flustered and I actually started
tearing up and crying I don't know why
just like the idea of just being
camera for some reason just stressed me
out and I thought like I've never had a
reaction like that before to being on
camera
obviously I'm pretty used to it by now
I've been in Louie's daily vlogs and
I've been making videos for you guys for
like over three years now but having
that moment I realized how bad I've let
this relationship get between me and the
camera and I don't know why I've done
that and it was like a wake-up call that
this can't keep happening because like I
said I freaking love what I do and I
want to do this for you guys if you can
hear that music in the background I'm
sorry but I'm just on the rooftop
chillin yeah I want to freaking do this
and I can't let myself get in the way of
that and it's obviously it's like so
ironic because when we're perfectionist
and we don't let ourselves do something
because we think they were not good
enough then we're not good enough
because we're not doing it so I'm like
so worried about how good my content is
gonna be that then I just ended up not
uploading content and that's way worse
so yeah I've just been like totally
getting in the way myself and of my
dreams and yeah so anyway I'm here in
Morocco I'm here for the week I've known
about this for a while in fact I invited
my friend Dakota with me who is an
amazing videographer and I'm super
excited to show you his stuff like a lot
of the b-roll from this trip will be
done by him he's an amazing videographer
poet everything go follow him on
Instagram he's amazing but anyway
invited him to come and I was like let's
make this like beautiful cinematic
incredible film about Morocco it's gonna
be amazing and I've had all these ideas
about what to do with it and how to make
it like the best it could possibly be
and when I had this moment with my
roommate a few days ago I think it liked
it honestly it took hitting rock bottom
to realize wait a minute I'm kind of
doing it again by putting all these
super high expectations like trying to
bring some of the best videographer like
let's make it the best film that we can
make it and yes that's great
that I like
had those ambitions but I think for
where I am right now that's not a
healthy mindset for me to be in so
literally on the flight yesterday I was
thinking maybe the way for me to break
out of this cycle is to just daily vlog
to film every single day like I need to
make a video every single day it does
not matter how good it is it doesn't
matter if it's like the best thing I
ever made if I'm super proud of it I
just if I make myself have to do it then
hopefully it means I can get past these
like boundaries that I've set for myself
I do think I might upload them every
other day though because I'm also
talking the reason I'm actually here is
I'm here for a conference and this
Friday I think I'm doing a big talk
it's a keynote actually I'm very excited
actually my first like public speaking
thing and it's a keynote so it's pretty
exciting but slightly scary so anyway I
need to spend a lot of this week
preparing for that as well so I can't
really like spend every day editing but
so I think I'm gonna upload every other
day but I'm definitely gonna film every
day I need to make a video every single
day I'm sitting myself this goal because
yeah if I just force myself to do it
there's this quote that my friend says
practice well so saying practice makes
progress and I just love that so much
practice makes progress practice doesn't
make perfect Regas perfect doesn't exist
okay I watch any of my old videos now
the only thing I think is oh like you've
done all these things wrong but at the
time I didn't think that at the time I
was so proud of the videos I was making
so the more talented you become then the
more critical you are and the higher
your centers are of yourself so it will
never reach perfection for you because
what that looks like like what a video
looks like that you're super proud of or
whatever it is that you guys create and
do if you reach a goal by the time
you've reached it your goals already
moved up so practice will never make
perfect practice practice makes progress
and so this week for me is putting that
practice into action
yeah I'm nervous but I'm excited so I've
got a super fun week planned for you
guys and I can't wait to share it with
you okay I love you guys so much thank
you for the constant support and I'm
gonna jump straight in to our first vlog
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so we're walking down this alleyway and
this is the restaurant that you just
found how beautiful is this Wow how cool
is this
mariah has this thing about not having
shoes in a bed nothing dirty can be in
the bed just stepped into Avery and for
lunch we did a walking tour this morning
which was interesting yeah this guy they
it was basically my thing with walking
tours is if you're hoping to take photos
and video then it can be really tough
because a lot of times the guide is just
trying to like I get it he's like this
is the way I need to do the itinerary we
have to stick to it and if you walk past
a beautiful door and people want to take
photos and he gets really stressed out
so I would recommend that you know what
actually I think it's cool cuz we just
got here to just do like a quick it was
only a three-hour morning one and the
cool thing about tours is it takes you
to places that you maybe you never
thought like would have gone to
otherwise so we got to like walk down
certain streets and stuff through we
have to come back we'd like putting it
on our map so that was cool but I'd
recommend maybe if you have like a very
limited amount of time somewhere I think
I would just say just you do your own
walking tour because then it leaves room
for spontaneity as well if you walk past
something you're like I want to go in
there and have lunch there or whatever
that means you can do that but so anyway
we actually ended up breaking off a
little bit early and we stepped in to
get some lunch and I just randomly like
googled from where we were what's nearby
and this place had tons of good reviews
and look at how stunning it is it's
basically within a riad so this is a
rillette it's a pull but they've got
food and we just flipped open and they
have a massive vegan menu like we're in
the middle of Marrakesh and a random
riad and they have a page of a vegan
menu
not only that's okay no right just
walked up to the rooftop because it's
actually a bit chilly and I went to be
in the Sun and also an artery had to the
roof is my favorite part so you think I
need to make sure they're like always
check out the rooftop oh what's up there
look how cute you're looking at over the
city wow there's like rugs drying over
there
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we are having the loveliest lunch on
this rooftop I think I was just saying
we should try like try to get places
like this for every lunch because it's
kind of hitting in the middle of nowhere
it's super quiet like two streets over
it's crazy motorbikes and the crazy
Suk's but it's a super quiet and sunny
and like you can obviously see over all
the houses I feel like it's the perfect
break because Marrakech can get a little
overwhelming especially you're not used
to like a big bustling cities so I'd
highly recommend having lunches in
places like this that are like calm and
slow and chill and then come back out to
the wildness
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we came up to it get some dinner and it
is the perfect time the Sun is setting
and we're looking at these amount like
all the mountains are ahead of us
Suns setting all right
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just got back to re-add look how
beautiful this is
Wow put candles now okay and that's our
room up there the balcony oh these are
these rose petals yeah these are for us
we asked for that used to take a photo
they did it amazing I know okay Oh what
is your vision my vision is for all
these candles to be lit and this to just
be a wonderland of Moroccan that's
amazing
only problem is the water is really cold
so I don't know which one of us is gonna
get in there for the photo
okay well waiting for Dakota to change
to his bathing suit I'm gonna finish the
vlog here I hope that you guys liked it
day one of the Morocco vlogs and yeah
let me know if you feel or have felt
similar to how I'm feeling and when I
opened up to you about because I think
so many of us struggle with being too
hard on ourselves and don't try to go
for our dreams because of fear fears
what holds us back and for me it's been
a fear of failure I guess or just like
not being good enough and I've let me
hold me back I'm let me hold myself back
let myself hold me back let myself
willed me back from ya doing what I
frickin love to do so I'm not gonna do
that anymore and I'm excited for this
week and to share it with you guys and
if this photo works out I'm gonna post a
few okay
I love you guys and I will see you
tomorrow
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