- I was doing an internship one time.
Somebody working there, he told me
don't bring snacks to work because you're gonna get
chubbier than you already are.
- I grew really fast.
Faster than most of my Asian-American friends.
- I swam all my life, so I have big shoulders.
It was normal for my family and family friends
to just tell me that I'm big.
- They're like oh, Diane, like, you got a little chubby.
Or like, they'd just say those small things
when they first see me.
- My thighs are bigger, my arms are bigger,
my boobs are bigger.
- In the later part of my childhood I was told
that I was chubby, and that it's a shame
because I used to be so skinny when I was a kid.
- I don't feel part of my body.
Every time I look into the mirror I see something different
in every mirror.
- Size-wise, and culturally, I was just, like,
just different from everyone else.
- For Asian women, in my experience,
is that we need to be thin and that means not muscular.
- You need like a tiny waist
but you still have to have curves.
- Going to Japan, especially, I get looks
that I'm not quite Japanese because I don't have
the nice, fair skin, I don't have a tiny, like, petite body.
- There's always something to fix.
- Usually when my mom makes comments
it's in the middle of dinner
and I just think that I was almost out of here
without her saying one comment about my weight
or how much I'm eating.
- It's funny, because my mom will be like
here's all this food, don't go hungry,
ooo, but don't overeat,
but finish all the rice on your plate.
It's like, I just like, everything came with a but
and it was really confusing for me.
- When I was living in Korea the pressures to look
a certain way came from every aspect of my life,
from my friends, to my family, to my relatives.
Um, even from like random strangers
who commented on my appearance.
- So many rules.
Rules and rules and rules,
so you could be like this cookie cutter like,
shape and figure, and things that they find perfect.
It's just like this vicious cycle (laughs cynically)
of like, trying to get to a point where I'm happy
with my body.
- I will work on my body however I please.
- When you are different, that means
that you're challenging the norm.
- You don't have to be thin to be happy.
- Like, you do things for yourself
and you be healthy for yourself,
and you can be thick, and that is okay.
- Being different isn't bad.
Being different is being you, and being you,
you're liberated and you are empowered.
- And I'm not skinny.
I can enjoy my life without looking perfect.
- For all you Asian girls who have big boobs
they're really great in the future, k?
That's all I'm saying.