One of the things that I've had to deal with
and I'm curious what you guys think about this.
One of the things I've had to deal with,
from a forensic psychology standpoint,
is the difference between an irresistible impulse
and an impulse not resisted.
I've had to make those determinations before
in criminal cases.
An irresistible impulse,
where you have no control,
it just takes you over
and you have no ability to resist the impulse whatsoever.
It just takes you over
and you become a passenger
versus an impulse that is just not resisted,
you just choose not to resist the impulse.
It presents itself and you say, yes, no, yes.
So, what are you saying here?
Are you saying that your lying is an irresistible impulse
or an impulse not resisted?
I mean I can't resist it,
no matter what I do, it just takes over my life.
I feel like even when I tell myself
I'm gonna choose to be honest,
I cannot be honest with myself, with people.
So, you say it is an irresistible impulse?
Yes.
That you have no ability to edit yourself?
You have no ability to pump the brake?
You have no ability to choose right or wrong?
So, you are a total sociopath?
No, I think, I don't know,
I just feel like I want to be honest with people,
and no matter how hard I try--
Do you know right from wrong?
I believe I know the difference, yes.
So, at the time that you're telling these people here,
the time that you're telling Brian that you're James
and you're feeling left out,
do you know the difference between right and wrong?
Do you know that's wrong?
I know that--
Or does that even occur to you?
Yeah, I know that it's wrong.
You know it's wrong.
Yeah.
And you're telling me that that's an irresistible impulse,
that that just comes on to you
and you have no choice but to type that up
and send it to Brian?
And guilt-induce him for making you,
who don't exist,
feel left out?
No, I think that's a choice.
So, it's not an irresistible impulse?
It is a premeditated way
to leverage them into giving you something more.
Yeah.
Do you have any remorse for it?
Yeah, I have a lot of remorse for it.
I feel terrible that I've done that
to the people that I've met
and I've done it to all of them.
Okay, what have you done to Liz?
What have you done to her?
What is the impact of your behavior and lies?
I mean, she just,
she was so supportive
and she was just always there for me.
And I just took that trust away from her.
Now, I don't know if she can trust other people
that come to her for help.
What have you done to her?
Hang on, hang on, what have you done to her?
Just lying to her
and taking her away from her family and her friends
and, you know, the stuff she did,
you know work
and the stuff that's important to her life, as well.
You see the problem?
Here's the problem.
Psychopaths or sociopaths have no empathy,
so they can't mimic it.
They don't know.
If you ask someone that has empathy that question,
they would say, I've broken her heart.
She gave to me and I took that and wadded it up.
I violated her trust
and she is heartbroken and humiliated
and it's crushed her soul
and now she doesn't know if she can ever trust anybody again
and it's changed who she is
and I've taken away innocence in her life.
I've taken away her ability
to feel like she can reach out and give to people
and that's a horrible thing to do to somebody
that has a great heart and spirit.
She can't even mimic those words
because she doesn't know how to stand in your shoes
because she doesn't have empathy.
That's why I said, well I wasted your time.
I wasted your time.
That's why there's no genuine remorse here.