- It felt like love and affection,
it was really missing in my life at the time.
I'd completely forgotten what it is.
Like, I just needed somebody to just call me
and just check up on me and just be real and just be friends
with me and just, you know, just be there for me.
So, the thing is, I and Justin Bieber,
we've been friends for a while.
He's been a fan of my music and, just like me too,
I've been a fan of Justin's music from when I was a kid.
It was a big deal when he reached out.
He followed me, texted me on Instagram,
a long time ago, when I first dropped my first project,
and, yeah, we've been talking ever since then.
A lot of people live like that,
like, day to day, they don't have nobody to talk to,
nobody to check up on them.
So, a little love and affection could just really
mean anything, in any way anybody
can just show somebody care.
And when I said, ""That's all I desire,"
it's not just for me,
it's just, I feel like it's for everybody.
There's no emoji on my keypad that can actually
express the kind of things I've seen.
I've seen betrayal a lot.
I don't forget things easily and things just stay
with me forever, and trauma and everything is just
for some reasons, therapy doesn't help, it just sticks,
it just stays with me forever.
Little hurts just stays forever.
So, yeah, everything in my past still kind of, yeah.
Still put all those things in my songs.
When I feel like I'm losing my mind,
I like to have fun: play video games;
I like to hang out with beautiful ladies a lot, a lot.
That's my favorite part of life.
And yeah, those are the things that actually eases me off
when I'm losing my mind.
What I do in the middle of the night,
I write songs a lot.
And in the '90s, actually just, it feels like my own day,
that's where my day start,
in the middle of the night.
I smoke up, I drink up,
and I just stay in my vibe and just stay in my vibe.
And sometimes in the middle of the night
is when I actually just go out and hang out with people,
people that I love staying
out in the night, too.
Everything just happened so fast for me.
I became more famous than I than I thought
I was gonna be at that time,
so it was too big for me to handle,
and it felt like there was no freedom.
I think that was even what messed up my body clock
and I started moving at night more.
I need some freedom.
I need some time to just chill out,
walk on the street, go to the mall, and be a normal human.
How I show people attention?
Just calling, checking up on you,
buying you a little snack, you know,
seeing you in the public
and seeing that you're not confident,
and just talking to you and saying,
"Yo, you look beautiful."
My friends are 90% of the thing I care about,
and my family, and I love my friends so much.
I mean, if you guys are watching this right now,
just know I love you, right.
Proper family for forever.