there you will have to tell before
acting down because
I just get scared when it gets quiet
well we started out with how you having
to come into the hospital and
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we've been talking about your parents
for the particular happenings that
well when I was living with my
grandmother a lot his mother and she and
mother would go uptown took the movie or
something
and they'd always leave me with him
because he was either only drunk or with
a hangover from being drunk and then
that is when he would do what he did to
me and I can remember going to the door
inquiring for them not to leave me and
they would every turn
I can remember one time when I had a
girl to spend the night with me and he
did say my mother was there a lot of
times
you think he's sick I guess you've
already said that in fact I can whateve
him around and he has really I think he
did what I did he just regress to
something he's got the land of a child
do you think you you regress yeah no I
did you tell me another
when
to begin with I don't know how I did it
I don't really know when it first
started because I didn't realize it when
it happened but somehow another I got
the funny feeling that I could have a
better time with younger people which I
was having a pretty good time
until I realized it all had to come to
me now the way I realized that was to
get a divorce so I come in here I
thought well I just get rested up get
the nerves straight
and then I'll go home and get a divorce
and be happy well that wasn't right my
husband pointed out to me just what was
going on then I thought about it and I
started looking back and I realized that
he was right
so
I have started working toward coming out
of that stage now I do have times when I
go back and I knew it
then I get worried about it then I get
nervous and then I get upset
say something because I don't think I
could be married to a man like him
and I think that it's why I turned
against my husband to another reason the
whole is that well he's just a
hardworking person
and when someone makes love to me now I
want them to be affectionate and come
solely not just to want to have a sexual
intercourse and I have never had that
I think that's why I can to turn against
dr. Graham one person at the time right
now and I can't understand me
when I'm with dr. Graham I feel an
attraction to him then he'll say
something that hits me the wrong way
then I go to pieces the same way was my
husband when I'm with him I can feel
attraction toward him that I hate dr.
Graham when I'm with mother I feel an
attraction toward her and I need my
husband
then I cannot link on forehead together
it's the strangest funniest feeling
because I want to love everybody
and I think that I will be strong enough
and have enough courage to talk to you
to dr. Graham to anybody enough that
it'll help me
why think you've done pretty well at
talking
were you in the man that's exactly what
I was sitting there thinking now I feel
better with you